Nothing lasts forever... Not even the Earth or the Sky

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Sometimes I wonder if faking happiness is a right thing to do...

Lately I’ve been doing everything I can to keep myself away from negative thoughts and feelings, in order to avoid as much as possible to fall again into a gloomy, depressive mood… (Of course, the anti depressants I take help a lot!)

When I’m with my family, or when I chat with my few friends, I try to smile, to seem cheerful and optimistic, so I can contribute to make others’ day at least a bit better, to spread a positive attitude among the people I love… I mean, I do things like taking nice photos and upload them to Instagram and Facebook… I like to share funny and interesting stuff with everyone. Heck! That’s the reason of the existence of my main blog, there I post about the many fascinating facts that science has discovered, intelectual curiosities, and such… I like to always show the best part of me to the world…

But is that really fine?… Even if it’s for something good, and with the best intentions… Wouldn’t it be dishonest? Isn’t it to be lying to everyone, and to myself?

I’ve always thought that the best way to make yourself happy is by helping others to be happy as well… But, yet again… How much good will it do if the happiness and positive mood I spread are nothing but a mere illusion? If deep down inside of me there’s only sorrow and misery resulting from the realization of the tragedies of this life? Is it that in reality, joy itself is just a beautiful delusion in a cruel world like this one?

Sometimes I just gaze into the cosmos in the night sky, and wonder, desperately searching for an answer in the stars… Yeah, as if I were to find it there…

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Some of my elucidations about the meaning of life...

From my late teenage years to this exact moment, I’ve oftenly had thoughts about the very nature of our reality, of existence itself… So, to talk about this… Where to begin with?… *Sigh*

I remember I was sitting alone on a little bench at high school, waiting for the time in which the next class would begin… I was trying to get into positive thinking: “Ok, now I’ll do my best to obtain good grades! I got this!! I’ll be successful in life!…Plus getting new knowledge is amazing!”

But suddenly a piercing self-question came through my mind: “Does-it-really-matter? Does-ANYTHING-really-matter?” And that was it… At that moment I literally felt a lightning striking my head and spine, it truly was the most eerie, uncanny feeling I ever had in my whole life. I had the urgent impulse to just run away… But where? There isn’t any place to hide from an idea, from my own thoughts!

I didn’t even enter to my classroom that day… I remember I began to walk randomly through the streets of the city instead, feeling lost and confused, with teared eyes, because following that fatal question, a hundred more started to appear inside my mind as well… “How significant are the actions of little human beings in this vast universe?… Our lives, our memories and experiences… Do any of those things have even the tiniest meaning in this existence?”

To think everything we know and love will probably just dissappear into ovblivion after we die and our biological, neuro-chemical process of awareness ceases to function…The notion of the people we’ve ever loved and admired, our family, our friends, and our cute pets… The things we like, our favorite music, movies, games, and hobbies… Everything… Our personal stories and experiences, our precious memories… just gone… lost forever… Information irreversibly erased, as the matter each one of us human biological creatures, are made of, decays… It’s heartbreaking, and totally devastating… at least to me…

So… Is that the ultimate fate of everyone of us? Is this the real value of our existence here?…

In the end, what is all this for? An infinite nothingness, it seems.

It could be said that it would have been better if we never existed in the first place…

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How I’d like to have TJ’s attitude about this subject! Instead of being depressed and terrified all the time about it...

Things would be so much easier this way.

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“Few, or any matter is more terrifying than the extinction of the human race. The end of our species… But, do you really understand what that signifies? What really means that you, and every single human being on the face of this world dissappears… From the planet, or alongside the planet?

Let’s put into test how deep your reflection on this matter has been: One day it will happen. That means in the long term, the nations will dissappear, all the geographic limits would vanish, for they weren’t more than mere made up rules and ideas. From the United States of America to Mexico, from Mexico to Argentina, and from Argentina to China… and the rest of the world. The highways wouldn’t be more than big chunks of concrete slowly cracking down; The cities, just ruins on the distance, slowly merging down.

And, although what was previously described is absolutely terrible, the concept hasn’t even minimmaly settled in all its dreadful meaning. Consider that our whole history, everything we ever were, all our genealogy, our heroes, our past civilizations, our achievements: From the construction of the pyramids, to the first man to go into outer space, and everything in-between. Everything written on history books, all of our leaders, presidents, kings, and emperors. Every invention, our musical history from the first instrument to the last recorded disc. Every data you ever uploaded to the Internet, all our literature works, the art we’ve created, going from the hieroglyphs to the Sistine Chappel, passing through modern art… Absolutely everything would be erased, and to the universe, the fathomless cosmic void, we wouldn’t have been even a lonely idea… An echo of which, perhaps, so little (Or nothing) would have been left, that not even other civilizations will be ever aware that we existed, of what we once were…

Do you really have thought about the heavy implications of the extinction of the human race? So meaningful to us, and all our history… But so meaningless to the cosmos…”

Ángel David Revilla (DrossRotzank)

These words sound in my mind every single day of my life, and sometimes this fact of reality is so hard for me to face… Because I can’t even talk to anyone about how this makes me feel…

For these matters, I seem to be all on my own… alone…

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Hey people! (⌒‿⌒)

As the very gloomy, pesimistic, despicable being that deep down inside I truly am... ( ﾉ ～ `｡)

I’ll leave this here, for everyone to think a little about the many, MANY ways in which society may collapse, all humanity go extinct, the whole Earth and living creatures vanish...How our solar system, our galaxy, even the universe and existence itself could (and sooner or later, inevitably will) meet their end.

So... Have Fun, Pals!! While you still can...  (-ω-、)

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Power Corrupts, The Series. Tenth and last chapter of the first season.

Have you ever wondered about the true meaning and nature of our existence here? Have you ever asked yourself what makes reality… well… real? What if our lives are runned by something inimaginably complex, far beyond our current scientific knowledge, and even whatever thing our imagination is able to come up with? An unimaginably advanced technology, an incredibly vast simulation or so… Maybe we’ll be able to find out someday…Or maybe this awareness is utterly unreachable for our limited intelect and technical possibilities, and we’ll never find out… After all, despite the huge knowledge we’ve managed to gain about our universe through science, observation, and exploration, there are still so many mysteries and questions we can’t find the answers for…

And what about our consciousness? Our qualia, our self awareness, the very personal, unique experience of being “inside of ourselves” for the lack of better terms… What makes us be ourselves? Are we our minds? Our memories? Our personalities? Are all these concepts just the result of a process run by a bunch of molecules and biochemical conections? Are we just electrical streams of a decaying and fragile physical body’s neural network? This is what it seems to be, but the truth is that we probably will never know for sure either. We might as well, be made out of computer programs and codes, whithout even knowing it, under an intrincated delusion of such technology, being the truly natural process…

This fascinating chapter of the series brings us all these questions, and many many more, about all these complex philosophical matters, and also about our concept of human society, ethics, morals, and empathy capability to another living or sentient beings, from an outside-the-box perspective.  So Jeffery goes on telling the chronicler robot about past events related to his scape from Jahweh’s test simulated universe, and later, from his eventual gain of absolute control over the real world as well. We’re introduced to Adam Ross Kaywood, a normal man inside the simulated universe for said test, whose existence’s purpose and nature is finally revealed to him after he “died” on it. Jeffery asks Adam to help him fight Jahweh’s mayhem on the real world.

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Ninth episode. This shows us how terrible Christianism’s so called divine laws truly are, if applied by a real person in the real world by plausible technological means… It would likely lead to a terrible dictatorship, a kind of armageddon brought upon the world by a perverse megalomaniac being, sick with the desire of absolute power and domination to other fellow humans. But most of the believers on the Christian and the Muslim religions are blinded to this fact due to their indoctrination, so they actually want the “divine being” to do this, they long for this to happen despite how horrible it would be.

Here in this story, Jahweh, as a real human, a very vengeful teenager, managed to get absolute control over the technological world, technically becoming an omnipresent and omnipotent being, not only inside his simulated universe, but in the real world as well, leading humanity to total domination and slavery imposed by him and his tyranical ways. Though this part of the tale is actually a retrospective, being told to the chronicler robot by an older Jeffery. What happened between those two events is still unknown.

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Eighth episode. Besides the fact that most of religious people seek for solace, for an answer to life’s painful and scary truths, like death, like our little significance in the cosmos, there’s an even darker side about these beliefs: They were invented, and still are used nowadays to coerce, to control other people, and most of them are a mean of mass control, a dogma. Their laws were designed to mantain the power, to be out of questioning, to be the highest authority, and to be very difficult to scape from.

But the sad thing about this, is that it isn’t only the religions per se what caused this, in fact religion is just one of the many manifestations of humanity’s obsessive thirst of power, which makes us be dogmatic and very closed-minded about many other matters too: Politics, entertainment, personal opinions, etc. Until we as a species get over this primal characteristic of ours, and learn to truly open our minds, to be tolerant, respectful, and loving towards each other, we won’t be able to scape from this problematic situations.

So the story goes on with Jeffery being interviewed some time after his job as an intern in school’s sociology test. And something very relevant seems to have happened inside of Jahweh’s simulation involving him:

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Seventh Chapter. A tremendously deep analogy was made here... What if the artificial inteligence of a distant future gained sentience and counsiousness to the point of even developing the ability of inventing their own religious beliefs, just as we did in the ancient times?... Well, it seems that they would face the same disappointment as us human beings; Realizing which our true humbling origins are, get to know we emerged from a simpler, primitive form of life through a natural process that takes millions of years, in a small planet among countless other sidereal objects in the known universe; Instead of being the creation of a divine and all powerful, all knowing being.

This part of the story seems to be a time skip in which we get to see an older and more mature Jeffery, who now is the creator of a robot society, much time after he was the intern assistant in Jahweh’s test.

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Sixth Chapter. Imagine a gloomy post-apocalyptic future in which all of humanity’s technological advances such as electricity, telecomunications, and internet had disappeared. Imagine big and famous cities around the whole world turned into decaying ruins, just a sad and pathetic memory of what we, as a global society, as a species once were... Think about what would happen if our pety and absurd fights against each other, about cultural or ideological differences ended up destroying our greatest achievements.

We must begin to truly appreciate what we have, the relatively safe way we can afford to live, and be aware of how lucky we really are right now.

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Fifth episode. If Yahweh, the god of Christianity were a young boy, being instructed to create a universe inside a virtual simulation for a test in a futuristic society, he absolutely needs to be told some very important things about his very questionable ways of ruling and managing his reality.

In order to be worthy of being called a true, undeniable god in a vast, massive, incomprehensibly extensive existence like this one in which we all are in, he surely would have a lot to learn.

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Fourth Episode. When people are threaten, the demand for hope will rise, they’d be desperate to the point of buying it at any price. That’s why religion gets to gather so many followers, even with all its logical problems and its violent, discriminative, and oppresive methods.

Most of us as human beings, are afraid of death, we don’t like the idea of just vanishing into nonexistence after we die. So we lie to ourselves, we want to believe in an illusive concept of an afterlife of bliss and happiness... And, what does so many people do because of this? Commit themselves to a dogmatic, arcaic concept of a deity who demands to be worshiped in order to let them enter to his so called paradise.

In the story, we see how Lucy’s intended sabotage to Yahweh’s test doesn’t go how she planned, and instead, she ends up being his “fall guy” getting the blame for everything that goes wrong inside of his simulated universe.

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Third Chapter. The true motivations of Yahweh to send people to heaven or hell inside his universe.

In the Christian religion, people are told that God wants to have a relationship with each one of his children, but the huge problem of incentivizing them with a reward like heaven, or threatening them with a punishment like hell, is that such relationships would be a mere seeking of convenience... It would never be true and sincere love to the supposed creator of reality and divine caring father of all living things.

At the end, we see Lucy, who seems to be Yahweh’s crush, planning a retribution for not letting her get into the club with the rest of their schoolmates, trying to do sabotage to Yahweh’s test.

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Second chapter. We take a look of how in ancient, primitive tribal societies, the leaders, usually the elder people, first used the concept of a god, which conveniently only they could see and talk to, inside of a forbidden cave, to manipulate, gain power and control on the rest of the people of their nomadic comunities.

Besides this, Yahweh’s test goes on. After he was introduced into his simulated universe, the staff noticed a problem with it: The simulation’s default position was supposed to be empty, yet there was an entire ocean on it already. This represented a logical problem, and a possible failure in the illusion of omniscience and omnipotence needed to do the test correctly.

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Power Corrupts, The Series

There’s an absolutely brilliant Youtuber known as DarkMatter2525, whose flash animation videos are a witty and hilarious critique to Christianism, along with other religions, and their many, many problems. But in this case, things turned a lot more serious, and the way he makes us ponder about the philosophical and intelectual implications of these religious beliefs is really impressive. Each one of the episodes takes you to a deep journey of thought and reflection, not only about these beliefs, but about the ideas concerning the actual foundation of existence itself…

On the first episode, we’re introduced to the story of Yahweh, the god of the Christian religion, but not as the majority of people conceives him, but as a troubled teenager in a futuristic world, who faces a sociology test in school, designed to determine who should be given power, a leading position in society, based on its results. The test consist of a simulated virtual universe, in which each student would be its god, under the believe that they created it and have absolute power towards it and its inhabitants. So, let’s see how it goes: