full of yearning

9teen. law. full of yearning. talks a lot about fictional men. my carrd

[mr-rochester-of-thornfield-deac]

You’re in her DMs, I’m screaming her name across the moors and she somehow hears me. We’re not the same.

[urfavsnia]

dance this sadness away

pairings : severus snape x fem! wife reader

summary : just a little dancing in the rain fic

warnings : nothing that i can think of!

word count ; 693

you watched your husband rolling your eyes as the other woman tried to keep on a conversation with him. you were just at the other shop while he was waiting for you. but now this surely had caught your interest.

you looked at the woman. she was a solid ten. but the unmistakable stiffness in severus' shoulders made you realize the inevitable. your husband had no interest in that woman who looked like a goddess in human form.

❝it's so crowded here, isn't it?❞ you heard her ask. my god, even her voice was so much like a soap opera actress.

❝yes.❞ a single syllable response and he turned away.

oops. you would have almost felt bad for the other woman except that he was your husband and she was trying to flirt with him.

❝those crystals are so pretty, aren't they?❞ she gushed, probably trying once more.

❝they're,❞ severus replied in his usual bossy tone which he used on his students, ❝i'm selecting one for my wife.❞

the colour had rushed out of the woman's face and you almost felt like laughing. poor her. she surely didn't know that your husband, this beautiful creature, had his eyes set only for you.

❝i saw you two,❞ you informed him once she was gone.

❝baby, i was not flirting with her,❞ he looked almost worried that you'd suspect him of cheating on you.

❝i know,❞ you grinned, ❝for someone who claims to be not conventionally attractive, you surely do get picked out a lot.❞

❝oh, i wouldn't mind being flirted with,❞ he held your hand, ❝as long as it's you who's flirting with me.❞

dang this wizard. he surely knew how to melt your insides.

❝oh my god, sev. it's about to rain!❞

you could barely keep the excitement away from your voice. you loved, loved, loved rain. even more so, dancing in the rain had always been a part of your bucket list.

❝merlin,❞ severus cursed, ❝if i was dressed in my normal attire, i would have hidden you under my cloak. but now we need to find a shelter.❞

❝i have an even better idea,❞ you smirked and before he could refuse, you dragged him in the rain. the raindrops fell on your bodies and you sighed.

❝what are you doing, y/n!❞ he widened his eyes, ❝we're going to get all we- never mind, we're already wet. but i don't want you to catch a cold.❞

you stopped him with a silly smile. ❝i promise it'll be worth it, sev. just come. i have always wanted to dance in the rain with the love of my life.❞

he stared at you and you snort. he must be thinking of how dunderhead his wife was. but the sight of you so happy and carefree, it warmed his heart. but of course he was not going to let you win so easily.

❝are you a dunderhead, y/n?❞

❝dunderhead enough to do this!❞ you giggled, ❝come on, it's fun! take my hand and let's dance this sadness away.❞

relentlessly, he took your hand in his and slowly, you both were in a rhythm with him twirling you around and you both giggling like kids in the rain. you could feel passersby staring at you both but you couldn't give a darn. you were too lost in the moment. the sky poured down over you and severus had the goofiest grin. somehow the scary professor snape looked so much like a normal human who's in love with another human as he clutched onto you, both of you laughing at the madness.

❝you remind me so much of the rain,❞ you softly mumbled.

he stared at you for the softest of seconds and then pulled you into a kiss mid-dance, rain soaking through your clothes. this was your most favourite kiss from now on.

and when you parted, you looked into each other's eyes and you could swear your husband was blushing.

❝merlin, i am soaked,❞ he complained once the rain was over.

❝but that was fun,❞ you pouted, ❝wasn't it?❞

❝yeah, yeah it was,❞ he kissed your forehead lightly, ❝because it was with you.❞

[urfavsnia]

who's gonna tell ai that we're already married ??

[urfavsnia]

cannot let you go

pairings : severus snape x fem! professor reader

summary : after hearing the news that lily is alive, you decide to break things up with him because you want him to be happy with her. however little do you know, lily is the last thing in his mind

warnings : angst, altruistic reader, jealousy

author's note : i seriously don't know what i did with this fic lmao

he was upset. you could tell that. and you could probably guess why he was so upset.

lily was alive. by now, everyone had come to know the fact that she was alive while her husband had actually died in that incident. she was being held captive by dumbledore and you could see that this fact upsetted him.

was. . was it the time to let him go? to let him go so that he could reconcile with the one he loves the most?

you knew that severus loved you. it had all started when you and he had to share your office when his got burnt due to an accident. and he did love you. but not the way he loved her.

you could attest to the fact that severus snape loved lily evans more than he loved you. this was how much you loved him. you could risk breaking your own heart just to see him happy.

"baby?" he croaked out once you hugged him from back, taking him by surprise. "are you okay?"

you nodded, allowing yourself to inhale his scent, the proximity because you knew he wouldn't be yours anymore soon.

"let's break up," you softly whispered and felt his body turn stiff.

"what did you just say?" he asked, letting go of your arms and looking into your eyes, "y/n, did i do something wrong?"

"no," you shook your head, wiping off the tears, "i just can't, sev. i-"

"please don't do this to me, baby," he pleaded, he actually looked like he would cry and your heart tore apart but then you reminded yourself that you're doing it for him. besides, lily was waiting for him. after your talk with her, you were surprised that she missed him too and wanted him back.

"severus please," you rubbed your forehead and looked away, "it was never meant to happen, anyway. we're worlds apart."

it was hard. so fucking hard for you to be there in front of him and not interact with him. to not hug him. to not touch him. and when you heard rumours of him reconciling with lily, your heart broke again. was it not what you had wanted? no point in crying anymore. you hated your altruistic self.

"y/n."

remus' voice caught you off your drift and you gave him a lazy smile as he sat down beside you. normally you avoided sitting with the rest of the teachers because of severus. but now that remus had come to your secluded corner, you couldn't possibly refute.

"you look shitty."

you rolled your eyes even though you knew he was right. you had not really been taking care of yourself much. truth to be told, you never did. it was your boyfr- your ex who used to do all of that for you.

"let's go for drinks tonight?" he asked, looking at you with hopeful eyes.

"not really," you picked up your food, "i am not in the mood, remus. why don't you ask anybody?"

"but i want to go with you!" he pouted, tugging the sleeve of your dress, "i don't know how you can refuse a pretty face like mine."

at his fake-cute expression, you couldn't help but burst out in laughter and suddenly you could feel his eyes on you. you blinked. there was no way he would be looking at you. not anymore.

"so tonight?"

"tonight," you agreed.

a little bit happy that you were back to normal human interaction, you walked to your chamber but unexpectedly, you found it open. mustering up all the courage you had, you entered only to find severus.

"w-what are you doing here?"

"why, you expected lupin to be there?" his jaw was ticked and he looked mad. but why?

"of course not," you answered, trying to make your voice sound steady.

"so now i understand why you broke up with me, y/n."

crap. did lily snitch on you?

"i- it was for your own good, severus."

"my own good?" he fake-laughed and grabbed your shoulders, the anger on his face looking scary yet making him look hotter, "how on earth is your flirting with lupin for my own good?"

you blinked your eyes.

"so you were talking about me agreeing to going out wi-"

"no way in hell are you going out with him!" he clenched his jaw, "i have had enough of you, y/n, enough of you! what did you think? you'll talk to lily behind my back and i won't find that out."

"i know you love her," your voice broke out, admitting it hurts and you turn away, "i know you still do. and i know that you'd have never broken up with me because you're far too noble for that. so i made the decision for you. i broke up with you so that you could be with lily."

he turned towards you and turning your face up kissed you. he kissed you. passionately. he was trying to memorise you. he was trying to make you understand that it's you whom he loved. not lily. you. just you.

"silly girl," he hugs you, placing your head near his chest, "i cannot believe you, y/n. all of this pain just because you thought i love lily? i cannot let you go, y/n. i love you. you. you. i love you."

you bit your lip, you want to cry, yet the tears won't come. you were oh so stupid.

a knock on the door interrupted you both and you realized who it must be.

"remus," you and severus both groaned. worst timing of the century.

[urfavsnia]

no you don't understand i want him to be so much in love with me that even if i choose to marry his bully he would still love me and even if i die he would still continue to love me

[urfavsnia]

going to sleep imagining i have a severus snape in my life waiting for me who's super tired of working with dunderheads all day

i think it's time for me to stop being delusional

[urfavsnia]

when love lasts

pairings : young! severus snape x fem! gryffindor reader

summary : you have had enough of hiding your friendship with severus

warnings : basic fluff can be considered a little bit angst???

severus snape stopped believing in love. he stopped when the supposed love of his life walked away.

but then why? why couldn't he dislike you like the rest of the gryffindors? why couldn't he label you as one of those?

probably because you were not just a gryffindor. you we-

❝severus!❞ he heard you shout and turned to see you leaping towards him, the joy radiating off his face. ❝you were actually right! i got an a in potions class just because of you.❞

❝not really,❞ the greasy haired boy had always felt shy when others would compliment him, ❝you are a good learner.❞

❝am i?❞ you giggled and took his hand in yours, ❝let's go. i am super hungry.❞

❝y/n, i cannot eat with you,❞ his voice was so soft and low that it broke your heart, ❝those people won't like it if i sit with you.❞

those people being the marauders here. you were actually a good friend of theirs in the past. however you chose to side with severus when you found out about everything that james potter and sirius black did.

❝i don't care if they like it or not,❞ your voice was firm, just like a gryffindor, ❝it's not my problem. you are my best friend and you're eating with me. period.❞

as you led him to the great hall, severus couldn't help but watch you in amazement. this girl, this girl who was like an angel in his life. the only one who understood him. the only one who thought that he's not just a worthless slytherin, that he's a human worthy of respect just like everyone else.

❝y/n coming with her trash,❞ someone remarked and he clenched his fist. he was okay with people badmouthing him but he wouldn't tolerate a word against you.

❝let it be,❞ your eyes were so bright as you stared at him, ❝they're just jealous.❞

and he could not help but agree. they were jealous because this gryffindor girl would rather choose a slytherin than any of her housemates.

severus enjoyed dining with you. you were such a sight, munching off the food, all the grace long gone.

❝i expected better from you, y/n,❞ james potter stood in front of you two, his expression mocking, ❝choosing the snivellus over us?❞

you could feel severus flinch. ❝what is your problem, potter? stop bothering us!❞

❝my problem is that i cannot see a gryffindor with a slytherin!❞

❝then keep your problem to yourself,❞ severus shocked even you by speaking up for you and you were sure that the adoration that you had for him has increased tenfolds. ❝i am y/n's friend and i will remain so, no matter what you say.❞

❝of course,❞ sirius black sneered, joining the conversation, ❝until you call her a mudblood too.❞ his eyes flickered over to lily and the marauders laughed.

that was a low blow for severus. you knew how much he cared for the other girl and bringing him into this was so low, even for someone like black.

❝even if he calls me one,❞ you held severus's hands in yours, glaring at the two boys, ❝it won't end our friendship. friends fight all the time and then they reconcile too. breaking up your friendship just because of a slur that concerns him too? that's so not my thing.❞

the other boys walked away with a nasty laugh and you were sure that you caught lily evans' glare. but it didn't matter, did it?

❝i- i will never call you a mudblood, y/n.❞

the look on his face, it tore your heart apart. this boy, so much like everyone, yet so much broken from inside.

❝i know, sev,❞ you kissed his cheek lightly, ❝i know you won't.❞

[urfavsnia]

i want to give severus snape a happy ending in my fics but at the same time, i want to write the most gut-wrenching, full of angst and heartbreak and pain and what not storylines. help.

[urfavsnia]

flowers for you

pairings : severus snape x fem! professor reader

rest parts : summary , chapter one , chapter two , chapter three

act one

❝just because i agreed to be your partner, professor snape, it does not mean that i will keep on accepting each of your nonsensical ideologies and thoughts in my class.❞

❝there are quite a lot of things in hogwarts that i cannot stand. however the top three things that i truly cannot stand are : you, you and you, professor y/n.❞

[blissalittlesblog-deactivated20]

I will never understand why modesty is so expensive, i mean why abayas, hijab, jilbab, khimar are so expensive, i mean why ?

[cocksuredness-deactivated202410]

Reader, I did NOT fix him

[urfavsnia]

would you ever read my novel if i publish it?

[lyralit]

for 2023, may you bridge the gaps in your writing and drink from the well of words.

(please don't get me writers' block again)

[urfavsnia]

"to the world, she's formidable. to me? she's the world."

aaron warner ; shatter me series

[urfavsnia]

when i say i want to be a writer, i mean i want to be like the bronte sisters, specifically charlotte bronte

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"I don't know a better love story than that of a repenting slave and a forgiving Rabb."

[urfavsnia]

mindf*ck series was so good i cannot get enough of lana & logan