Tw/ vent & body dysmorphia
Yesterday we had a double cosplay photoshoot with my friends, I first portrayed Ragatha n then Pomni; and it makes me a little sad that I depend this much on my self-esteem to portray my favorite characters.
Fist I was feeling so ugly and big; While trying to maintain my positive attitude and my sense of humor, I looked worse and worse with weirder and uglier expressions in photos. I've always had a non-hegemonic face; it's very round but also very tough and *sigh* So I just assumed that I wouldn't be able to post any photos with those cosplays and decided to continue enjoying my friends.
Just now ma besties sent the second batch where I played Pomni and I definitely look much better, it shows in my playing that getting into her character comes naturally to me, which makes me very happy :D
I will definitely stop cosplaying as Ragatha until I learn to accept my body as it is.
I hate my face sfm is sad