Delirious in love

Vivienne, Gryffindor, 17/7th year, she/her/hers

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The nights before |Vimber

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“Nooo, don’t wake up because of m-” She’d been speaking over Viv, and that question had Amber’s mind going in a different direction mid-word. “You have no idea how tempting that is.” She smirked, but only for a second before it was taken over by worry. Her look towards the door told exactly where her thoughts had went.

Having sex in her parents’ house was risky as it was. Doing so in the morning when someone in her family could easily wake was pushing it. Her parents both worked, even this close to Christmas, and were scheduled to wake early. Amber looked back to Viv, biting her lip. As tempting as sex was, she’d be too caught up with anxiety to actually enjoy it.

“My parents will be up soon,” she explained apologetically. “And I don’t know how well last night’s silencing spell is holding. It could have worn off by now.” It was hard to make those things last. She knew because they did, in fact, have one room in the house that was permanently under silencing charms.

It seemed that in just a very short amount of time, her mood had deflated. “I should let you get back to sleep,” Amber spoke. Her voice was now a near-whisper in case her predictions about her silencing charms were true. As much as she was loathe to, she pulled away from Viv and sat up in the cold air.

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“No, it’s okay.  I’m up now.  Besides, it just means that I get more time with you.  You’re buying though,” Viv teased, words muffled by Amber’s shoulder.  Honestly, she couldn’t even be upset that she was losing out on sleep; waking up to Amber like this was worth it.  Opening her eyes to find herself curled around her, limbs entwined in ways only someone used to sharing a bed with her could be - it was one of the best feelings.  

Of course, it had its downsides, too.  Viv could immediately tell when Amber’s body tensed and she knew she’d done something wrong.  “I was kidding - mostly,” she said, letting Amber get up and missing her warmth immediately.  This had been the hardest part of her mornings the past couple of days - letting Amber go back to her room instead of lounging around in bed for a little while.  

“I’m not going back to sleep!  I was promised coffee,” Viv said indignantly.  She’d felt the shift in mood and she wanted to keep things light, to put a smile back on Amber’s face.  Viv had been the one to burst their happy little morning bubble in the first place - the least she could do was stay awake to help bring back Amber’s good mood.

[unequivocallyviv]

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Most problematic thing your muse has ever done?

Oooh, good question.  She’s definitely run the gambit of the usual growing pains (casual homophobia and transphobia as a young teen, that sort of thing).  Her most problematic thing is probably not wanting to admit that she’s been problematic in the past.  Viv gets super defensive if you pull receipts on her instead of acknowledging her mistakes and trying to grow from them.

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The nights before |Vimber

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Amber was smirking to herself at Viv’s statement about sleep. She had to agree. On the nights when sleep managed to find her, she would fall into it so deeply she could sleep through anything. It was nice to feel like she’d had a decent night of sleep once in a while.

She tried to drift off, but this was one of those times that simply wasn’t working for her. The waxing moon wasn’t entirely to blame. Amber knew she had to wake before her parents to sneak back to her own bedroom, and falling into too deep a sleep could end badly.

When Viv spoke again, Amber was still wide awake. “Some,” she answered. “I’d probably sleep better in my own bed, but I don’t wanna.” Lying curled up with Viv and sharing in each other’s warmth was far too nice to let go of. “Don’t worry, I know a good coffee place in walking distance that opens at seven.”

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Viv rolled onto her back, accepting that she was now well and truly awake.  There was no possibility of falling back asleep, so now she was just going to have to deal with being up.  “There had better damn well be coffee if I’m going to be awake at such an ungodly hour,” she groaned.  Stretching a bit, Viv tried to wipe all the sleep from her eyes before turning back to Amber with a lascivious grin.

“Do I at least get morning sex before this whole coffee date thing?” she asked half-jokingly, scooting closer and enveloping Amber in a playful bear hug.  She understood if that was a no-no, but the hornier parts of herself had decided it couldn’t hurt to try.

The nights before |Vimber

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Sleepy Viv was downright adorable. She’d likely ensure Viv’s wrath if she tried to keep her from sleeping, but Amber always liked to tempt fate. “Well if you’re not going to give me a reason to stay here,” she whispered, “I may as well go back to my own bed.”

To make her point, she rolled away from Viv’s arms, just so she could get a reaction. She couldn’t keep it up though. Amber snickered under her breath and rolled back to Viv’s side, pressing up against the warmth of her body. “I’m fucking with you. Go back to sleep.” She pressed a small kiss to Viv’s lips then lay her head back down on the pillow.

It was still five nights before the full moon, and frankly she better get more sleep or she was doomed to get even less over the next few nights. That included Christmas. Whoever chose to put a full moon two nights after Christmas was an asshole. Amber hoped that this restlessness was just the result of an unfamiliar bed, and her unfortunate ability to wake to every shuffle and loud breath of her bedmate, otherwise she’d be very cranky come Christmas day.

“Nuuuuuu,” Viv groaned pitifully at Amber’s teasing, pulling her girlfriend back to her and clinging on.  “I know you’re fucking with me, but sleep is serious business,” she muttered against Amber’s lips, a small smile taking the sting out of her words.  She settled back in with Amber, fingers finding their way underneath Amber’s top to slot against the bars of her ribcage.  It was comforting, being able to feel her heartbeat against her palm.

Still, Viv could tell that Amber wasn’t falling asleep again any time soon.  Scooting closer, knees knocking with Amber’s as she fitted herself against her body, Viv tried to offer what support she could.  “Did you get any sleep?” she asked, wishing she could see Amber’s face; the pre-dawn light was only enough to make out vague shapes.

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The nights before |Vimber

Amber was a ball of restless energy. A familiar feeling, but an unwanted one at four in the morning. She’d gotten maybe an two hours of sleep in there somewhere, and she put that down to the result of Viv tiring her out in bed. Definitely a good way to go to sleep. Too bad it hadn’t lasted longer.

She spent an hour, maybe longer, staring at the insides of her eyelids before she gave up. It wasn’t that she didn’t want to stay by Viv’s side in the guest bedroom of the Liao home. She just couldn’t bear staying still any longer.

Sure that Viv was fast asleep due to her slow and steady breathing, Amber crept out of bed.

The chill that hit her wasn’t pleasant. It had been so nice and warm under the covers. Amber quietly worked her way through the dark to find her pyjamas on the floor beside the bed. It was a little warmer once she had them on. She checked that Viv was still asleep one more time before creeping into the hallway.

Her own bedroom where she was supposed to be sleeping tonight (and still was, as far as her family knew) was right across the way. If her family woke to the sounds of her moving about in her bedroom now, well it wouldn’t be the first time. There was only one real solution for her to burn off this restless energy that came with the waxing moon.

Amber was going for a run.

There was definitely an element of recklessness of going out in the dark alone as a young woman for a run around the block. But she’d been going for night-time runs since she was in her early-teens, and having found something that actually worked she wasn’t going to give it up for something as small as her safety. She enjoyed hearing barely more than her feet pounding the pavement while her thoughts wondered idly.

By the time she finished she was sweating through her running clothes, and the dampness was quickly chilling in the cold air. It was still too early for anyone to be awake. She took a quick shower, then changed back into her pyjamas. If she was lucky, she’d get in a few hours of sleep before waking for the day.

Amber hesitated in the hallway between two doors. Either she could return to her own room, and not risk getting caught by her parents in Viv’s bed, or she could return to Viv and get a little more time with her before dawn. There was only one way her brain was going here, so her feet followed it into the guest bedroom, locking the door behind her.

As quiet as she could, she stripped off her pyjamas again and slipped under the covers back into place beside Viv. Unfortunately she seemed have woken her, noticing Viv turn towards the new weight on the mattress.

“Sorry, didn’t mean to wake you,” she said, whispering only for Viv’s sake. The silencing charms on the room meant she could be pretty loud without the Liao family hearing. “It’s only just past six.”

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Viv made a pitiful mewling noise at hearing what time it was, cuddling closer to Amber in order to block out the knowledge that it was six o’fucking clock in the morning and she was on break.  Still, having Amber here next to her and being woken was a lot better than waking up and finding that Amber wasn’t there, which sometimes happened.  Viv didn’t know why Amber had left, but she was back and cuddle-able and that was all that mattered to her in that moment.

“I’m not awake...we’re not awake.  Shhh,” Viv mumbled.  Hopefully her girlfriend had gotten most of her restlessness out of her system - Viv wanted to stay in bed for a few hours more at least.  Of course, she would get up if she absolutely had to, but she’d prefer not to have to.  

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Here’s for making a good impression | Vimber

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“Yeah,” Amber said, on automatic. She found herself retreating into her own head again. The kind of black and white thinking Viv was talking about sounded nice. They could probably spend months in that fantasy before it would come crashing down around them. But Amber was certain that it would end before long. Before the school year ended.

She wanted to say that Viv’s mess couldn’t be seen for the big steaming pile that her’s was. Amber didn’t think that Viv had anything to hide or be ashamed of. Here they were in Viv’s house, and she was meeting Viv’s family playing pretend like this was ever going to work out.

“I do really like you,” she murmured, not really meeting Viv’s eyes. It was not that she didn’t mean it, because she did, but her feelings were the problem here. For once she actually cared that she was going to lose something. If Viv turned around and rejected her it would kill her, and that scared her.

“We should get on with introducing me to your family,” she deflected. There had to be some irony in Amber choosing that, of all things, to avoid her discomfort.

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There was something so wholly unconvincing about Amber’s reply that it immediately had Viv worried.  I wasn’t that she didn’t believe that Amber liked her - they wouldn’t be here if she didn’t.  It was just that the ‘but’ that had been left off the end of her sentence was so unmistakable that Viv had a hard time convincing herself that she hadn’t actually heard it.  That it wasn’t actually there, hanging in the air between them like some sort of omen.

She’d just have to try not to think about it until Amber decided she was ready to talk to her about it.  That was one thing she’d been trying to be more conscious of - Viv didn’t want to push things with Amber for fear that she’d go too far and scare her off.  Small steps were what this relationship needed.

“Alright.  If you’re ready, they should be waiting in the kitchen,” Viv said, trying to ignore the sinking feeling in the pit of her stomach as she sat up, bracing herself to face her family for the first time with her girlfriend at her side.  Whatever it was that Amber wasn’t saying was just something they’d have to address later.  It wouldn’t do to fight right before meeting the parents.

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Three rogue frogs Two new owls and a wand that has specially chosen me!

Pets are everywhere at Hogwarts, including, somehow, a lot of frogs. Write about your character’s pet if they have one, where they got it, what they named it, what it looks like. If you character doesn’t have a pet, then write about the pets they have to live with daily, shedding hair all over their dorm room.

[unequivocallyviv]

Viv has never been much of a pet person.  She just doesn’t have the time or inclination to take care of a living being that’s fully dependent on her, and her family at home is loud and boisterous enough without animals running around.  She just uses the school owls or the family owl if she needs to send a letter.

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Here’s for making a good impression | Vimber

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Amber snorted at Viv’s pout. The pout was, admittedly, adorable. She hoped that there wasn’t some underlying jealousy there. Honestly, she’d never go for someone like Kali. Looks were as far as things went for her. The only thing to occur between herself and the weird Romani girl was cold distance. But Viv, there was quality about the girl that ignited something within her.

Viv’s awkward admission put a wicked grin on Amber’s face. “Really?” she pushed, teasing, but also privately awed. She never thought of herself as the kind of girl who could reveal anyone’s sexuality. That was more Kali’s thing, or Dominique’s, or Rose’s, or Viv’s. All the other girls in her dorm were unfairly attractive. Especially Viv. Amber had some rather unholy thoughts about Viv in those tight crop tops she wore in summer months.

“Yeah, you kind of did.” Amber’s mood turned introspective. “You also jumped feet first into my mess.” While she liked that she’d had such an impact on Viv, she was convinced that once the honeymoon phase of their relationship ended, then Viv would tire of her. She’d see how much trouble dating a werewolf really was.

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“I’m baring my soul here,” she said, shoving Amber’s shoulder again playfully.  Honestly, Viv should have expected the smirk, but there was a kind of softness behind it that had her not minding so much that Amber had decided to tease.  “And yes, really.  You’re kind of an amazing kisser, just saying.”  As if that was the only reason Viv was drawn to her.  

Amber’s quick change in mood had her turning onto her side, eyes searching Amber’s face.  “Hey, your mess is part of you.  And I like you.”  Amber acted like she was the only person in this relationship that was fucked up, and granted, she had a lot of reason to, but still.  Viv clearly wasn’t the healthiest person either - it was what had drawn them together in the first place. 

“That’s how this thing works.  You like me, I like you, your mess becomes my mess and my mess becomes your mess.  We’re here for each other.”  At least, that’s how Viv wanted this to work.  So far it seemed that that’s what Amber wanted too, but she couldn’t exactly be sure.  Viv didn’t know everything that went on in the other girl’s head.

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A wand that has specially chosen me!

Write about your character’s wand; its wood, its core, its length and rigidity. Is it plain or is it decorated? What kind of spellwork is it best at? What is it worst at? Does your character have any kind of special attachment to it?

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Wood: Blue Spruce - Spruce wands are said to be difficult wands to work with, and so have a reputation for having stubborn owners.  While this can definitely be true of Viv, spruce wands also require a firm hand and confident spell-casting, two things that she has in spades.  Viv definitely has her own ideas about the direction her life is going to take and has strong opinions.  Blue spruce wands can produce stronger magic for those with strong personalities - needless to say Viv’s magic is particularly powerful, if a little raw and lacking in finesse.

Core: Phoenix feather - Wands with a phoenix feather core are always the pickiest when it comes to potential owners, much like Viv is picky about the people she allows to influence her life.  Her loyalty and trust is in no way easily won, but once a person has those, Viv will bend over backwards to support and protect that person.

Length: 11 1/4 in.

Rigidity: Sturdy

The body of Viv’s wand is almost unusually straight, with only slight detail work around the handle for better grip.  It’s almost utilitarian in looks, with only the silvery color of the wood and the spiral pattern of the grain giving it any unique flair.  It tends to do fairly well with DADA and anything active or outdoors, which suits Viv just fine as an athlete and strong offensive duellist.  The wand tends to struggle more with defensive spells (at least where personal defense is involved) and it’s almost completely useless with subjects like Divination and Potions.

[unequivocallyviv]

Definitely paranoid. We're still good. I'll owl you when it's a good time for me.

Glad we’re good.  I look forward to your next owl then!

[unequivocallyviv]

Of course you did. Just picture me rolling my eyes at you. But no, I'm not upset with you. Why would I be? I'd be happy to come visit, so long as homework doesn't tie me down.

I don’t know why you’d be upset with me...you’ve just seemed a little distant lately.  It’s whatever, I’m probably being paranoid.  Regardless, I’d be really happy to have you if you have time :)

[unequivocallyviv]

Hey Viv. You better not have gotten me any gifts for Christmas because I haven't gotten one for you, unless you count this letter. We never really got around to discussing each other's plans for Christmas. I presume you're doing the usual family thing, but I was wondering if the new girlfriend fitted into that somehow.

I may or may not have gotten you a gift, sorry!  I love hearing from you, anyways, so I’m happy and I’ll count it.  I was a little worried you were...I don’t know, upset with me?

Anyways, yes, Amber came over for a couple of days and then I met her family, so that was nice.  You’re always free to come as well if you get lonely up at the castle?  I’d be really happy to see you.

[unequivocallyviv]

Your Heart is Glowing (And I’m Crashing Into You) | Viv & Amber

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“Shut up,” Viv said, laughter bubbling out of her throat as she moved to adjust the water temperature to something above sub-arctic.  She nipped playfully at Amber’s lip, a little payback for being kind of a dick about Viv’s blunder. Not that she was really upset by it - there was no way she could be angry when all of that naked skin was pressed up against hers.  The move might have been suave if it wasn’t for the fact that it was so clearly an accident that had gotten her pressed against Amber so intimately.

 She pulled away from the embrace, stepping back into the stream of water, which had warmed up in the interim.  Viv watched Amber, holding her eyes and wondering what she would do next.  She wanted to see where Amber wanted to take this, and in the meantime Viv was just enjoying the sensation of sweat being rinsed from her skin.

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Here’s for making a good impression | Vimber

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Amber could feel her lips twitching in a responding little smile. She loved that she could talk to Viv like this. It made her realise just how much she had missed out on because of her self-enforced isolation. There was an inkling playing in the back of her mind that maybe she could loosen up a bit, allow other friendships to form. Maybe not.

“Insanely hot roommate helped,” she teased. “In fact, first girl I noticed was Dominique. But I thought it was just because she’s part-Veela. So I was ignorant as hell about how fucking gay I am until I started screwing around with guys. Yeah, I could get off, but my mind wasn’t with it. Then I figured out that in all of my sex dreams, even though I was brainwashed into thinking it had to be het I always ended up picturing myself as the guy having sex with a gorgeous woman. Once I figured out how stupid that was, my sex dreams started being about two women… Or more.” Amber added that bit with a smirk. 

“At the time I thought I was still testing it out to see if it was my thing, and of course that’s when hot-as-fuck Kali joined our dorm and I was like ‘well fuck I really am gay’ and now I’m just super fucking gay with a super fucking gay girlfriend who would fuck me even if my bed was hot pink so I think it turned out alright.”

[unequivocallyviv]

“I was implying that I was the insanely hot roommate,” Viv said, faux-pouting for a moment.  Honestly, she didn’t have a problem with Amber finding other girls attractive, especially because she was the only that got to see her girlfriend like this.  It was kind of amazing to be liked by someone who ostensibly hated everyone.  

“That’s so weird!  Not weird in, like, a bad way or anything - it’s just really different from my experience.  I just got slapped in the face with the gay.  Like, I mean I wasn’t having as much fun fooling around with guys anymore and that was kind of making me think, but...”  Viv stopped here, suddenly highly embarrassed.  She knew that Amber obviously liked her back and wasn’t likely to judge, but still...

“I didn’t really realize until I kissed you,” she muttered, hiding her face in Amber’s hair.  Considering she’d gone straight from kissing Amber to fucking Amber on the window seat, there hadn’t been much time for reflection.  “I just kind of jumped into the gay pool feet first.”

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Here’s for making a good impression | Vimber

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Amber scrunched up her face at the mussing of her hair, and while she didn’t laugh out loud, she was definitely amused. “So gay,” she teased back, flipping her hair back again. It was a mess around her head, akin to the look it often had after a steamy encounter with Viv. She had to count on no one walking in on them.

Which brought her to thoughts of Viv’s mother. Don’t think about it don’t think about it don’t think about it. The mantra sometimes worked.

“My room looks like a fucking Barbie store vomited on it,” she stated, as if Viv would believe that for one second. “It’s all butterflies, glitter, and cupcakes.” Humour was definitely the way to go right now. Amber was too conscious of Viv’s family elsewhere in the house to start up something naughty, but being playful felt good. She could definitely feel the lifting of her mood since their arrival in Viv’s room.

[unequivocallyviv]

“Fuck you,” Viv tossed at her, teasing smile playing at the corners of her mouth.  “Alright, high and mighty gay, what made you realize?  Girl bands?  Lesbian erotica?  Insanely hot roommate?”  The question was mostly teasing, but Viv was actually a little curious.  Amber seemed so confident in her identity that it couldn’t have been a new development.  Viv was curious as to what it was like to be sure of yourself that way.

“I fucking knew it!  You probably have a pink canopy bed too!  Which - side note - it’d be kind of hot to fuck you in, just saying.”  Viv almost wished that was actually the case, but the probability of Amber actually having a pink canopy bed was probably about as likely as Scorpius’ family accepting him back.  Speaking of, she needed to owl him over the break at some point and make sure he had a place to stay and was enjoying the hols.

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Here’s for making a good impression | Vimber

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Amber managed a tiny smirk in response to Viv’s shove. She was definitely feeling better with the kind of distraction Viv was providing. Falling half on top of Viv, her hair fell forward over them both. “Oh fuck you,” she retorted, sweeping her hair out of the way to reveal a playful smile in her eyes. Amber settled herself more comfortably against Viv’s side, ignoring that they’d have to get up soon. Because thinking about that meant welcoming in the anxiety again.

At Viv’s gesture, Amber let herself take a proper look at the room they were in. She’d taken in the colours (which were all yellows, greens, and blues for her anyways) and none of the detail. “You’ve been hot for the Harpies since you were twelve?” she teased. To be fair, Amber had done the same sort of thing, but with bands. Her walls were plastered with anything she could find that fitted her increasingly dark aesthetic.

The mention of Viv’s mother managed to knock Amber back down to reality again, and all its unfortunate consequences. “Your mum knows we’ve been fucking?” she squeaked, unusually high. Her embarrassment flooded her cheeks pink. The only thing that could make it worse was letting the entire family know they were doing it under their roof; and it would be obvious if they elected to share a bed.

[unequivocallyviv]

“Hey, they’re the only all female Quidditch team in the league and I’m hoping to get a spot with them one day!” she said, playfully defensive as she flipped Amber’s hair back into her face.  “...aaaannd maybe I might have been a little more gay than I previously realized at twelve.  Sue me.”  She smiled up at Amber, who’s adorably mussed hair was currently being haloed by the sunlight from her window.  “You’ve got to have something embarrassing on your walls.  What is it?  Bathing suit editions of Playboy?  Boy band posters?  Oh, I know.  Your room is covered in sparkles and pretty pink unicorns,” Viv teased.  She was honestly curious, but the teasing had the dual effect of distracting Amber as well.

Although apparently not as well as she’d hoped.  “You try hiding anything from my mum.  She knew we were fucking before I even walked in the door.  I mean, at least she’s okay with it,” Viv said, shrugging a bit.  Her family wasn’t one of those that shied away from topics.  She’d had the talk when she was fairly young, and her mom would rather know that she was having safe sex than have her trying to hide her escapades.  They didn’t try to control her like that, which was always nice.  That didn’t mean teasing didn’t happen, but it was usually light-hearted and easily brushed off.

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Here’s for making a good impression | Vimber

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Amber forced her mind to focus only on Viv, on the kiss and the scent of her that had become so familiar lately.  She needed the reminder that despite being in a strange house with strange people, Viv was still with her all the way. This was something she needed to do, random freakouts aside. And she didn’t want to let Viv down.

Joining Viv on the bed, she felt right enough to fondly quip, “Now you’re turning fucking soppy.” It helped to tease, to play and not let herself get too tied up in how serious this situation was for her right now. Sure, she appreciated the words, but a jibe came more naturally to her than a few soppy words in return. Amber wasn’t entirely sure that Viv would get that.

[unequivocallyviv]

Viv shoved Amber’s shoulder playfully at the jibe, falling back onto the bedspread with a chuckle.  “If I am, it’s your fault,” she teased back, pulling Amber down to join her in a cuddle session just because.  Besides, having Amber here, in her childhood room, sprawled out on her bed...there was something about it that had Viv wanting to hide themselves away all afternoon and let whatever happened happen.

“So this is my room...hasn’t changed since I was about 12,” she said, gesturing around widely.  The walls were covered in Holyhead Harpy posters (which honestly should have been a bit of a clue concerning her sexuality since half the team was gay and they were all incredibly hot), and everything was shades of warm brown, cream, and Gryffindor scarlet and gold.   The skylight above her bed let her see the stars at night, and woke her up ridiculously early with sunlight directly to the face, but she wouldn’t change a thing.

“My mum said you could stay in here with me if you want, or there’s a guest room next door if you’re more comfortable with that.  She just said to mention that we should use a silencing charm if you decide to sleep in here, which was honestly really embarrassing and I hope it’s the only time she ever brings that up.”  Ever.