an unkindness of ravens.

[unkindrvns]

#𝚄𝙽𝙺𝙸𝙽𝙳𝚁𝚅𝙽𝚂,   a  one  tr.ee  h.ill  multi  muse  sideblog  to  @ttrgrl,  iconless,  extremely  selective  and  low  activity,   temporarily  exclusive  to  @everhearts​  and  @illuminatcd​.

𝙼𝚄𝚂𝙴  𝙻𝙸𝚂𝚃: lucas  s.cott,  julian  b.aker  and  diana  harrison.

[everhearts-deactivated20240821]

@unkindrvns​ [ JULIAN ] said: ❛❛ well, this was really nice, maybe we should do this on purpose sometime.❜❜ toPEYTON.

❛❛  WHICH part ? ❜❜ the blonde teased, cocking an eyebrow in amusement as she shifted into a more comfortable position and glanced over at the male. the last thing she was looking for was a new relationship when she originally moved to los angeles, but meeting julian almost felt like fate. she was being careful with her heart and trying to focus solely on her internship, but there was just something about him that drew her in. his shy charm, his love and dedication for the arts, the amazing conversations they’d had and now the night they’d just spent together made it impossible to stay away. it’d been one of the best nights she’d had in a while, and though she didn’t expect anything to come out of it now, part of her hoped something would. ❛❛ the dinner, the sleep-over or the other thing ?  ❜❜

[unkindrvns]

it  wasn’t  hard  to  believe  peyton  sawyer  had  a  whole  book  written  about  her   —   hell,   if  he  had  any  talent  for  writing  in  him,   he  might  even  give  that  lucas  guy  a  run  for  his  money.    everything  about  her  made  him  smile,   like  a  wave  of  supersonic  delight  that  washed  over  him  with  the  high  in  a  shot  of  ecstacy,   but  made  out  of  concentrated  sunshine  instead.   her  dimples,   her  tongue-in-cheek  sense  of  humor,   those  forest  green  eyes   —   she  was  the  closest  thing  to  perfect  he’d  ever  seen  out  of  a  movie  screen,   and  she  almost  felt  too  good  to  still  be  there  when  the  credits  of  his  earnest  crush  stopped  rolling.   but  he’d  be  a  fool  not  to  live  in  the  joy  of  real-life  cinematic  magic  for  as  long  as  he  could.   DESPITE  HOW  VERY  FEW  TIMES  THERE  WERE  AN  NON-TUMULTUOUS  WAY  TO  A  HAPPILY  EVER  AFTER.   a  dashing  smirk  hooks  to  her  teasing  words,   slowly  closing  in  the  space  between  them  across  the  mattress,   ❛   well,  for  the  sake  of  proving  the  chivalry  ain’t  dead  trope  still  exists,   dinner,   but  it  wouldn’t  be  very  chivalrous  of  me  to  lie  and  say  i  didn’t  thoroughly  enjoy  the  sleep-over  and  the  other  thing,   too,   now,   would  it?   ❜   julian  arguments,   dimples  sculpting  an  equal-parts  mischievous  and  sweet  smile  as  he  brings  his  thumb  up  to  her  cheek,   cups  her  face,   and  plants  a  kiss  on  those  angelic  lips  of  hers.   barely  an  inch  away,   he  whispers  to  seal  the  deal,   ❛   question  is,   will  i  be  lucky  enough  to  rinse  and  repeat  another  time?   thursday  after  work,  perhaps?  ❜

[mastermicd-arch]

𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐟𝐥𝐢𝐫𝐭𝐲 𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐬   →   accepting.

@unkindrvns​ : “ someone better call god.  looks like he’s missing his prettiest angel. “

there was a raise of her eyebrow, one that said that perhaps the line hadn’t worked in the way that he’d thought it might do. “has that one worked for you in the past?” she asked, though the look fell away to reveal the smile behind it, the one that said that it might have actually worked in the first place. an expression that said that perhaps julian baker was getting closer and closer to brooke davis.

[unkindrvns]

❛   no,  but  i’d  never  actually  meant  it  before.  ❜   julian  candidly  yet  lightheartedly  confesses,   his  trademark  all-overpowering  charming  smile  stretching  out  across  his  lips  like  that  of  an  enamored  cheshire  cat   —   hopefully,   brooke  wouldn’t  start  letting  herself  get  freaked  out  by  it  now.   it’d  be  a  heartbreak  like  those  in  the  movies  if  he  watched  her  walk  out  of  his  sight  now:   intense  and  forever  life-altering.  and  some  would  argue  he  was  still  too  youthful  and  dashing  to  be  embittered  by  the  tragedy  of  lost  love  like  that.   ❛   did  that  make  a  difference  in  getting  the  desired  swooning  effect,  brooke  davis?  ❜

[everhearts-deactivated20240821]

@unkindrvns​ [ LUCAS ] said: ❛❛ it was never meant to be, otherwise it would have been, ❜❜ to PEYTON.

JADE hues blinked in surprise, then narrowed at lucas’ words. her arms came up to cross over her chest, and peyton fixed the man before her with a steel gaze. she hadn’t come back to tree hill for him, but she’d definitely been kept awake at night, thinking about the way they’d left things when he’d come to visit her in los angeles. ❛❛ yeah, you’re probably right, ❜❜ the femme responded softly, despite not believing the words coming out of her own mouth. she still believed with all of her heart that they were meant to be, but she didn’t blame him for saying what he did after she’d rejected his marriage proposal. it wasn’t that she didn’t want to marry lucas, it was just that at the time, she thought they were still too young and it was all too rushed. still, her heart broke with every thought of what could have been. ❛❛ besides, you have lindsay now, ❜❜ she added, teeth sinking into her lesser lip. ❛❛ you obviously found your soulmate, and i’m happy for you. ❜❜

[unkindrvns]

his  words  don’t  come  from  a  place  of  reassurance,   but  resignation.   it  is  what  it  is,   because,   if  they  hadn’t  been  able  to  make  it  work  with  his  knee  on  the  floor  and  a  ring  box  in  his  hand,   when  would  they  ever?   it  almost  seemed  like  the  special  connection  they’d  always  been  tethered  by  made  them  stubborn,   unable  to  let  eachother  go  despite  their  better  judgment  advising  them  to.   and  distance  sure  made  it  a  hell  of  a  lot  easier  to  believe  that  he’d  closed  the  peyton  sawyer  chapter  in  his  book  forever,   but  her  return?   it  felt  cruel.   CRUEL  TO  FACE  HIM  WITH  THE  FACT  THAT  MAYBE  THINGS  STILL  WEREN’T  THAT  EASY,  and  that  he  hadn’t  moved  on  as  swiftly  as  he  liked  to  make  himself  believe.   both  of  them  have  too  much  history  to  not  know  peyton’s  words  were  politely  unsincere,   but  lucas  wasn’t  sure  he  had  enough  of  a  clear  head  to  call  her  out  on  that  and  bring  something  better  to  the  table  of  their  conversation,   tempted  to  hide  behind  his  grown-up  and  put-together  mask  for  a  little  longer,   ❛   thanks,   peyton,   i  hope  you  find  happiness,   too.   although,   to  be  honest  with  you,   i’m  not  sure  i  believe  in  the  whole  soulmates  and  star-crossed  lovers  ordeal  anymore   —   sure,   it  makes  for  a  great  writing  trope,   but  real  life  seems  a  little  too  crude  and  complicated  for  that.   i  think  if  you  find  someone  who  loves  you  and  accepts  you  for  everything  that  you  are,   the  good  and  the  ugly,   you  can’t  get  much  luckier  than  that.  ❜

[alliecathayes]

Minka Kelly in Euphoria | 2019 -

[unkindrvns]

also,  while  i’m  deep  into  luke’s  brain,   the  reason  peyton  always  seems  to  prevail  in  his  heart  is  he  needed  to  love  someone  who  needed  him,   someone  he  felt  he  was  absolutely  indispensable  to,   someone  who  wouldn’t  abandon  him.   which  is  why  brooke  never  seemed  to  fit  with  him  for  the  long  haul,   she  just  didn’t  Need  him  like  that,  in  that  co-dependent  slightly  toxic  kind  of  way.   neither  did  lindsay,   even  though  she  came  a  little  more  dangerously  close  to  loving  lucas  blindly  than  brooke  did.   however,  peyton  was  the  one  who  fit  that  mold,   and  she  always  did.   

you’re  always  saving  me.   somebody’s  got  to.

[unkindrvns]

𝙿𝙴𝚈𝚃𝙾𝙽  (  @everhearts​​  ):   i  know  there’s  something  waiting  for  us.

it’d  been  a  moment  of  weakness,   a  bad  habit  that  died  hard.   peyton  had  let  him  know  she  was  struggling  to  make  the  label  work,   and  despite  her  clearly  pushing  away  any  assistance  he  could  possibly  offer,   lucas  couldn’t  let  it  go.   ever  since  he  got  back  in  his  car  and  drove  back  home,   to  lindsey,   she’d  been  everything  that’d  been  stranded  on  his  mind,   her  and  that  sharp,  martyr-like  frown  she  got  when  she  tried  to  power  through  suffocating  pressure  on  her  own  that  he  knew  all  too  well.   that  he’d  loved  all  too  well.   and  he  knew  he  shouldn’t  have  come  to  the  office  in  the  middle  of  the  night,   he  knows  that,   but  he  still  couldn’t  stay  away.   HE  COULDN’T  NOT  BE  THE  GUY  WHO  SWOOPED  IN  AND  SAVED  PEYTON  SAWYER  IN  HER  HOUR  OF  NEED.   and  he  knew  he’d  come  to  pay  the  price  for  it,   sooner  or  later.   which  is  why  he  couldn’t  further  take  the  bait  of  her  deceivingly  promising  words  and  toy  with  the  line  of  being  a  bad  guy  who  cheats  on  his  significant  other,  physically  or  emotionally,   not  again.   ❛   i  wish  i  was  so  sure  about  that,   peyton.   really,   i  do,   but  the  fact  is  i’m  not,   and  i’m  not  willing  leave  the  woman  who  said  yes  to  me  for  the  one  who  said  no,   so  unless  by  something  you  mean  free  rent  and  a  couple  nicely  exchanged  words,   i  . . .  i’m  not  so  sure  what  else  i  can  give  you.  ❜  

[unkindrvns]

okay  so  this  is  mostly  just  for  future  reference  in  threads,   but  lucas  has  a  really  bad  habit  of,   whenever  he  feels  rejected  or  abandoned,   shut  out  the  shame  that  brings  out  in  him  by  jumping  into  a  new  relationship  and  rebounding.   he  needs  someone  else  to  see  him  as  hot  shit,   because  he  doesn’t  think  he’s  hot  shit  until  someone  else  validates  that  he  is.   danny  did  a  number  on  his  boys  and  we  all  know  that,   but  the  flip  side  of  that  coin  is  that,  because  karen  and  keith  have  always  raved  on  about  what  a  good  boy  he  is  and  what  astounding  and  golden  morals  he’s  got  because  of  his  sensitivity,   he  can’t  bring  himself  to  admit  his  decision  to  get  in  a  new  relationship  is  not  because  of  this  epic  undeniable  feeling  of  love,   but  because  he’s  super  insecure  and  can’t  stand  to  be  by  himself  with  those  no  matter  how  hard  i  try  i’m  not  worthy  of  love  thoughts.   hence  his  lying  to  himself  about  his  true  feelings  and  keeping  third  parties  stuck  on  relationships  whose  sole  foundation  are  abandonment  issues.  thanks  for  coming  to  my  ted  talk  and  my  sincere  apologies  to  brooke  and  lindsey.

[mastermicd-arch]

𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐬   →   accepting.

@unkindrvns​​ : ❛  are  we  having  a  moment,  chris  keller?  ❜ 

diana was a world away from the sort of women he’d associated himself with in the past. she was sure of herself, a force to be reckoned with, and put him in his place in a way that rivaled that of the one and only haley james scott. and most of all, for the first time in likely as long as he could remember, he genuinely cared for her. “are you letting chris keller have a moment with you, diana harrison?” the cocky look on his face said that he already knew the answer, but as always, he just couldn’t help himself. 

[unkindrvns]

she  liked  to  pretend  like  she  didn’t  notice,   but  damn,  he  was  good.   when  diana  first  got  to  town,   she  made  the  mistake  of  mistaking  chris  with  just  another  one  of  his  kind   —   a  braggy,   slightly  mysoginistic  self-centered  artist  who  only  used  girls  as  chips  on  his  womanizer  armor,  or  muse  for  his  next  half-baked  attempt  at  a  soul-bearing  hit  song.   truth  is  it  probably  had  little  to  do  with  him  or  his  reputation  than  it  did  to  do  with  her  and  her  reluctance  to  give  up  one  inch  of  her  independence,   take  a  chance  and  open  up  to  somebody  beyond  her  daring  smiles  and  flirty,  sarcastic  remarks,   all  mechanisms  to  keep  love  at  arm’s  length  and  herself  safe  from  her  mother’s  frivolous  trophy  wife  wishes  for  her.   and  yet,   those  big  blue  ocean  eyes  looked  into  her  mocha  hues,   and  she’s  tempted  to  let  herself  cross  the  line.   damn  you  and  your  reformed  bad  boy  charm,   chris  keller.   and,   most  of  all,  DAMN  YOU  FOR  SEEING  RIGHT  THROUGH  ME.   brunette  holds  onto  her  hard-to-get  facade  with  an  amused  smirk  and  an  alluring  tone,   ❛   maybe.   but  unless  you  ask  me  to  dinner,   i  don’t  think  you’ll  ever  truly  get  to  find  out.  ❜  

[unkindrvns]

everhearts​,  𝖻𝗋𝗈𝗈𝗄𝖾.

THIS situation was enough to remind brooke why she typically kept things casual and didn’t get into real relationships; her heart stayed whole and protected that way. at the time, she was sure lucas was worth letting her guard down for but she’d been labeled a fool. she’d tried to tell herself that there was nothing going on and that she had his whole heart but it seemed that no matter what, peyton would always have part of it. the worst part of it was that she still loved him, and part of her still thought they could get past that hiccup. her dignity, however, wouldn’t allow her to give in. his pretty words sank deep down, and a heavy, sad sigh pushed past pink glossed petals. ❛❛  you’re right, you did mess up. ❜❜ her tone was strained, almost as if she couldn’t keep up with her anger any longer. ❛❛ and you know what the worst part of all this is, lucas ? ❜❜ she took a deep breath and wiped at the wet mascara slowly starting to drip down her face. ❛❛ the worst part of this is that i still love you. i shouldn’t, but i do. ❜❜ jade hues glanced up to meet sky-coloured. her tears had more or less stopped, and it was taking everything in her power not to turn her back on him now. ❛❛ at least now you can be with peyton, right ? someone gets their happy ending. ❜❜

i  still  love  you.   the  words  conflict  him  in  the  obscurest  depths  of  his  being,   as  he  wasn’t  sure  what  to  make  of  them   —   were  they  a  metaphorical  door  of  hope  that  opened,   hope  of  a  second  chance  being  a  possibility  for  them,   or  were  they  punishment  instead?   the  punishment  of  the  poignant  realization  that  love  didn’t  always  conquer  all,  that  it  wasn’t  ENOUGH?   brooke’s  bitter,  scorned  comment  pointed  towards  the  latter,   and  so  now  it  was  lucas  who  found  himself  in  the  position  to  power  through  the  heartbreak  in  his  voice,   ❛   i  don’t  think  there’s  a  happy  ending  in  sight  for  any  of  us,  brooke   —   peyton’s  barely  said  a  word  to  me  since  you  guys  had  your  big  fight,   i  think  it’s  pretty  clear  where  you  stand,   and  i  don’t  think  i  got  a  right  to  ask  anything  out  of  the  two  of  you  right  now.   but  if  i  did  ask  for  something,   it'd  be  for  you  guys  to  try  and  work  stuff  out  —  you’ve  been  friends  for  too  long  to  throw  it  all  away  for  some  stupid,   selfish  guy,   and  i  know  you  miss  eachother  every  day,   so  —  don’t  let  me  come  in  the  middle  of  that  more  than  i  already  have,  brooke.   forgive  her.   if  there’s  someone  graceful  enough  to  that  and  wipe  the  slate  clean,   it’s  you.  ❜

[everhearts-deactivated20240821]

@unkindrvns​​ [ LUCAS ] said: ❛❛ what are you listening to ? ❜❜ to PEYTON.

PEYTON was accustomed to people showing up at her bedroom door unannounced, but was still slightly surprised to see lucas in the doorway when she glanced back. ❛❛ well, look what the cat dragged in ! ❜❜ her tone was playful and her initial surprise melted into a warm and excited smile; she couldn’t help it, especially since lucas scott didn’t show up in her doorway very often. ❛❛ i was listening to the cure, ❜❜ the femme answered as she held up the vinyl case for his inspection. ❛❛ but since it just ended, i’m trying to decide what to listen to next. ❜❜ she gestured to the box laying near the record player, then carefully removed the cure vinyl she’d been listening to before his arrival and returned it to the case. ❛❛  i’m open to suggestions, if you have any. ❜❜ lucas had good music taste too, and peyton was sure any suggestion of his wouldn’t disappoint. 

[unkindrvns]

lucas  took  her  trademark  sassy  remark  with  one  of  his  own  distinctively  charming,  boyish  chuckles   —   he’d  found  fighting  fire  with  fire  to  be  a  good  tactic  with the  riddle  wrapped  in  a  mystery  inside  of  an  inveterate  loner  that  was  peyton  sawyer.   it’d  got  him  through  the  door,  right?   then  again  . . .  ❛   you  should  really  consider  using  the  lock  on  your  front  door  more  often.   you  never  know  when  the  cat  might  drag  in  someone  a  little  less  agreeable  than  me,  like,  say,  a  serial  killer.   or  tim.  ❜    and  he  jokes  about  it,   but  he  really  does  worry   —  with  her  dad  out  at  sea  until  further  notice  and  no  one  else  around  to  look  out  for  her,  he  figures  somebody’s  got  to.   AS  EASY  A  TARGET  AS  THAT  MAKES  HIM  TO  HER  ENDLESS  TEASING  REMARKS.   

brand  new  tree  hill  raven  pushes  his  weight  off  the  door  frame  and  past  her  bedroom  threshold,   allowing  ocean  hues  to  wander  around  the  impressive  yet  bleak  art  on  the  walls  and  her  gigantic  vynil  collection  —  maybe  some  of  his  careful  observations  helped  place  one  more  piece  in  the  thrilling  puzzle  she  posed  in  his  mind.   his  head  turns  around  at  her  suggestion,   and  he  instantly  knew  this  was  somewhat  of  a  test   —   make  the  wrong  pick  according  to  her  privileged  musical  instincts,   and  say  goodbye  to  replacing  his  half-brother  in  the  boyfriend  title.   BUT  WHEN  IN  DOUBT,  THERE  WAS  ALWAYS  THE  OPTION  OF  SARDONIC  IRONY.    he  swiftly  moves  through  the  alphabetically-ordered  box,  and  picks  out  a  1999  single  by  ataris:   your  boyfriend  sucks.   lucas  doesn’t  hesitate  putting  it  on  the  record  player,   before  looking  back  at  her  with  a  bold  look  in  his  eye,   ❛   i  think  you’ll  like  this  one.  ❜

[unkindrvns]

MEET  DIANA  HARRISON,   a  middle-class  pageant  queen  desperate  to  be  something  other  than  skin-deep  beautiful.   born  and  raised  in  louisiana,   her  mother  put  her  up  to  compete  in  beauty  contests  from  the  age  of  five,   hoping  to  both  get  some  extra  money  as  well  as  grooming  her  to  make  a  life  out  of  her  good  looks  and  marrying  someone  with  means  so  she  wouldn’t  have  to  struggle  like  their  family  did.   she  always  liked  the  singing  in  the  contests  best,   and  deep  down  knew  that  was  something  she  wanted  to  do:   pursue  a  life  emoting  the  feelings  she’d  always  kept  so  close  to  her  chest  to  try  and  not  let  her  family  down,   breaking  free  of  the  expectations  or  assumptions  other  placed  on  her  and  using  her  voice.   that’s  how,   despite  her  father’s  belief  in  her  ability  to  make  a  difference  through  her  intellect  as  a  lawyer  or  a  doctor,  she  let  him  down  by  going  to  the  american  musical  and  dramatic  academy.

A  SELF-MADE  WOMAN  on  a  full-scholarship  and  working  endless  waitressing  jobs  to  pay  for  her  rental  apartment  near  campus,   diana  could  be  described  as  fiercely  independent,  down-to-earth,  stubborn,  passionate  as  well  as  confident  and  sassy,   exhibiting  great  loyalty  to  her  friends  and  strong  morals  and  work  ethic.  she  finds  herself  tied  to  tree  hill  when  her  older  brother  gregory  marries  vivian  james,   ivy-league  lawyer  and  sister  to  haley  james;   and  more  precisely,   when  vivian  calls  in  a  favor  to  audition  for  a  developing  musical  to  the  best  seller  of  the  same  name,   an  unkindness  of  ravens.   it’s  when  she  gets  the  part  her  visits  become  more  frequent,   and  the  furthest  thing  from  a  rich  and  established  prince  charming  knocks  on  her  door  . . .   PLACES.

[unkindrvns]

everhearts​,  𝗅𝗎𝗄𝖾.

WAS the constant heartbreak some kind of karma for being the kind of person that she was for so many years of her life ? brooke couldn’t help but wonder, as it seemed the universe always had it in for her. she’d never been one toopen her heart or give it away so willingly but lucas had a certain charm that made her want to try. she hadn’t been a perfect girlfriend by any stretch of the imagination, but she’d done her absolute best and stayed devoted and loyal because she was convinced that her heart was safe with him; perhaps that was her first mistake. yet, even with her broken heart, the femme still loved him and that was part of what made it hurt so much. ❛❛ sorry isn’t enough and you know it, lucas. ❜❜ venom was laced into her tone and she had to will herself to stay calm, even though tearful eyes were betraying her. ❛❛ you told me that you loved me, and then you turned around and cheated on me with mybest friend. ❜❜ chocolate hues narrowed and she swiped furiously at the tears that fell. ❛❛ what an ego boost for you, huh ? having two girls chasing after you like this. ❜❜

silence  is  consent,  and  so  a  remorseful  and  shameful  gulp  travels  down  his  throat  like  sharp  knives,  wishing  for  the  ground  to  split  wide  open  and  shallow  him  whole  where  he  was  safe  from  disappointing  or  hurting  anyone  else.  after  so  many  years  of  hearing  what  a  good  and  sweet  boy  he  was,   he  couldn’t  help  but  wonder  if  the  dan  scott  in  his  genes  were  finally  starting  to  catch  up  to  him,  and  no  matter  how  hard  he  tried  to  avoid  it,  it’d  only  get  worse  from  here  on  out.  maybe  it’d  be  best  if  no  one  was  around  to  see  that,   if  he  weren’t  here  at  all.   but  sorry  ocean  eyes  look  up  to  find  brooke’s  heartbreakingly  beautiful  sorrowful  gaze,  an  attempt  to  man  up  into  being  in  this  excruciatingly  painful  moment  with  her,   as  hard  as  it  was,   the  last  shred  of  his  pride  finding  his  voice  in  the  depths  of  his  larynx,  as  he  couldn’t  silently  comply  to  that  false  bitter  statement,  ❛   it  wasn’t  like  that,  brooke.  i  never  meant  for  this  to  happen,  not  like  this,   i   —   i  did  love  you.   i  loved  the  way  you  made  me  laugh,   the  way  you  weren’t  afraid  to  be  yourself,   how  you  inspired  me  to  do  the  same  and  live  life  without  fear  of  the  unknown.   none  of  that  was  a  lie,   but  then  peyton  said  she  was  ready  for  a  real  relationship,  and  i  just  —  i  messed  up.   i  was  a  coward,   and  when  i  knew  i  had  to  choose  one  of  you,   i  didn’t.   that’s  how  i  ended  up  losing  two  girls  i  really  cared  about.   again,  there’s  no  excuse  that  could  make  what  i  did  okay,  but  my  ego  is  deflated,   brooke,  not  boosted.  not  in  the  slightest.   ❜

[everhearts-deactivated20240821]

@unkindrvns​ [ LUCAS ] said: ❛❛ you’re an asshole, you know that ? ❜❜ to NATHAN.

PART of nathan wanted to ignore his brother’s words since responding would only make things worse, but his built up rage wouldn’t allow him to simply let it go. ❛❛ and you need to learn how to mind yourown damn business, ❜❜ the male responded with a scoff, eyed narrowed into a cold glare. ❛❛ don’t act like you know everything, luke, because you don’t. my relationship with haley has nothing to do with you. ❜❜ it was a stupid thing to argue about and nathan knew it, but he was tired of others prying into his personal life and trying to tell him what to do. he’d been emancipated for a reason, and only he knew how he was feeling at any given moment in time. perhaps he’d been too harsh with haley and deep down he was glad that she had lucas, but his hurt and frustration trumped everything else.  ❛❛ worry about your own mess of a love life and leave mine alone. ❜❜

[unkindrvns]

lucas  knew  he  was  treading  on  thin  ice,  nathan  being  close  to  that  of  a  ticking  bomb  ever  since  haley  skipped  town,    and  the  surprising  part  was?    that  hadn’t  changed  one  bit  upon  her  return  —  if  anything,  it’d  gotten  worse,  his  bruised  ego  feeding  off  of  her  pain  and  remorse.  

𝙹𝙾𝙷𝙽  𝟾:𝟽,  𝙽𝙺𝙹𝚅:  he  who  is  without  sin  among  you,  let  him  throw  a  stone  at  her  first.   

what  made  nathan  think  he  of  all  people  had  the  right  to  admonish  her  for  her  mistakes  as  harshly  as  he  was?    a  broken  heart?   well,  he  might  not  be  the  first  scorned  and  resentful  man  on  the  planet,   but  he  would  be  the  first  douchebag  to  be  called  out  on  it  if  luke  had  something  to  do  about  it,  ❛   see,  that’s  where  you’re  wrong,  little  brother  —  haley  is  my  business,  she  was  my  best  friend  long  before  you  came  into  the  picture,  and  over  my  dead  body  will  i  let  you  keep  treating  her  like  you  have  ever  since  she  rolled  back  into  town.   you  don’t  wanna  act  like  a  man  and  forgive  her,   fine,   but  quit  leading  her  on  like  she  stands  a  chance  —  it’s  downright  cruel,  and  i  won’t  allow  it.   are  we  clear?   ❜

[unkindrvns]

this is a kind reminder that this blog is, for now, very much an experiment and it’s closed off to the general public, at least until i feel more comfortable on it. please, do not interact unless you are chels, or you will be softblocked.

[unkindrvns]

𝙱𝚁𝙾𝙾𝙺𝙴  (  @everhearts​  ):   i  hate  you  for  what  you  did.

he  wondered  if  it  might  ever  get  easier:   the  constant  feeling  of  shame,   of  being  the  bastard  dan  scott  had  set  him  up  to  be  and  letting  everyone  he  loved  down,   including  brooke.   specially  brooke.   his  mom  was  right,   she’d  been  nothing  but  good  to  him  ever  since  they  started  dating,   and  how  did  he  repay  her?   by  making  out  with  her  best  friend  and  making  up  some  cheap  excuse  to  end  things  instead  of  coming  clean  to  her  like  a  man.   there  was  nothing  he  could  say  or  do  to  fix  that  now,   and  so  he  willingly  soaked  up  the  venom  in  her  words,   the  anger  she’d  prompted  in  her  broken  heart,   and  hoped  that  at  least  that,   dishing  it  all  out,   would  make  her  feel  better.   but  luke  was  afraid  it  wouldn’t  even  begin  to  cover  it.    ❛   trust  me,   i  hate  myself  for  what  i  did,   too.   not  that  it  matters,   it’s  just   —   i  really  am  sorry,  brooke.   that  i  wasn’t  half  the  guy  you  expected  me  to  be.   the  guy  you  deserved  for  me  to  be.   and  if  you  can’t  ever  find  the  way  to  forgive  me  for  what  i  did,   then   —   i  guess  i’ll  have  to  live  with  that.  ❜

[moosings-deactivated20231019]

PHOEBE BRIDGERS LYRIC PROMPTS.

inspired from phoebe’s albums: punisher and stranger in the alps. as always, some triggering content may be present! change any pronouns to better suit your muse(s) needs!

why would somebody do this on purpose?

i wanted to go, but i didn’t.

we talk until we think we might just kill ourselves.

you were screamin’ at the evangelicals.

swore i could feel you through the walls.

i had to carry you.

i’m hungry for blood.

somebody better be dying.

now i can’t breathe, and i can’t sleep.

i feel something when i see you now.

anyway, don’t be a stranger.

i hate living by the hospital.

you must’ve been looking for me.

if it meant i would see you when i die.

all the skeletons you hide…

it must be something in the water.

will you have me, or watch me fall?

remember getting the truck fixed?

i know there’s something waiting for us.

i don’t know what i want.

baby, you’re a vampire.

i can’t open my mouth and forget how to talk.

always surprised by what i do for love.

we can be anything.

please don’t hold me to it.

i only went one time.

the end is here.

and what about the band?

show me yours, i’ll show you mine.

i know he needs you, you’re all that he sees.

be whatever you want.

i scared you in your house.

i want to live at the holiday inn.

i guess it’s too late to change it now.

i’m thinking out loud.

tell me what you’ll do, please.

one of your eyes is always half-shut.

i’m singing at a funeral tomorrow.

i’ve been talking to his dad, it makes me so sad…

somebody roll the windows down.

i’ve got a good feeling.

i would do anything for you.

i’ll be whatever you want.

i don’t need you to tell me what that means.

i asked him nicely once to pack his things and go.

something happened when you were a kid.

there’s a last time for everything.

i couldn’t take it any longer, and i lost control.

it’s amazing to me how much you can say.

i didn’t know you then and i’ll never understand.

do you feel ashamed?

i went with you up to the place you grew up in.

there’s something i’m supposed to say.

i swear i’m not angry, that’s just my face.

you, you must’ve been looking for me.

no, i’m not afraid of hard work.

you got me good; i knew you would.

you know the killer doesn’t understand.

man, i wish that i could say the same.

if i fix you, will you hate me?

i miss you like a little kid.

i could scream to drown you out.

next time i see you, you’ll show me.

he is a fine new addition, so young and so clean.

always have and i always will.

i’m at the movies, i don’t remember what i’m seeing.

i’m tired of trying to get in the house.

wouldn’t know where to start.

i want to believe.

i’m losing all my hair.

it’s a government drone or an alien spaceship.

everyone knows you’re the way to my heart.

i even scared myself by talking.

i’m on the outside looking through.

i’m standing too close.

sorry that it all went down like it did.

last night, i blacked out in my car.

i’m gonna kill you.

he came up through the water without a sound.

you get a few points for tryin’.

i can count on you to tell me the truth.

i’ve never seen you smiling so big.

he got me good, i knew he would.

i’m always pushing you away from me.

he missed my heart.

i grew up here, ‘til it all went up in flames.

i want to go home.

they dragged me off to jail, set a million dollar bail.

i will always be right here.

there’s no place like my room.

i don’t wanna be alone.

i wanted to see the world.

but i asked him one more time, this time pulled out my shiv.

was hoping you would let it go, and you did.

the drug stores are open all night.

no, it’s not important, they’re just pretty words, my dear.

that’s quite a list, but there’s one thing you missed.

it’s gonna be just like my recurring dream.

i’m a liar.

i get this feeling whenever i feel good.

i’ll stay out of my own hell.

for generations, they’ll romance us, make us more.

that’s just how i feel.

i buried a hatchet, it’s coming up lavender.

i turned around, there was nothing there.

from the window, it’s not a bad show.

not even the burnouts are out here anymore.

i hardly feel anything at all.

so i gotta go, i know, i know, i know.

you were still in the ambulance.

you always say that you’d prefer to drown.

i’m amazed that you’re alright.

when i’m lonely, that’s when i’ll burn it.

if you find me, will you know me?

they were screamin’ right back from what i remember.

i’ve been running around in circles.

i've been playing dead.

i’m sleeping in my bed again, and getting in my head.

they make you live in the past.

i can hardly feel anything.

i woke up in my childhood bed.

a feeling of relief came over my soul.

i want to know what would happen.

you’re gonna drown in your sleep for sure.

he never lies or picks up his phone.

you’re holding me like water in your hands.

baby, it’s halloween.

after a while you went quiet.

no, i’m not afraid to disappear.

you must’ve been looking for me.

i would give you the moon.

i have this dream where i’m screaming underwater.

they killed a fan down by the stadium.

i want to be wrong.

when i think too much about it i can’t breathe.

i can’t sleep and i miss your face.

they strapped me in the gurney, took me off to the infirmary.

i’ll find a new place to be from.

i hate you for what you did.

that makes me feel old.

he got me in the shins, and he got me in the arms.

i’m gonna chase it, i know, i know, i know.

all of our problems? i’m gonna solve 'em.

i’m stupid in love.

yeah, i guess the end is here.

i won’t be home with you tonight.

underneath her whimpering, i could hear the sirens sound.

fell on hard times a year ago.

sometimes i think i’m a killer.

we can be anything.

there is no distraction that can make me disappear.

i dreamt that he drowned.

when he gets older, he might be the one.

she can do anything she wants to.

plus, i’m pretty sure i’d miss you…

either way, we’re not alone.

you don’t have to know that it’s haunted.

you know i hate to be alone.

guess i lied.

wouldn’t know when to stop.

i think when you’re gone, it’s forever.

i’ll be glad that i made it out.

either i’m careless or i wanna get caught.

i hope you kiss my rotten head.

it’s 4 a.m. again.

we found our way out.

he missed my heart.

we have the same face.

hear so many stories of you at the bar…

all the bad dreams that you hide…

he’s half the man and you’re twice as tall.

i gotta go now, i know, i know, i know.

i don’t forgive you.

if i breathe you, will it kill me?

man, i hate this part of texas.

you know i’m never gonna let you have it.

and i changed my mind.

he might be the one.

it’s for the best.

you had to go, i know, i know, i know.

i’m too tired.

tell me what you wanna do to me.

i faked it every time.

you missed my heart.

oh, come on, man!

you were in a band when i was born.

i have everything i wanted.

i’m not gonna go down with my hometown in a tornado.

i don’t believe in that stuff anymore.

jesus christ, i’m so blue all the time.

saw him in the kitchen, hanging up the phone.

i feel something when i see you.

there’s nothing i can do.

i am sick of the chase.

you are somebody’s baby.

i hate your mom.

i got mean.

so long, prison boy!

it’ll be the last time.

i would do anything you want me to.

but right now, it feels good not to stand.

i love a good place to hide in plain sight.

i will try to drown you out.

take a dirty picture, babe.

it’s sad that his baby died.

i’m doing nothing.

hey, why do you sing with an english accent?

i get everything i want.

i look at the sky and i feel nothing.

when you touch down, i’ll be waving.

now i’m too tired to go to sleep.

i feel like i know you?

i hate it when she opens her mouth.

it’s just a matter of time before i’m hearing things.

call me when you land.

would you fuck this and let us fall?

they still got payphones…

you might be dying.

i’m a bad liar.

you wrote me a letter…

i’ve given all my love.