It's a Sickness

third eye. red. she/it.

[unworthymind]

There is no safety here.

[unworthymind]

you just wait around like a dog all day waiting for a scrap of attention. youre so fucking pathetic, its embarassing. you need to accept that no one fucking likes you.

[unworthymind]

i wish you would just fucking die. youre so fucking miserable.

[unworthymind]

i feel like i cant talk to anybody because its just a fucking burden nobody fucking cares nobody wants to be around me nobody fucking likes me

[unworthymind]

"MAYBE will update" You're not gonna get an update, you stupid bitch. They don't want to hang out with you.

[unworthymind]

idk man i kinda just wanna crack open my skull and be done with it.

[unworthymind]

you're such a miserable little piece of shit

[unworthymind]

You're so fucking desperate you worthless fucking pig

[unworthymind]

I don't want to tell him I'm feeling shitty. He hasn't even messaged me today. I'm sure he's just asleep or busy. But I just feel so fucking awful and I don't want to make it his problem.

[unworthymind]

I feel so fat and ugly and disgusting I feel like I'm gonna throw up

I hate this ugly fucking body this fat fucking pig

[unworthymind]

It's so hard to look around and see everyone enjoying their lives and being happy and having their dream jobs and I'm here trapped in my life being fucking miserable, feeling like I have no agency or control.

[unworthymind]

I feel like I'm fighting a losing battle, I don't know why I keep trying.

[unworthymind]

I'll just be having a normal one and then my thoughts turn against me and I'm crying and part of me wants to bash my fucking skull in.

[unworthymind]

I just feel like such a fucking failure all the time.

[miamaimania]

“It Happens Again” ⟲ Loose lines echo across sketchbook spreads

[unworthymind]

You make it look so fucking easy.

[unworthymind]

Part of me knows it's over and pulls away, another is stagnant and seething- standing stubbornly in place, clenching their fists until their palms bleed hatred- the last a sad little kid clinging desperately to the way things were, not understanding why her friends don't seem to like her anymore.