You ever feel like you're losing but keep going anyways? That's how i feel all the time. I'm losing at life every day. I think of dying most days. What would a world without me feel like to those I "matter" too. Would the sadness linger. Or would it pass as quick as the seasons. Trapped in my own thoughts. Throwing salt on my open wounds so i don't have to feel anymore. I don't want to feel the hurt in my heart. I don't want to hear the sound of my thoughts. I want to be mute. Alone and cold. Just me and my darkness that consumes me so effortlessly. Down the tears drizzle in the blank stare. Crying for help in their faces every passing day. Never noticing the hurt is masked by the smiles of this fraud. Living a life of hate just to be alive.
-N.G.















