Until my next life @untilmynextlife - Tumblr Blog

By canvasoul

People Live their Lives bound by what they accept as correct and true. That is how they define “Reality”. But what does it mean to be “correct” or “true”? They are merely vague concepts… Their “Reality” may all be a mirage. Can we consider them to be simply living in their own world, shaped by their beliefs?

idk, i just wanted to post this cause i know nobody i actually know irl follows me on here

TW: Suicide

Is it me or has there never actually been a decent argument lately to justify not committing suicide? It's always the same shit to me: "You shouldn't kill yourself because there's people that care about you and they would be really upset if you died!" oh I'm certain. I'm certain they would be incredibly upset but you're implying there that committing suicide would be selfish of me to do. Maybe it's selfish of you to want me live just for you to be less sad. Maybe actually be around more instead of being too busy to give a shit about me. But i mean hey, i cant blame you too much. You're in this as much as i am, and It's hell here. The world is constantly devouring itself and humans are doing nothing but cultivating an adversarial wasteland where no one can understand each other. Unless you were born with piss-rich parents you've got no shot at living a life where you're not constantly being pushed endlessly downwards by a literal figurative boulder. Our autonomy and agency has been usurped by a vacuous entity that apathetically sucks the life out of everyone inside of it, and you want me to live in that? just for you? cool, i guess its better than dying, and death is inevitable so i might as well hang around and see if this will get any better. I guess it's true that having relationships with other people is the best way to find a reason to live, we are social creatures after all. I just wish we could actually DO that, instead of doing.. whatever this is.

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u are not a real scientist unless you are insane and hate the government

I think maybe actively developing a fear mongering culture in the christian faith that aims to usurp the privacy and agency of young teens was probably a bad call. My most vivid memories of going to church are simply a cacophony of guilt and shame over the most basic animalistic desires that I can’t help but have. I refuse to believe any longer that God, if they are real, (which i do believe they are, and am saying they instead of he now) is a God who’s purpose is to control their very creations that they gave free will to. We were not given facilities and abilities to love and desire the warmth of another person simply to actively deny and neglect them in the name of self sacrifice. Indulging whole heartedly in the things that you want does not make you a bad person, it is practicing honesty in its rawest form. You do not need to be “clean” or “whole” to be accepted by society, or by God. Judgements and reservations are often born from fear. Fear is what separates us, holds us back from our hearts greatest longings, and stunts our ability to accept each other. And accepting each other was supposed to be the first thing the bible taught you to do, isnt it?

Hell is real and it looks like desire

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