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You ever feel like you're losing but keep going anyways? That's how i feel all the time. I'm losing at life every day. I think of dying most days. What would a world without me feel like to those I "matter" too. Would the sadness linger. Or would it pass as quick as the seasons. Trapped in my own thoughts. Throwing salt on my open wounds so i don't have to feel anymore. I don't want to feel the hurt in my heart. I don't want to hear the sound of my thoughts. I want to be mute. Alone and cold. Just me and my darkness that consumes me so effortlessly. Down the tears drizzle in the blank stare. Crying for help in their faces every passing day. Never noticing the hurt is masked by the smiles of this fraud. Living a life of hate just to be alive.

-N.G.

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You really hurt me. A deep kind of broken that even the thought is alien. My eyes flood with tears in the mourning of my love. You took every ounce of life my pathetic heart clinged to. I needed it. And it was purged. Still never able to fill it with reason. Only echos of the faint words from bullshit apologies. I loved you. But you laughed on my grave. The very depth you sunk me into. Walked around like you were on top of the world. While i was dying beneath your every step. Karma is the biggest bitch as she too turned her back and labeled me worthless. A stingy bitch that douzed her wrath to the undeserving. Who makes it right when karma fails you too.

-N.G.

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