I’m stuck
First of all, I’m really sorry that I kinda ditched Tumblr for the past few weeks. I was busy meeting assignments dead-lines n shit. Hmm. I kinda did an observation session on myself, long story short, I realized that no matter how I love doing something, when it gets serious, I tend to back off from it. In the beginning of the semester, I was really interested in a course that’s about innovation and entrepreneurship, later on during the semester, when shit started hitting the fan, I kinda wanted to withdraw from the course. It’s weird since I thought that I was always a hard worker. It doesn’t only occur in my studies, I really do enjoy gaming and all, however, when shit got serious - I have to participate in a tournament this week - I kinda want to pussy out of it. I dunno what happened to my self-esteem man. It sucks.
Anyways, I kinda started meeting a new year’s resolution goal, I kinda am keeping my relationship with my dad to the minimum. Surprisingly, its actually amazing since there’s nothing that relates me to ma dad except the allowance that I get from em in the start of every month. By doing this, even though it might sound awful to many people, it made my dad to stop messing up with my life. He didn’t really interfere with it b4, now however, he doesn’t do anything that might effect our relationship since I can literally just get out of the house and never see em again. I know that he’s aware of it. I REPEAT it again, its not as awful as it sounds, he never really engaged with me at all in my childhood, so I won’t let em mess up my adulthood. It’s as simple as that.
I’m kinda taking my studies more seriously that I did in the past semester. This is the only good thing that is happening right now. Anyhow, I kinda did go out twice on a hiking trip with ma homie Ammar, it was splendid, I loved it. The trail was speechless and the company in itself was amusing. I kinda do wanna again but the weather started getting warmer and warmer so it’s not the ideal time to plan a trip like that now.
That’s it for now, I might be sharing more later on. On that note, adios mi amors.
















