the one that got away

just a teenage girl who doesn’t know how to move on

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I think everything we do in our lives is just to distract ourselves from the fact that we all will face inevitable death

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i just found out he was talking to another girl the whole time i was writing these

its the first time i write these posts and i’m at a loss for words

im such a fool

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I’ve made a decision

I won’t be waiting for you forever. Eventually, I’ll have to move on from you just like how you did to me.

But that time doesn’t have to be now, I still need time to heal so that I don’t go back to you and regret moving on

I’ll wait for you, until August, the same month we met but a year later

Three months is plenty of time for you to come back if you ever second guess the decision you made. It’s been three months since we broke up, I can wait for you for three more. But until then, I’ll still be waiting for you

I’ve planted these seeds that are supposed to bloom around that time, so the moment I see a flower has grown, I’ll know to stop waiting for you.

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77 days without you and only now does it occur to me that I have to try to forget you instead of waiting for you to come back

I’ll have to forget your favorite movie and colors and everything you once loved.

I’ll have to forget the love I have for you, and how I still feel about you.

I’ll forget the dimple on your cheek or the way your eyes looked amber in the sun.

I’ll forget your sweet voice and how softly you said my name

I’ll forget your birthday and the date we met and the day we stopped talking

I’ll slowly, with time, forget your face, and maybe your name too

I wish I could forget you as easily as you forgot me

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sometimes you really gotta decide for yourself it’s the last time the universe gonna teach you that same lesson

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the more time passes without you the more I realize how immature I was when I had you. I was so flawed and so stupid that I wonder how you even liked me. I always said the wrong things and embarrassed myself when I was with you.

I’m a better person now. I know how to hold a conversation, how to dress, and how to feel confident. I’m more honest now and I stopped hiding things.

I hate how it took you leaving my life for me to realize that I have to be better. Seeing how hurt you were forced me to change and I’m sorry for it

I miss you

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I took a nice selfie today, I wish I could’ve shown it to you

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i miss your terrible english. i found it so cute but you always thought i was making fun of you.

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i’m starting to forget how to speak your dialect

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you stopped telling me goodnight and i stopped sleeping well.

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even though you never didn’t want to talk to me again, i still never wanted you to be a stranger. i’m still here if you or your family need anything.

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Kinda an embarrassing post but oh well

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i miss how we used to always say the same things at the same time, and how interlinked you said we were

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we fell in love for six months but it took you three days to move on

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i wonder if you have a new girl and i’m just making a fool of myself or maybe you’re waiting for me just like how i am for you

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i know i can’t call you anymore but oh how i miss the sound of your voice. i’d do anything to hear you laugh again

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you were always so gentle to me, i’m sorry i hurt you. i’ll never forgive myself.