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dance - lou & ren
“A waltz?”
“No.”
“The foxtrot?”
“No.”
“A festive jig?”
“How many times must I tell you that I do not dance?” Will grumbled from his seat next to Louisa. Mere feet away a small band played a melodic tune and couples swayed past them in time with the music.
“Everyone dances,” Louisa retorted, trying her best to get even the smallest of smiles out of her unwilling companion.
“I don’t,” Will replied curtly, staring straight ahead. “But he will.”
Louisa turned and immediately broke into a smile when she saw Ren standing before her. She took his hand and almost swore she heard Will let out a sigh of relief as she and Ren joined the other dancers.
“You think I tease him too much, don’t you?” Louisa asked Ren as they moved in time with the music. She’d started to change her thoughts about her and Becca’s guard after Ren told her about how the man had been instrumental in their escape from their old life in the South. He grinned at her comment.
“Maybe just a bit… though I think it might do him some good,” he finally replied.
“You can hear the music much better when you’re inside the building,” Louisa commented, referencing the first time they’d danced together, which had been in the alley behind the building months ago. Ren sighed, sadly.
“I doubt there will be much music soon,” he said quietly. Louisa stared up at him, confused.
“Why?”
The music suddenly wasn’t music— it was the sounds of trucks, of men shouting, of gunfire. Louisa turned around to see what was happening and suddenly everything went dark.
Louisa bolted straight up in bed, disoriented. It took her a moment to come to her senses. The bed beneath her was plush, the linens soft. The silky curtains had been pulled closed in front of the tall windows. As her eyes adjusted to the darkness, she found her reflection staring back at her from the ornate mirror that was positioned above her vanity.
This was her room in the north. She was back in her bed. Becca slept soundly next door, Howard across the hall. They had all been rescued.
It had all been a dream.
Louisa sank back into her bed, burying herself in the blankets as she tried to sleep once again. She subconsciously ran her fingers across the scar on the palm of her hand, so faint often wondered if she was just imagining it was there.
Ren and Louisa Modern AU
ren and louisa met while she was travelling abroad with her (terribly wealthy) family and friends
ren was doing some sort of volunteer work (perhaps something that would help pay for medical school in the future?)
while most of her group were resting one afternoon, she took a walk in order to see some historic buildings in a part of town no one else was interested in visiting… mostly due to the fact it was not a great part of town.
was undoubtedly ten minutes away from getting mugged but ren offered to help her find her way back… though she was insistent on seeing what there was to see in that part of town.
they ended up wandering and chatting for hours until her sister called her, frantic, and she had to go back to their hotel
lou ended up going back to visit him the next day… and the next… and the next.
ren introduced her to the locals he was staying with who were not the sorts of people the priors and co. tended to associate with, much to the disapproval of her travelling companions when she told them of her adventures in the evenings at dinner.
lou even went to the medical center where ren was volunteering a few times and helped out with simple tasks, but mostly just entertained the young children who were there for various reasons
louisa contemplated staying behind a few weeks longer after their vacation ended but ended up deciding against it after consulting her sister.
but she and ren continued to keep in touch through text and video chat– though those were often interrupted when ren’s phone was snatched by the neighborhood children who would take lou around so she could say hello to everyone
lou felt super cliche for thinking this, but she’d never become friends with someone as quickly as she had with ren and honestly wished she could be doing something to help those less fortunate… but she was living in a fancy penthouse and going to glamorous parties instead.
when ren told her he was planning to forgo medical school for another year in order to spend more time training locals to work at the medical center, lou made the rather rash decision to go help as well.
meaning she just got on a plane and didn’t actually tell her family (or ren) where she was going. it was rather a bit of a shock when she showed up at his door with a suitcase and literally no plan beyond wanting to help.
her brother and his friends were travelling nearby and detoured to try and convince louisa this was no place for her, but she was adamant in her decision
it was a huge culture shock and honestly louisa probably was more of a hindrance than help in the first few weeks but she honestly had never been happier before
after that year, ren went home to begin medical school while louisa used her connections to do fundraising for the organization they’d been working with.
lou and ren eventually start dating right before ren begins his medical residency– much to the glee of the kids back in the town where they first met. (those kids are the OG ren/lou shippers!)
they end up travelling to around the world establishing medical centers in less fortunate areas through the foundation lou eventually convinces her friends and family to help finance
they finally settle down in one place when their daughter, ella, is born <3
and lou for sure still calls him “ren like the bird” on occasion :)
Ren/Lou kid ❤️
Name: Eleanor “Ella” Conway
Gender: Female
General Appearance: Bright eyes, unruly curly hair, always smiling
Personality: So adventurous!!!! Would spend her entire days exploring if she could!!!! Hates being inside. Grew up with Nathaniel, Xavier, and Oliver but out braves all of them!!! So fearless!!! Always comes home with scraped knees and has broken her arm at least three times (she’s ren’s #1 patient tbh!). Some strong movie!Margaret Dashwood/Rose Calvert vibes. The least judgemental person you will ever meet!!!! Knows all about how her parents met and how they both had such conflicting views on the same events based upon their different circumstances!! Will always stop to consider something from someone else’s POV!!! Super loving and accepting of basically everyone!!!! Very outgoing and friendly!!!! Doesn’t have a mean bone in her body!
Special Talents: so creative!!! will probably be a writer one day!!! always making up wonderful and complicated stories that she tells her friends!!! also super inventive!!! made a dollhouse out of old boxes and scraps of fabric that were lying around the house
Who they like better: she loves both of her parents so much!!!! don’t think she has a favorite!!
Who they take after more: both!!!!
Personal Head canon: Ella was the first kid to befriend Xavier Crandon and can always make him laugh/smile!!!!! Ren made her a swing in the backyard and she could swing for hours tbh. Will bring her mom flowers every day!!! Does have perfect manners when it counts despite loving to run wild (thanks aunt rebecca!) Ren is such a proud and happy father he spoils her so much!!!! she could honestly get away with anything??? lou reads to her every night from the extensive conway library and tbh it is one of ella’s favorite things in the world!
Face Claim: Annie Rose Buckley
Music in the Air
Rebecca had fallen asleep early and, even though she knew she shouldn’t, Louisa had slipped out the window and made her way as quietly as possible through the empty streets towards the town center. In the meeting hall the lights were shining and she could hear the sounds of laughter. She slipped around the side of the building, stopping near enough to the window in order to better hear the music being played inside but remained unseen. She leaned against the cool brick wall, closing her eyes as the music played and sinking onto the small bench alongside the building.
“What are you doing?”
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“People were capable of more love and benevolence than they realized. The collective public voice did not always represent the individual heart.”
— Sarah McCoy, The Mapmaker’s Children
Caught Me Thinking | Victor & Louisa
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He managed another smile, “Your faith is poorly placed, Miss Prior,” He said, “You’d be much safer with Xavier. Has he never told you how useless I was, as a boy, next to him?” He said it teasingly, trying to lighten the mood after he had dampened it, but every word of it had been true. “He saved my life more times than I can say.” He added, sobering, thinking how he would have been dead long ago if it wasn’t for his friend. He wished that Vardon might have been able to say the same of him.
But all I have ever done was put his life in danger, he thought bitterly.
He raised an eyebrow, “Dancing?” He asked, almost laughing at the suggestion, “You really must be confusing me with Xavier if you think I’d make a suitable dancing partner.” He was still smiling as he said it, but he couldn’t help but think about the many times he’d danced with Beatrice … the only woman (besides the Priors) who could have convinced him to try: the only person who could make him forget himself and not worry if he looked a fool. He wanted to laugh, again, at the thought … he already was a damned fool. He was only too foolish to notice.
“If we are to go dancing, I must insist on choosing the music,” He said: he had no intention of dancing to anything too loud or fast. Louisa had once pulled a very reluctant Victor onto the dance floor during a song that was very upbeat. Victor had never detested anything more. If he must dance at all, he preferred something soft and slow. He must insist on being, as Xavier would have affectionately put it “a bore”.
He wished he hadn’t brought up her brother just now. What good would dwelling on any of that do? Neither of them were in any position to fix anything tonight. He rested a hand on her shoulder and gave it an affectionate squeeze, attempting to be comforting. He decided to say no more about it tonight.
Instead, he nodded, “Yes, please. I would love to stay.”
Louisa furrowed her brow as Victor referred to himself as useless. “Now, Victor, I won’t hear another word of that!” she scolded him as they stepped out into the cold air outside the library. She stayed a step above him on the stoop so she might look him in the eye. “Can you even imagine the sort of man Xavier might have become if he didn’t have you as a friend by his side through everything?” she pointed out. She knew how important Victor was to Xavier, but she also knew how self depreciating Victor could be-- especially right now. “Being strong or good at killing off the undead doesn’t mean everything in this world, despite what people seem to think.”
Finishing her speech, she walked down the steps towards the sidewalk where a car had been waiting for her. The driver jumped out as soon as he saw her to open the door.
“Carter, please take us to the nearest dance hall that will play whatever music is most agreeable to Mr. Cradon,” she announced, turning back to face Victor with a smile. She was joking with him, of course. “Only teasing, Carter,” she turned back to the driver seconds later. “But Mr. Cradon is coming for dinner tonight, so I do hope he’ll be kind enough to drive me back home himself,” she informed the driver, handing him the books she borrowed.
“What do you say, Victor?” she asked, turning back to grin at him. Louisa wasn’t a spoiled young woman, exactly, but she rarely heard the word ‘no.’ “I promise not to put on any music after dinner and coerce you into dancing.”
A Domestic Disaster || Louisa + Ren
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“A bit, yes,” He warned, “But if you give me your hand and look away and concentrate on other things, it won’t be so bad. I promise. You only need one or two. It will be over soon.”
Ren took her hand gently in his own and settled about to work, hoping that their conversation would be distraction enough to keep her from feeling too much pain. He laughed, “I’m happy to hear you say so,” He said. Ren never thought he had much to offer in that department. He always felt scrawny and awkward standing next to Seb and Will.
He tilted his head, “Who is Regina?” He asked. It was clear that she was a child, but he thought that there were only the three Priors. Perhaps he was wrong. “Do you have another sister?”
Ren paused for a moment, wondering who she had meant. But when she said that he had simply grunted in response to her question, he smiled, “Oh, you mean Will, I suppose.” He had been assigned to guard the Priors and he wasn’t terribly happy about it. “He can be a bit … unapproachable and unsocial at times,” He explained, “Actually, that’s an understatement … he’s rarely anything else. But … don’t let him fool you, he’s one of the best people I know. He saved my life once. It was wasn’t for him, I would have been dead a long time ago.”
He hesitated a moment before answering her next question, “I taught myself,” He said and then, laughing, “I know that isn’t what you want to hear from the man who is treating you, but … as it turns out, I’m the best we’ve got.” It didn’t surprise him that she had been under the care of someone who had learned from someone who had properly learned medicine. If there was such a person in the entire world, Vardon would have been sure to find them.
He made a final cut, “There, all done.” He announced, carefully placing a bandage over her hand. “Keep it dry for the next two days … and only get it moderately wet afterwards. In about four days, I will take them out and then you will be as good as new.”
Louisa stared at him for a moment before speaking.
“If you say so...” she replied, holding out her hand to him and turning her head slightly, eyes looking up at the ceiling, the floor, anywhere but at her own hand. His question about Regina did nothing to calm her as she quickly thought up a way to skirt around the question. She didn’t want to lie entirely (though she wasn’t sure why, exactly. She owed these people nothing, including the truth) but she didn’t want to reveal Regina’s parentage.
“Another sister? No, its just me and Rebecca... Regina’s just a friend’s daughter who stays with us sometimes,” she replied quickly, biting her lip as she felt the prick of the needle on the palm of her hand, though it wasn’t as painful as she might have imagined.
“Oh yes, William, that’s right,” she turned her head away from the ceiling to face Ren now, surprised to see him smiling at the mention of the grumpy man that followed Rebecca and Louisa about in silence most of the day. “I do not think he likes us very much,” she replied, daring to grin slightly at the comment. She didn’t suppose many people here liked she and her sister very much.
"He saved your life?” Louisa asked, immediately interested in what she thought might be an exciting tale of life in the rugged south. “What happened? Was it from the undead?” she was already creating a story in her head as she so often had back home when people talked about the south. “I’ve never seen one but everyone says they’re terrifying. Howard told me, when I was little, that there was one locked in the basement and I was so scared I burst right into a very important meeting between my father and Xavier, just in tears and completely inconsolable, and well.. Howard was in a lot of trouble,” she laughed a bit at the memory.
“You taught yourself?” Louisa repeated, not nearly as concerned as she was impressed. “Just from books? That’s simply remarkable. You must be quite smart,” she informed him sincerely. She also mentally made a note not to mention any of that to her sister, who would undoubtedly be less impressed. Glancing down, she watched him cut the thread from the last stitch and wrap the bandage around her hand. “And you’re much better at sewing than I’ve ever been. I’m sure you can properly mend clothing too, can’t you?” she turned her eyes back up to him, still smiling.
“Well thank you very much, Ren, like the bird, for fixing me up. I’ll make sure to take care of it,” she flexed her hand slightly, trying to gauge if it would still hurt. It was at this point, however, she wasn’t sure what to do-- did she pay him? She knew Xavier paid James his salary and, of course, medical treatment didn’t come for free, but she and Rebecca had arrived with nothing but what they’d had on their persons when they’d been grabbed off the street.
“I’m... I’m not sure how to pay you,” she confessed, standing up from the table. “I was, unfortunately, not allowed to pack before I came here,” she hoped he would take that as a joke and not as a jab, despite it being entirely true. “I did notice your book... the one you were reading when I came in. It looks quite delicate and I thought, perhaps, if you have some paper, I could copy it for you?” Admittedly, she had no concept of whether or not this was a fair trade, but she couldn’t think of much else she might be able to do to repay him.
“I don’t mean to brag, but I have lovely penmanship.”
Southern Ways || Louisa + Rebecca
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“He will,” She agreed, “Soon this will all be over.”
Rebecca didn’t doubt Xavier: not for a moment … but she knew that it was a complicated situation that they were in. She knew he would come for them as soon as he was able: but if that meant days or weeks (or months?!) she could not say. All she did know, was that Xavier would not abandon them to the south for a moment longer than he needed to.
Rebecca rolled her eyes, “He’s insufferable. He didn’t even have the decency to answer you?” She asked, raising an eyebrow, “How could he be so shocked by your question as though it wasn’t the most natural thing in the world for you to have asked of him!” Rebecca believed that the Southerners didn’t care for anyone but themselves and this only served to cement her belief. He was shocked, she surmised, because he could not imagine how Lou felt.
“Lou, I don’t think it’s a good idea,” She warned, “I won’t stop you from going out … I think we will both go a little mad if we don’t … but you can’t trust them. Promise me that you won’t. Don’t say anything to anyone that you would not reveal to Virginia herself.” She didn’t think she or her sister knew anything especially valuable to them, but she knew, too, that even something as seemingly innocent of the layout of Vardon’s home or his general schedule could be used against them. “Perhaps they aren’t all bad, as you say, but don’t ever let your guard down.”
Don’t ever forget what they’ve done to us, Rebecca wanted to say. She left the words unsaid. Neither of them needed a reminder of what the South had done to their family, just now.
Despite everything Louisa had said, Rebecca still couldn’t bring herself to believe that Virginia had any followers who were also good people: how could anyone compare Virginia and Vardon and not see who was in the right? Vardon was warm and kind; Virginia stern and cold. Vardon had saved the world and Virginia seeked to destroy it.
“Becca, you mustn’t worry so much,” Lou attempted to reassure her, though she knew there was some truth in what her sister said. “I don’t trust them...” or perhaps she did. “I just can’t imagine everyone here is truly bad, especially after talking to a few of them. Just like everyone isn’t necessarily good back home-- Beatrice didn’t turn out to be all the nice, did she?” Louisa pointed out. She knew it wasn’t the best example, but it was the only one she could think of in the moment.
“Besides... that grumpy fellow doesn’t let us out of his slight for a moment,” she glanced over her shoulder to make a point and, sure enough, he was at least 10 yards back, smoking a cigarette and looking miserable as he followed the pair. “And I do believe he is supposed to keep us safe, along with making sure we don’t run off, so just... don’t worry,” she squeezed her sister’s hand tightly in her own. “Like you said... this can’t last much longer, can it?”
“And remember what mother always said,” she continued quickly, before Rebecca had a chance to protest, “... you’ll make yourself sick with worry,” she tried to grin, but Rebecca’s face was so sincere with worry, Louisa knew she didn’t want to joke.
“I promise I won’t go anywhere anymore without telling you first,” Louisa assured her quickly and, in that moment at least, intended to keep that promise to her sister.
A Domestic Disaster || Louisa + Ren
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“It means you’d need stitches,” He said, drying her hand gently with a clean towel. He brought her hand closer to him, now, to better examine it. “Which … as it turns out, it looks like you may need, after all. It is deeper than I thought.” He looked up at her, noting the concern on her face, “Have you ever had stitches before?” He asked, “Not to worry if you haven’t. It isn’t half so bad as it sounds. I promise I will be quick.”
He started to gather his supplies as she talked and he couldn’t help but laugh when she mentioned that he didn’t look like a bird. “Really? I think I do a bit,” He grinned, he hoped to lighten the mood a bit. “But more like a confused ostrich and less like a wren,” He teased. “Sound a bit like one, too, when I try to sing.”
He sat back down next to her as he made certain that the needle was steril. “It was just a medical journal … but there is a library, here. It isn’t much and it’s only semi-organized.” Building and maintaining a library wasn’t a priority … at least not yet. When the war was over, he was sure that there would be several people who would gladly volunteer. As it was, it was rarely attended to.
“Would you like me to show you later?” He asked, “It can be tricky to find.”
Louisa’s face fell a bit at his mention of stitches. She’d honestly never even seen anyone with stitches, but was quick enough to pick up the concept. “Will it hurt?” she asked quickly. She’d pricked herself a few times when she briefly thought embroidery might be an amusing way to spend the time and she could only imagine it would be quite worse.
“A bird? Not in the slightest-- not even an ostrich,” she assured him. “They’re quite silly birds, aren’t they? Regina has this picture book of strange animals and she was simply fascinated by ostriches there for awhile... I must have had a dozen drawings of those birds shoved under my door over the course of a month!”
She stopped herself suddenly. Here she was, chattering away to this southerner about Xavier’s daughter as if they were old friends-- as if these people weren’t possibly planning to try and kidnap the girls next! She knew, rationally, that Regina’s short lived obsession with birds from her picture book was useless information, but she still felt odd speaking about the girls here.
“There is actually a library?” Louisa asked, completely shocked. Both she and Rebecca assumed there would be no need for a library in such a place as this. “I asked this fellow... Mitchell, I think his name is? Or perhaps Winston? I can’t remember. Either way, I asked him about acquiring books a few days ago and he sort of just... grunted at me, which lead me to assume there wasn’t such a building here...” she was rambling on once again, eyeing the needle in his hand suspiciously. “But yes, I would so greatly appreciate it if you’d find the time to show me,” she continued, looking away from the needling and smiling at him.
“Where did you study medicine?” she asked, continuing her unending series of questions. “The doctor who... who cares for us back home studied with his grandfather before the outbreak, so I suppose its a family trade of sorts for them. Was your father a doctor?”
A Domestic Disaster || Louisa + Ren
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Before the outbreak, Ren wouldn’t have qualified to have been a doctor. Not even close. Given the circumstances, however, he was the best they had. Like most Southerners, he lacked a formal education. His mother had taught him to read and write before she died, but he hadn’t had any schooling other than that. Everything he’d learned about medicine, he’d learned from old medical journals he’d found.
It had taken him months to make sense of any of them. He’d pursued his research with a fierce determination. It wasn’t until he had found a book on medical terminology that he was able to make any real headway. He’d taught himself a quite a lot since then, but he was always eager to know more: for all that he had learned, he knew that there was much and more he wouldn’t be prepared for.
He had a book in his hands, even now. It was in poor condition, but it had been salvaged and brought back to him by Irene when she’d escorted Virginia to one of the other rebel encampments. He was turning the pages gingerly, afraid they might break off in his hands if he did not, when he looked up to see a young girl with a bloody rag pressed tightly over her hand.
He’d never seen her here, before. Judging from her clothes, however, he could guess who she might be. But there would be time for those questions, later. For now, he was more concerned with her injury.
“That’s what I here for,” He said, briskly, standing from his seat behind the best “Let’s have a look.”
With a quick efficiency, he washed his own hands before examining her own. He took her hand in his, gently removing the bandage. It struck him how soft they were against his own, still rough and worn from years of working in the northern factories.
“It doesn’t look too deep,” He announced, “But let’s get it cleaned up first. This may sting a bit,” He warned. He washed her hand with some warm water and a bit of soap.
“Are you one of the Priors?” He asked, gently, hoping to distract her from any discomfort with conversation. “I’m Lawrence Conway,” He added, “But you can call me Ren, if you like.”
Louisa winced as he pulled the rag wrapped around her hand away from the wound. She could tell he wasn’t from the North as soon as he took her hand in his. His hands were rough against her own, incredibly different from the young men who would twirl her around the ballroom back home at the mansion until Howard or Xavier would cut in, signally enough was enough. There was nothing wrong with having rough hands, she thought to herself. It just meant they’d done some labor in their days.
“What does it mean if its too deep?” Louisa inquired once he’d told her the opposite about her wound. He was right about the water-- it did sting and she sucked in a quick breath but didn’t pull her hand away as he cleaned the cut. She tried to remember if she’d ever had a cut or a scratch in the past like this that had been cleaned but couldn’t recall a time. Had she really never even fallen and scraped her knee as an exuberant youth?
She nearly asked him if he’d still fix up her hand if she said yes, but thought better of it. She’d mean it as a joke but didn’t know if he’d necessarily find it amusing.
“Ren... just like the bird,” she commented, never having heard the nickname before. “Not that you look like a bird or anything,” she added quickly, not wanting him to misconstrue her statement. She was prattling a bit to keep her mind off the rather large gash across her palm that was slowly turning the water a murky shade of red.
“My name is Louisa,” she informed him, purposefully neglecting her last name. She could already tell he knew exactly who she was just like everyone she came across. “What were you reading?” she asked almost instantly. “I've been desperate for a book. Is there a library here?”
I Think I Know You || Louisa + Seb
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It had been around 3:00 in the morning, yesterday, when Seb had returned to Arcadia from Uprya. His first stop had been to the infirmary to sew himself up after a scuffle at the border. Fortunately for him, Ren had happened to stumble into the room and had done the job properly. Having had a little rest (and a good talking to from Vera) since then, Seb had returned to thank his cousin properly. Instead of him, however, Seb had been run into (quite literally) by a tiny, chattering blond practically the instant he’d crossed the threshold.
Stepping back by instinct, he peered at the girl. She was familiar to him and he realized, all at once, that this must be Louisa Prior. Seb had been marginally acquainted with the Priors through the Hartwrights, back when he was stepping out with Lina before their marriage, but in truth he’d barely known them, seen them more than much else. He would be surprised if they had seen him, as well.
“It’s itching?” he inquired, glancing at her bandage. In truth, he didn’t know so much about medicine, but he did know something about this. “That just means it’s healing,” he assured her. He’d seen his share of scrapes to know that well enough by now.
“I was here to see him, myself,” he replied, shrugging with his hands. “I guess he’s stepped out. I know he was up very late the other night. He might still be catching up on sleep.” He paused. “How do you know Ren?”
Seb’s brows furrowed at the sound of her accusation. His jaw clenched along with his fists as she uttered the name Madeline Vardon. “Took?” he demanded, stepping forward. “You make it sound so sordid. Is that what they’re saying in Uprya? That I stole her away?”
“He fixed my hand,” Louisa replied slowly, subconsciously rubbing the bandage around her palm with the opposite hand. That seemed logical; Ren was a doctor, after all. But if this was the brutish man who’d run off with Madeline, who’s to say he’d make that connection? “I’ve been borrowing books from him,” she added, grabbing the book she had tucked under her arm as proof.
His reaction to her statement was less abrasive that she expected in all honesty. She’d regretted the words the moment they left her mouth, knowing they might evoke outrage in response. She took as few quick steps backwards as he moved towards her.
“Because that’s what happened,” she replied, knowing the truth. She’d seen it all happen right in front of her: Xavier’s pain upon hearing Madeline had been taken by the south, everything he did to return her to Uprya, the joy on his face when he had once again been reunited with her. Louisa knew Rebecca thought she might be taken in by the southerners, but she knew what was real and what was not.
“You took her, even though she and Xavier were planning to marry, and brought her here against her will. But she escaped-- she came back, and now she and Xav--” she paused, rethinking speaking so familiarly about Xavier. “Commander Vardon are married and they’re having a baby,” she informed him, a matter of fact tone to her voice. She knew she might be poking the bear, that Rebecca would scold her should she find out but she didn’t care at this moment. After meeting Ren and a few other southerners, she’d begun thinking they might not be so different than the northerners in many ways, but it was persons like this who made reality come crashing back into focus and reminding her of one very important detail she must never forget: these people killed her parents.
“She’s quite happy and safe now,” she added, twisting the knife in a quite uncharacteristic fashion for Louisa, surprising even herself slightly as she said it.
Time for Tea || Louisa + Lina
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Lina stood by the window, watching the rain beat against the pane of glass, wishing she was anywhere else in the world. She didn’t like being alone with her thoughts. She felt so trapped; so helpless. She feared for Seb; for Bea; for her unborn child; for everyone they’d left in the South. There was so much that could go wrong and so little she felt she could do to prevent it.
She was grateful for the knock at the door that roused her from her thoughts. “Yes, please stay. I would love some,” Her countenance brightened at the prospect. She was eager for the distraction.
She didn’t always see eye to eye with Louisa Prior, but she also knew her well enough to know why she thought the things she did and she knew that her heart had always been in the right place. The Priors had always been so closely linked to Xavier Vardon, that it was hard to see his faults from their vantage point. He treated them like family and if you were a willing part of Vardon’s inner circle, than it was a comfortable place to be.
She thanked Louisa for the tea she’d poured as she took a seat across from her. “I am! Today has been much easier than yesterday and yesterday better than the day before. Dr. Cranton says that soon it shouldn’t bother me anymore. I hope he’s right.” She took a sip of tea: it was warm and soothing. Settling the cup back carefully into the saucer, she looked back up at Louisa. “How are you?” She asked.
She meant, specifically, in light of what had happened to her brother, but she did not dare ask outright in case Louisa didn’t wish to talk about it. She knew what it was like to hear that your sibling was at the mercy of the enemy. She knew, better than most, what you would do to ensure their safety. She also wished she could tell Louisa that she was sure that Howard would be alright. But she knew she couldn’t: she’d promised not to discuss how she’d willingly left the North for the South four years before. As far as Louisa knew, her loyalties were, and always had been, with the North.
Louisa smiled as she settled into her chair across from Madeline. “We’re simply delighted there will be another child in the family!” Louisa informed her as she leaned forward to fish a single cube of sugar out of the bowl for her tea. “I know Xavier had probably told you this already, but I will spoil your to bits. There is no stopping Auntie Lulu,” she grinned, dropping the sugar cube into her tea with a slightly plop.
Her demeanor sobered at Lina’s question. She let out a small sigh and shook her head. “As best as one might be, all things considered,” she confessed. “All will be much better once Xavier brings Howard home... which he has assured me will be as soon as possible,” she reached forward to pick up a small biscuit from the plate on the table. “But we do worry... I hope they aren’t hurting him. Do you think they would?” she asked before she had even realized the words left her mouth. Rebecca had cautioned against bringing up her time in the south with Madeline.
“I’m so sorry,” she apologized quickly. “I didn’t mean... that is... oh dear,” she took a bite of biscuit in order to stop herself from talking. Once she’d swallowed the bite, she dared to speak again. “You know we’re all so pleased you’re back from there, Madeline,” she informed her. “Not just Xavier, all of us.”
Caught Me Thinking | Victor & Louisa
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“I abhor secrets.” He said, a bit more sternly and cooly then he had meant to. He wasn’t angry at her, although he sounded it. It wasn’t her secret that he despised. Her’s was such a little thing. It was the secrets Beatrice had kept from him … it was the ones that he was keeping from Vardon, even now. It took him a moment to realize how displeased with her he had come off.
He pushed all of those unpleasant thoughts out of his mind (or rather, made some attempt to) and looked down at Louisa, giving her the most mischievous smile he could muster. “But I will keep your’s. I’d be awful grateful for your company, just now.”
He hoped he hadn’t caused any offense by his first remark. He considered Louisa to be the closest thing he had to a sister and, as such, she knew him better than most. She knew how he could be and he hoped she knew that he did not always mean it.
He’d relaxed considerably, already, in her company. It was easy to do, when she was so bright and cheerful … even after all she was going through. He wished he could be more like her but truth be told he found keeping such a demeanor exhausting if he did not truly feel completely happy and content. And it was rarer and rarer these days that he felt either.
He nodded, “Of course, I will escort you back to your corridors when you are ready. We can’t have your sister worrying after you.”
He paused, considering her question. “I –” He exhaled, “I will gladly take any recommendations you may have but … to be honest, I’m not sure I could concentrate much on anything, just now. I was hoping to find a distraction, but I think I will not find it here.” He turned to her, “There’s been much on my mind … there’s been much to do.” He paused, “Louisa, I … we will find your brother and bring him back safely. I hope you know that.”
Louisa had to stop herself from wincing at his words. She’d unintentionally hit a nerve with poor Victor, something she desperately wished not to do. She worried he might never recover from Beatrice’s betrayal and only wished she knew how to brighten him mood.
As he amended his words, she smiled. She appreciated his smile-- it had been ages since she’d seen one of those. “I knew I could trust you of all people,” she chirped at him. “There is no one I would trust more to protect me from the wilds of the Capitol at dusk,” she informed him dramatically.
“I am also an expert at distractions, as you very well are aware,” she continued, walking slowly alongside Victor towards the circulation desk. She was planning to borrow a book she’d read dozens of times already, but something about the familiarity was comforting. “Perhaps we should forget the books and go dancing-- the ultimate distraction,” she teased, knowing full well Victor would rather throw himself in a river before stepping foot into a dance hall.
Louisa stopped suddenly as Victor spoke of Howard. She immediately felt foolish. How silly he must think her, prattling on about dancing and frivolities while Howard was chained up in some southern jail.
“Of course I know that,” she replied, nodding slightly. Their little family-- Victor, Xavier, and the Prior siblings-- felt like it was in tatters at the moment, despite most of them being safe and sound. Nothing would be entirely proper until Howard was home again. She wanted nothing more than to sit in the warm parlor alongside all of them like they used to-- before Beatrice, before the troubles with the southerners.
“Please say you’ll stay for dinner with us tonight,” Louisa said quickly. It seemed like a sudden change of subjects, but she genuinely wanted nothing more than all the people she cared for most in one place right now.
I Think I Know You || Louisa + Seb
There was a limited amount of reading material in the south and Louisa Prior was working her way through most of it at a breath taking speed. She’d been going simply mad without a book to occupy her thoughts that she was almost thankful she’d sliced her hand open and been introduced to Ren Conway. Beyond being one of the more polite fellows she’d come across since she’d been brought here, he’d been handing over whatever texts they could spare around the infirmary for her to read. While a bit different than her normal choices of literature, she found it all endlessly fascinating.
“Ren!” she called, turning the corner towards the small room in the infirmary she most often found him holed up inside. She wouldn’t call it an office, since offices required a door, but it worked well enough. “Don’t laugh, I’ve finished another one and I have loads of questions. Also, should this bandage be itching like this?” she was entirely consumed with looking down at her own hand that she slammed directly into a large form that was not Ren Conway.
“Oh, I’m so sorry,” she apologized, taking a quick step back. Someone else was in Ren’s little work room that she had not seen around the infirmary before. “I’m looking for Ren... have you seen him?” she asked, stepping back once again to get a better look at the person she’d literally run into.
She recognized that face. She’d seen it in a photograph and that photograph had been lying on Xavier’s desk.
“You’re the one who took Madeline Vardon and brought her here,” she blurted out before she could stop herself.