[unknown-one]

[unknown-one]

I’m so detached and distant and cold at times, but I swear if you spark my interest, I can become so clingy and you’ll become so important to me and I will put so much of my time and effort towards you. But then you’ll get tired of me.

[unknown-one]

I miss my bf a lot.

[unknown-one]

I just want to be happy again.

[unknown-one]

This sucks.

[unknown-one]

Depression sucks.

[zerstorend]

do you ever get in those moods where you don’t know how to feel and everything kinda feels mixed up and you’re just sitting there alone in your room trying to figure out what the fuck is wrong with you

[unknown-one]

I miss you.

[unknown-one]

I love him.

[unknown-one]

Being an Esports Team Manager

I wanted to get this off my chest as I have been quiet. I have been involved and working in the Esports industry for a little over 7 years now. I found a passion for gaming, found a platform that I loved to stream on, and then ended up working in Esports when I was about 18 years old. It’s been a long journey - I have learned and observed a lot about how this fast growing industry works. Representing a brand and company is important. Showing professionalism and having loyalty is always what I stand by for. I think one of my favorite things would have to be meeting so many different people all around the world who work in the same industry as you, and knowing that they too also share one common thing with you - Gaming. I have been so blessed to meet and work with a massive group of individuals who also have aspiring dreams; whether it would be working behind the scenes in an esports company, running an Esports event, or dreaming of one day being able to compete professionally and that opportunity becomes a dream that is a surreal reality. I have felt so many emotions and have been on either sides of the playing field. The best part of my job is: taking care of my players. I have a huge heart and will always go an extra mile for them. I believe strongly that if I am doing my job right, they can just focus on playing and succeeding. I am an advocate that when you are on a team, its a family, even through all the losses, the drama, the success, the good or the bad, your team will always be there for you and I will always be there for them. I am honored to have a group of individuals and so many teams that are amazing - however what sets them all apart is that they are one and tries harder. Win or lose as a team, rise or fall as a team, I will always be there right by their side. Loyalty is important to me. My loyalty is to them and I will protect them through the good and bad, knowing they’d do the same for me. I must say that I am humbly growing and learning a lot about Esports as an individual. A part from all the good, it hasn’t always been an easy road for me, but along the way I know that it will all be worth it, good or bad. I will keep working hard towards my goals and staying true to myself. I want to help others and be apart of something great. I am super passionate about my job, even having to graduate with my BSN from UCI and getting my Registered Nurse License, to still wanting to stay in Esports. I have been blessed with this opportunity and I will not take it for granted. Its what I love to do, and I hope that I can continue this for as long as I can. Be honest. Be transparent. Be kind. Love, Mel

[unknown-one]

Sucks wishing you could look at someone the same way you use to but they have done so many things to make you look at them differently.

[unknown-one]

I’m pretty sure you know how much you mean to me, but just incase…

You are the first person I think of when I wake up in the morning. The first thing I do is check my phone to see if you messaged me or not. You are the last person I think about when I go to sleep. Even though I know you’re already asleep I check my phone to see if I missed something from you. Our relationship is so much stronger than it used to be and I’m so happy to be with you. You are the only one I want to be with and you always will be.

[unknown-one]

I’ve fallen in love with a guy who never let’s me fall asleep feeling unwanted or unloved.

I’ve fallen in love with a guy who dreams about a life with me, who stays with me at night and watching movies until we fall asleep.

I’ve fallen in love with a guy who see galaxies in my eyes and hears melodies in every sound I make, even the unattractive ones.

I’ve fallen in love with a guy who knows exactly how to make me smile so wide and laugh so hard, until I can’t breathe on both the easy days and the hard ones.

But most importantly, I’ve fallen in love with a guy that will always be here, right beside me, whether I’m right or wrong. I love this guy, who will never take me for granted and never leave me behind. I’m in love with the man who’s seen me at my worst and still loves me just the same.

I’m in love with the man of my dreams, and I can honestly say that I wouldn’t want it any other way.

[unknown-one]

Ever since you have come into my life, nothing has been the same. I see the world in a completely new way and everything that I see and do reminds me of you and us. You’ve helped me to try and see the best in everything, and I’ve gone from someone so sad to someone so happy all because of you. Because you give me a reason to be happy. I couldn’t go a single day without knowing that you were mine. I want you to show me what living really is, and you have started to do that already. You know why I fell so deeply in love with you? Because I was so afraid of falling, so worried because of the past- but when I did fall, you didn’t just catch me- you pulled me into the sweetest embrace known to man. As soon as I let you in, you began to fix and love all the broken parts of me which I never thought anyone would know or care about. Thank you for everything. I know sometimes relationships aren’t perfect, and every couple goes through it all. But one thing I know for a fact, I know that you made me feel some type of way. A way that I have never felt before. You proved yourself to me that you do actually love me. Even when times were rough, you never left me. You never doubted me not once, and that’s what I adore about you. You’re caring, loving and you aren’t a quitter.

I don't want to lose my happiness, but a part of me knew that you wouldn’t give up on me because a childish reason. I’m glad you didn’t because it reassured what we had. It also made it a lot stronger. I am so happy, I got to go through it with you. We made it.

[unknown-one]

You’re amazing, did you know that? You’re like this light that shines through my darkness pathways that I walk through. When i’m down, you know how to pick me up. You’re so perfect, has anyone ever told you? You may not be a perfect human being, but your imperfections make you perfect for me. You make me happy and without you I wouldn’t know what to do.

[unknown-one]

I go on tumblr to express the emotions I can't express on Facebook,Instagram or Snapchat without looking weak to others.

[afadthatlastsforever]

Timing is a hell of a thing. In the end, that’s all it comes down to. The potency of an attraction or the purity of a connection mean very little if you’re on separate journeys. You and I were a perfect fit, we were, there was just too much distance between us to see it.

Beau Taplin // Separate Journeys (via afadthatlastsforever)