Lost In The World

Let's break out of this fake-ass party, turn this into a classic night. My internet journal bitch!

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I just want someone to get it right the first time

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My best friend tells me it’s not my fault.

But everytime?

The best thing to do:

Keep loving self.

No more second guessing

I’m the first thought.

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Go Knicks!

Also, I booked my first role since moving!!

Yay!

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Dating two guys at once is too much work

Especially when one of them is all over you

Don’t get me wrong.. I love it..

But I need space!

Also that one doesn’t spend enough money..

That makes me feel like we’re not dating

The other one.. we have fun and he’s really funny

But lowkey I can’t tell if he likes me or not lol

I know he keeps planning dates..

Maybe he’s just bored

Well

Summer 2026!

My bestie comes in town tomorrow so I’m going hunting lol

I need to find the love of my life!

I’m ready!

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Ugh this is my last date w this man

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To you it seems insignificant

To me everything is different now

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I’m realizing, I just wanted to be loved.

To love, actively.

Everything else was to prevent the wrong love

But it all feels wrong

And right!

I’m definitely “dating” two guys at once.

One of them, BAD for me.

My father would kill both of us.

The other guy, super nice and has a plan.

But it’s something about him that just gives me the ick.

Anyway, this will end in heartbreak as they all do.

Something I was trying to avoid.

In these pictures, the bad boy, had spent the night.

We got really … yeah .. that night.

Though, I felt close, I know we’re not.

It made me cry.

I went for a walk and had to listen to empowering music.

Went to a fancy restaurant after, by myself.

I wish I could combine both guys together.

Am I wrong?

I pray for the answers

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Ok it’s time.

What the next project?

Where do I channel my creative energy?

Hmmmm

Painting?

Writing?

Loving?

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I am my father’s child.

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I’m so bad lol

I can’t even say what I’m doing

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I’m getting better tho

I’m asking for what I want

Being mean when necessary

But this is God’s child.. I can’t be mean lol

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If we’re hanging out ..

And I offer to pay half

That’s your sign as a man..

This is not a date LOL

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Be careful what tf you wish for

Be EXTREMELY specific

Just a fore warning

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Either I made a big mistake

Or

I’m just free?..

Girl omg

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This weekend, I’m going to a park and I’m sitting in silence for an hour.

I need to ground myself

My brain is moving too much

Also

They on tiktok saying that Michael Jackson was Jesus

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Ok moving forward I will be intentional about my body

I will workout everyday