Until I Break

My hectic, dramatic life XD

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Today is about moving, let's move!

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What lies behind us and what lies before us are small matters compared to what lies within us.

Ralph Waldo Emerson

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Love...

I can't believe this is happening! I've been alone for so long, but over the past few days I've met 3 maybe 4 great people. The first girl, she's so smart, and absolutely amazing. She's gorgeous, and we have so much in common.

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So today I'm starting my Running program today... Suuper nervous... But I got this. I have to wait a bit until the window cleaners are done... I'm a bit extra nervous because I'm starting in a place I don't know very well... But I either stat here or I start sometime later, and knowing me if I do that I'll push it off even longer, so off I go. Wish me luck!

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Plans, plans and more plans

So the first thing that I've decided to do to improve myself, is to go running everyday. The first day I've decided to plan is next Friday. I'm really nervous about it, and I don't know how exactly to start... So if anyone is a runner And wants to help, please leave a comment and tell me any helpful info on running, planning and what all I need, where I should start ect. Thank you so much

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Hallo all, I would just like to apologize for not posting lately and inform all of my newest project. For the next three months I will be workin my hardest on myself. I want to improve on myself. Some of the main improvements include, but do not exclude, losing weight, becoming more active, learning control over my mental problems, opening up my mind, and over all improvement on myself. I would love to learn more exciting things and I hope that all of you, and tumblr can help me achieve this

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Friends

Friends suck! They do! I'm sorry but my bestfriend hasent said hi to me in like forever! Just because I haven't gone to school in awhile doesn't mean I have to be like invisible or something! Why does this ALWAYS happen? Everytime I get close to someone they ditch me! It's bullshit! Ugh!

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I love this! It makes sure to keep me thin!

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Bungalow!

Try saying bungalow in a British accent... Fun right!

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Have you ever just realized that your fertile? Because like theirs this dinger thing in females brains. Especially teenagers and young adult) that will literally go ding wants your at your peak it's going off in the middle of my forehead and I almost just yelled out "ding!" lol that might be just because I'm high though..... Roflmao

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You won't hear me talk about love very often. Love to me is a foreign subject, truthfully it's a subject I'm not very familiar with. Which is odd for me. Being in highschool and being a lesbian love is some unexplained legend that is widely believed in. Like mythology I suppose... Well anyhow I've noticed that since I've come of of the closet... My " crushes" or whatever you call them, are so much more vivid and intense compared to when I tried to like boys... It's so nice to be able to be open about my feelings to others and to myself... :D

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Having a hard time today): I gave Bailey the drawing and the letter... I think she's avoiding me but whatever.. It may be that I'm just sensitive right now... I would really appreciate some positive feed back...

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Bailey

So I drew this picture for a girl that I have a huge crush on and a letter telling her I have a crush on her, I'm going to give it to her tomorrow. I am so terrified. I am almost certain that she's going to say that she doesn't like me... Or embaress me... Ugh I'm just really nervous right now.. Well I'm heading to sleep everyone! Nighty night, no nightmares!

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My most favorite qoute of all~ ^-^

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Goodmorning everyone! I hope everyone has a good day

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Sleep

Sleeping has always been important to me, more, dreaming actually, I can't remember a time when I couldn't control my dreams(I forgot the word) but to tell you the I didn't like to do it, I loved sitting awake and enjoying whatever happens in the dream... I don't know if anyone has ever felt this, but being awake and aware of what's going on, its like peeking into an alter-universe. As if I'm just feeling and seeing through someone else's eyes. There are even time where I dream that I am some character made up by my own imagination, and not myself... I guess the whole point of me saying all this is... How do we really know when we are awake? I could understand if you can't lucid dream... Just because in this "conscious" version of reality, there are " laws that tell us everything.. We have laws that tell us whats wrong whats right, whats up or down... Or maybe because we can remember more of this reality... But idk.. What if it's because in the other reality we are sick? Physically? Mentally? Lol this is just something I think about once in a long while.. Well... Nighty!

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Goodnight everybody!