lory

23, she + her, cest

[urs0diumfine]

✶ HE DIED FOR A KING WHO NEVER KNEW HOW TO LOVE HIM.

a roleplay interest post — for bbc merlin (canon-divergent, grief-heavy, merthur-centric)

“It was never just destiny. It was devotion, and that’s worse.”

🩸 WHO I AM

i’m lory (23, she/her), an adv. lit / novella style writer drawn to the emotionally raw, myth-drenched, quietly devastating. i write slowburn, prose-heavy, trauma-aware plots steeped in psychological tension, internal conflict, and the kind of love that’s always a little bit cursed.

i write exclusively on discord, use tupperbox, and thrive with partners who are just as obsessed with co-creating as i am—OOC chatter, spiraling playlists, voice note headcanons at 2am. i love rapid fire replies when the mood strikes, but slow, steady suffering is welcome too.

🔞 18+ only. open to nsfw and dead dove themes (grief, legacy, betrayal, obsession, etc) with clear communication and narrative weight.

🐉 WHO I’M CRAVING

right now i’m possessed by the need to write arthur pendragon—before the fall, after the fall, in another life where he still ends up breaking his own heart. i want the version of him that never quite knew how to be loved, not properly. not by him. i want the guilt, the grandeur, the grief.

i’m looking for someone to write merlin (or a compelling OC) across any timeline, canon-divergent arc, or reincarnation concept. i’m open to POV swapping too if our styles click—i’ve written merlin before, and i adore exploring him through arthur’s fractured lens.

💔 preferred ship:

arthur + merlin (canon divergence, reincarnation, unspoken yearning, “i would’ve died for you” but he already did)

🕯️ TONE & THEMES I’M DRAWN TO

– canon divergence where arthur lives… and wishes he didn’t

– merlin telling the truth too late / arthur realizing it too early

– grief as devotion • destiny as punishment

– knights as ghosts • the crown as a cage

– “you served me. but you loved me first.”

– love that’s mistaken for loyalty until it’s too much

– the tragedy of everything unsaid

– reincarnation where only one of them remembers

– emotional repression • yearning • betrayal • the weight of magic

– “do you hate me for not seeing it?” / “do you hate me for loving you anyway?”

📍 PLOTS I’D LOVE TO WRITE

– canon divergence AU: arthur survives camlann. merlin confesses, and it ruins everything / saves nothing

– reincarnation AU: arthur doesn’t believe in destiny, but merlin looks at him like he remembers drowning

– modern day: arthur’s the politician or soldier; merlin is still magic, still waiting

– ghost AU: arthur haunts camelot. merlin stays anyway.

– war-torn high fantasy AU with echoes of canon: still the once and future king, still dying wrong

– enemies to lovers, but the betrayal already happened

– arranged marriage AU: arthur must marry for peace, but merlin was the only one who ever loved him freely

– post-canon: grief-tethered, legacy-haunted, they find each other in dreams and ruins

🪶 TROPES & DEVASTATION I LOVE

enemies to lovers • forbidden love • unspoken devotion • identity reveals • repressed magic • “it’s always been you” • forced proximity (on the run, on the throne, in exile) • “you died and i never got to say it” • the weight of a crown • duty vs desire • “you don’t get to come back” • the sword was a metaphor • haunted forests • shared destiny • “you called me friend but i meant something else” • “why didn’t you tell me?” / “would it have changed anything?” • betrayal as heartbreak • time doesn’t heal • memory as curse

⚠ CONTENT NOTES

✨ will write:

grief • trauma • emotional repression • betrayal • death • magic as burden • post-war grief • nsfw / dead dove with nuance

⛔ will not write:

underage smut • glorified abuse • noncon/dubcon without consent & weight • bigoted content of any kind

📬 YOU, MAYBE

if you want to write a love that stretches across lifetimes, that was doomed before it even began—if you want to rewrite the ending just to break it again—like this post, comment, or message me.

tell me who you write. tell me what they regret.

let’s build something that feels like a final prayer never spoken aloud.

“It was destiny, yes. But it was also love. And no one survived it.”

[urs0diumfine]

✶ WELCOME TO HEARTROT.

a roleplay interest post — for heartstopper (canon-divergent, university timeline)

“Somewhere between friendship and love, we lost the language to survive it.”

📓 WHO I AM

i’m lory (23, she/her), an adv. lit / novella style writer with a love for the emotionally layered, the quietly devastating, and the stories that ache long after you close the tab. i write slowburn, prose-heavy, trauma-aware plots with strong emphasis on psychological realism, interpersonal tension, and character studies that unravel over time.

i write exclusively on discord, use tupperbox, and thrive with partners who enjoy building full universes—OOC connections, side characters, playlists, spirals, the works. i love rapid fire replies when possible, but connection and mutual obsession matter more. 18+ only please.

open to nsfw and dark/dead dove themes (eating disorders, mental illness, grief, obsession, trauma, etc), all handled with care and narrative weight. no fade-to-black on emotional consequences—we write through it.

🕯️ WHAT I’M CRAVING

i want to write a canon-divergent university timeline where nick and charlie never met at fifteen. there were no comic panels, no perfect pacing—just two boys colliding too late, or too quietly. and the damage was already done.

i have strong muse for a charlie who is sharper now—withdrawn, guarded, more ghost than boy. the kind of soft that cuts back.

i also love writing a nick who never came out, or did and regrets it. who performs softness but is splintering underneath. the golden boy, quietly breaking. the hand that reached, too late.

i’m flexible with POV depending on chemistry—i can write either boy (or both), and i’m just as obsessed with exploring their unraveling together as i am with the version of them that never fit.

🤍 preferred ships:

nick + charlie (heartstopper, but unspoken. heartstopper, but scarred.)

charlie + oc / nick + oc (if the tone matches)

messy friendships. secret lovers. platonic obsession. repressed tenderness. exes who never got closure. anything that aches.

🕸️ TONES / THEMES I’M DRAWN TO

– the parts of canon left unsaid: relapse, recovery, identity as performance

– the dark undercurrent of obsession in first love

– the aftermath of being someone’s “light” and burning out

– “you were supposed to choose me”

– internalized shame, self-hatred, and the desire to disappear

– what happens after “I love you”—when reality sets in

– coming out when it’s not safe. craving touch when it’s not wanted.

– “i’m not him” / “i know”

– queer trauma that isn’t polished or performative

– memory loss, secret relationships, emotionally imbalanced dynamics

– timelines that spiral. letters that never get read.

– “do you still love me?” / “i don’t know how to stop”

📍PLOT IDEAS I’D LOVE TO EXPLORE

– canon-divergent university AU: they meet in year 12/year 13 instead of year 10

– charlie is closeted and prickly; nick is out but struggling

– alternate canon where they broke up and meet again

– a charlie who keeps disappearing / a nick who doesn’t know how to stop him

– dark mirror AU: same people, wrong timing

– nick is the golden boy with a girlfriend. charlie is the secret. or maybe vice versa

– obsessive longing disguised as friendship

– party kisses that weren’t supposed to mean anything. they do.

– academic pressure, eating disorders, toxic coping mechanisms, body image

– therapy scenes, relapse arcs, performance vs truth

– letters. text threads. late-night confessions.

– charlie never got better. nick never came out.

– a charlie who says “i’m fine” and means “don’t ask.”

🧷 TROPES & DYNAMICS I’M OBSESSED WITH

mutual pining with emotional weight • unspoken love • misremembered touches • “i thought you knew” • secret relationship • “you’re ashamed of me” • obsession dressed up as care • “you were the only thing that felt real” • post-breakup tenderness • hospital visits • found family but broken • “i didn’t know it was love until it ruined me” • love as salvation / love as damage • falling apart where no one sees • memory as punishment • time skips • flashbacks that change meaning later • silence that says too much • “you looked at me like you wanted me. why didn’t you?”

⚠ CONTENT NOTES

✨ will write:

mental health • trauma • eating disorders • grief • guilt • obsession • queer shame • darker themes with emotional nuance

🚫 will not write:

underage smut • glorified abuse • noncon/dubcon without narrative weight and consent • bigoted content of any kind

📬 YOU, MAYBE

if you’re interested in writing love that’s a little broken at the edges, that comes out sideways in late-night text messages and soft-spoken apologies—if you want to tell a story about being seen too late, or not at all—like this post, comment, or message me. tell me who you write. tell me what haunts them. and let’s write something that feels like the silence after a storm.

“We were supposed to save each other. I think we made it worse.”

[urs0diumfine]

✶ THE SUMMER I TURNED TO SALT.

a roleplay interest post — for the summer i turned pretty

“We were always on the edge of something. A kiss. A lie. A goodbye.”

🌊 ABOUT ME

hi. i’m lory (23, she/her) and i’ve been writing longform, emotionally heavy, character-driven roleplay for over a decade. my style leans advanced lit / novella—slowburn, atmospheric, sensory, and intimate. i care deeply about crafting emotional realism and complexity, especially through flawed characters, internal spirals, and unspoken moments that say more than words ever could.

i write exclusively on discord, use tupperbox, and prefer deeply collaborative writing partners who are just as invested in the pain, the pacing, and the character arcs as i am. i love rapid fire replies (when possible), but it’s not required if the connection is there.

🔞 18+ only. open to nsfw and dark/dead dove themes (grief, obsession, mental illness, trauma, unhealthy codependency, etc) with clear communication and boundaries. i’m not here to fade to black on the heavy stuff—i want to write it through.

🕯️ WHAT I’M LOOKING FOR

i’m currently drowning in muse for conrad fisher and would love to write something centered around his pov or story—whether canon-compliant, diverging, or entirely au. i’m especially interested in exploring the darker layers of him: his guilt, silence, addiction, repression, grief, and the kind of love that ruins you slowly.

📍ships i’m interested in:

belly + conrad (bonrad) → slowburn, silence as defense, guilt-laced tenderness

belly + jeremiah (jelly) → sweetness spoiled by secrets, love that doesn’t know itself

conrad + jeremiah (brotherhood, rivalry, betrayal, guilt—platonic or not)

open to triangle dynamics, character studies, or even OC-centered stories if the tone is right

💔 i want:

– a conrad who aches. who breaks things quietly. who wants to be good but doesn’t believe he can be

– a belly who remembers the way he looked at her like a secret, and what it cost her

– a jeremiah who smiles through the betrayal and drinks just to forget it for a night

🌪️ TONES / THEMES I’D LOVE TO EXPLORE

grief as character • love as damage • addiction • sibling rivalry • betrayal that tastes like saltwater • silence that rots • the house as a ghost • broken firsts • romantic ambivalence • emotional repression • the impossibility of being chosen too late • “you kissed her like you meant it and lied like you didn’t” • aftermath of love • codependency • slowburn collapse • summer as purgatory • memory as poison

📓 FORMATS I LOVE

– multi-muse writing (playing multiple characters)

– canon divergent rewrite (e.g. susannah lives / dies differently, belly never chose, etc)

– expanded universe: late night car rides, letters that never got sent, therapy sessions, text threads, dream sequences, spiraling

– time skips & timelines that spiral (college, post-canon, alternate ending etc)

– switching POVs if desired (i can write jeremiah, taylor, etc if the plot calls for it)

🧷 TROPES I’M OBSESSED WITH

enemies to lovers • unspoken feelings • unrequited love (or the illusion of it) • “i never stopped loving you” • mutual pining gone rotten • “you were always going to leave me” • forced proximity • jealousy that feels like grief • emotional spiral in a hotel bathroom • codependency • obsession • “you kissed me and made it worse” • grief sex • “i’m not him” / “but you wanted him” • misremembered summers • sibling betrayal • “it was just a game, wasn’t it?”

⚠ COMFORT ZONES & LIMITS

✨ will write:

mental health • trauma • grief • death • obsession • guilt • addiction • codependency • darker themes with nuance

⛔ will not write:

underage smut • glorified abuse • noncon/dubcon without narrative weight & consent • bigoted content of any kind

📬 CONTACT ME

if you want to write characters who love each other wrong, who carry guilt like it’s gospel, who unravel slowly in beach houses that no longer feel like home—like this post, comment, or message me.

tell me who you write. tell me what hurts.

and let’s build a story that stays with us long after summer ends.

“you’re not supposed to love someone who makes you feel like drowning. but i did.”

[urs0diumfine]

✶ THIS ISN’T AN AD. IT’S A CONFESSION.

— a roleplay interest post

🕯 ABOUT ME

hi. i’m lory (23, she/her) and i’ve been writing character-driven roleplay for over a decade. i gravitate toward the emotionally raw, the morally gray, the devastatingly soft in the middle of something cruel.

i write at an advanced lit / novella level—slowburning, prose-heavy, with strong emphasis on atmosphere, psychological complexity, and interpersonal tension. think broken people talking in metaphor under moonlight. think ghost-ridden mansions and letters no one will read.

i write exclusively on discord, use tupperbox, and i’m looking for 18+ partners only.

i love immersive, collaborative storytelling, and ooc connection is important to me — playlists, pinterest boards, yelling about our muses in voice notes at 2am? yes, please.

open to nsfw and dark/“dead dove” themes (grief, mental illness, obsession, trauma) with clear discussion and boundaries.

🕊 WHAT I’M LOOKING FOR

someone who…

✶ writes at an adv. lit / novella level

✶ enjoys psychological depth & prose with weight

✶ can do rapid fire replies (not required, but a bonus)

✶ is down to co-create — plot together, worldbuild, unravel

✶ loves ooc connection and vibe-matching energy

✶ has main character syndrome about their muse, too

🐍 CURRENT MUSE: DRACO MALFOY (harry potter universe)

my fixation. my ghost. the character who cracks and bleeds in all the right places. i’m currently in a longform, grief-soaked post-war rp that’s reawakened my deepest obsession with draco malfoy — and i have so much more to give.

i don’t care who your muse is — harry? hermione? someone entirely unexpected?

i just want to write draco the way he was always meant to be:

undone. unraveling. furious he’s still alive.

✨ ideal plots:

– post-war rewrites — enemies to lovers, slow thaw, guilt-wracked redemption

– canon-divergence aus — memory loss, time fractures, hidden letters

– elite boarding school / dark academia — the heir, the shadow, the curse

– mirror universes — what if he lived? what if he didn’t?

– or anything where he’s haunted and biting and achingly human

🩸 SHIPS I’M CRAVING

draco + harry (obsession, repression, loyalty turned inside out)

draco + hermione (slow thaw, intellectual equals, love as undoing)

(others welcome if the writing’s strong and the dynamic hurts just right)

🪞 TROPES & THEMES I LOVE

enemies to lovers • reluctant allies • forced proximity • hurt/comfort • mutual destruction • codependency • trauma bonding • obsession • redemption arcs that don’t work • “you don’t deserve forgiveness and i still want you” • twisted tenderness • family legacy ruin • unsent letters • dreamscapes • moral collapse • haunting, literally or not • grief as character • magic that forgets • timelines that spiral • “do you think we were meant to survive this?” vibes • death doesn’t mean gone

⚠ COMFORT ZONES & LIMITS

✨ will write:

mental health • trauma • grief • death • obsession • guilt • codependency • darker themes with nuance

🚫 will not write:

underage smut • glorified abuse • noncon/dubcon without consent & narrative weight • bigoted content of any kind

📬 CONTACT ME

if this sounds like your kind of descent, like or comment—or just message me directly. tell me who your muse is. tell me what’s broken in them. let’s build a world where everything is slightly wrong and painfully beautiful.

[currentlycryingaboutlancelot]

it’s like. sometimes you realize your friends don’t know about sold to one direction fanfiction and it’s like yeah we grew up with vastly different experiences of the internet

[dayslily]

UPDATED DISCORD FORMATTING ♡ updated reference sheet for those newer to discord (or those who aren't familiar with markdown in general) ! my last post didn't include links, headers, or lists. you can access the google doc version in the source link.