doesn't matter... i'll kill myself anyway

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Hiii!! I'm Anto

About me

Name : Antonia, Anto

Age : 19

Identity : i'm a girl, i like what i like

Things i like : vocaloid, cute stuff, being unconscious, tumblr, pinterest, gooning, gaming

Things i don't like : my parents(literally the worst thing that has happened to me),socialising, being around people in general

Interests : vocaloid, pjsk, uhhh... that's about it

I won't be active most of the time because i don't really have access to this device.

Dividers made by me!!

(will update later)

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Hey I havent seen you in awhile

I got a tattoo

Figured I'd tell you

cool, what's that supposed to be?

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I hate my classmates...that's it, that's the post.

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what lesbophobic things has he done? idk the guy

i know the guy, he is lesbophobic

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how the hell is leaving someone because they're bisexual lesbophobia? lesbophobia is discrimination against lesbians, not bisexuals??

i used the wrong word, i meant discrimination against sapphic women. Also, he is a lesbophobe

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Well im sorry I left, if it was up to me, I wouldnt have.. but like I said, I had no choice.. and everytime I contacted you, I did it in secret

Why can't you stay in anon like this?

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Why did you call me a lesbophobic piece of shit :(

I thought you left because i'm bisexual

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You'll always be my little sis, and i'll always love you need to understand where Im coming from, if you decided to go through with that murder, do you know how much problem I would be in? I would go to prison and I would probably never come out, and you would too.. and I dont want that for you, so I decided to just stop.. it was what I thought was for the best. Surely you can understand that right?

I know that murder is wrong and i would never actually do it but i say stuff on tumblr like it's a diary and it's just my feelings at the moment. Also, the best thing you could have done us not leave me. Your absence makese erything i'm going through worse

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I just want to murder everyone who has wronged me but i can't cuz there are consequences

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Something really bad happened to me... well, actually three things, but this one is the worst. I lost my tumblr account.

Not this one, the one on my phone. Idk how i managed to get it in the first place, it was made on kne of my mother's email accounts and i forgot the password to it. I can't get the app because i have parental control and my bitch of a mother forgot the password.

I used to vent there and there are a lot of post where i just repeat words and say that i want to kill my parents. I had also followed a lost of blogs and now i have to find them again so i can read them.

Edit : i have a new one now

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I know I've been saying this a lot...but I fucking hate my parents!!!!!! I cannot fucking stand them. she beats me up very violently while he laughs, and now they want to act as if they care about me. like...no they fucking don't!?! They only want control. If they actually cared about me, they would protect me from violence, but instead, they are the ones I have to defend myself against. She has gone to another city and will stay there a while and I have to deal with her boyfriend now. I hate him. He kept telling me to pack some lunch for school, and I don't fucking want to. lunch is not that important for me. and he trew another mantrum cuz I didn't pack it. It's not because I'll be hungry at school, it's because I didn't do what I was told. As always, their concernes are all about how much they can control me. I want them dead. I don't fucking care, I want them to die so I could have peace. I genuinely can't fucking stand them.

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Guys... they found my blog. Wth?? They say things like "no one told you it's ok to be raped" or something similar cuz all of them were about rape. I knew they harrased radfems but i didn't even say anything about radical feminism on this blog... I'm not even a radfem, I just agree with most of their ideas. I did like a lot of post about it tho.

Anyway, i just blocked them (reporting takes too much time)

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Soo... that piece of shit of a mother that i have found this blog. Of fucking course she did. It is impossible for her to respect my privacy.

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woke up wanting a femme to sit on my face

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All i wanted was some cake...

She wanted pictures...

I didn't smile(cuz i literaly don't know how)

I tried my fucking best to please her but she wanted more pictures. I wanted to eat cake before 17 cuz i had online classes for something but she wanted pictures. I told her i want cake and that i am trying to smile and she started shouting so i did the same and she trashed my cake and beat me up. She hit me with the closest thing that was to her which was a glass container and she hit me in my elbow and it hurts so fucking much. Why can't she die? Why does she have to live?? Doesn't she understand that the world would be a much better place if she killed herself??? God, i wish she was dead.

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I hope y'all had a merry Christmas, mine was shit

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I am in excruciating pain