I’m Malia, or Amada, if you dare. She/Her, mexican transexual sensation. I love The Sims franchise, World of Darkness, world culture and history, as well as girly pop media.
My aesthetic is maxismix-ish, my gameplay mostly leans realistic, but I always leave room for the surreal, the paranormal, and the narratively unhinged. Expect CAS showcases, gameplay setups, rewritten townie drama and vampirical chronicles.
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Robin drags Fern out to the gym for a morning workout with some of the girls. It’s way too early for Fern to be awake, let alone running. She’s never one to miss out on a hangout opportunity though!
i’m taking my girl @citylighten’s golden child: del sol valley’s next favorite miracle, marisol. we’re at dina caliente’s mirage integral right now and she’s having a moment with mx. izzy fabulous.
i’m beyond grateful; i’m LIVING. thank you so much, xia, what do we think? is this the tea?
Will you post a link for Stumbling Blocks in chrono? If you don't know how I can link you to instructions. It's so I can read the story. (I saw your Marisol dressed by Amada and wanted to see what she's about.)
Hi! So, I began working on tagging and linking all of Stumbling Blocks in chrono before my laptop broke, but I never got around to finishing it.
Because the story is based on my gameplay, it goes through different 'seasons,' you could say. Each like a different show, even though the characters remain the same and, the development is consistent!
The first being Sexo en Nuevo Corozan, which is about siblings Michael & Fiora Impellizzeri and how they meet their respective love interests, Zoe Ramasamy (Zoe Patel) and Don Lothario.
A big focus ultimately shifts to Fiora and Don's relationship!
If my memory is right, Marisol was conceived here!
Then came Strange Daze, which is my Strangerville gameplay. It's more Michael focused, though Fiora and Don birth Marisol's brothers here. That I do remember lmao
And finally, there is Stumbling Blocks.
Marisol is still a child, in-game, and much of the focus is on her cousin Rohan as he navigates high school and falls in love for the first time. 🥺
But Sexo is entertaining and I reccomend checking it out!! A lot of people fell for Don and Fiora, maybe you will too!!
Meeting some of her neighbors! Fern and Robin really hit it off, even if Robin isn't much of a cat person...but Robin's roommate Ryan is a little harder to win over even with the promise of food. Also Maia asked to go out and since I have to accept all social invitations I just invited her over instead and we had a girls night!
Introducing Robin by @usonofallama and Ryan by @bakersimmer!
Simnation Map Guide: Geography, Climate & Player-Created World Maps
SimNation is the imaginary country where the action of every main game in The Sims franchise unfolds. Sometimes referred to as Simerica, Simlandonia, or Simsonia, SimNation serves as the central setting for The Sims universe.
The exact population size of SimNation remains unknown, contributing to its ongoing mystery and appeal in The Sims lore. Some references in core games suggest an estimated population of about 20,000 residents.
The precise real-world equivalent or location of SimNation is one of the enduring mysteries in The Sims community. Popular fan theories suggest that it may represent an alternative version of North America, possibly inspired by regions like Nevada or California, due to similar landscapes and cultural vibes. Another theory, fueled by The Sims 4 trailer, is that SimNation exists on a parallel Earth, with sims depicted as arriving from outer space.
SimNation's geography encompasses an astonishing variety of climate zones – one of the most unique aspects of The Sims’ worldbuilding. The most frequently portrayed environments are temperate grassy plains and rolling coastal hills, featured prominently in areas like Willow Creek or Brindleton Bay. Other biomes include scorching deserts (Oasis Springs, Del Sol Valley, StrangerVille), forested mountain regions, and even lush oceanic rainforests.
A trademark feature of SimNation's climate is its unpredictability. Even tropical islands can experience cold snaps, sometimes plunging to temperatures as low as -17°C, bringing unexpected snowstorms. This presents a challenge for players looking to draw consistent or realistic maps, forcing them to either rationalize these weather anomalies or simply embrace the fantasy.
Mapping SimNation also proves difficult due to conflicting in-game representations. Various globes and maps appear throughout The Sims series, with some resembling our Earth’s familiar continents and others displaying drastically different landmasses.
Community Theories
Players in The Sims community are dedicated to piecing together the geography of SimNation and custom worlds. Most mapping attempts use climate as a guide: for example, Mt. Komorebi’s snowy terrain is generally placed in the far north; deserts occupy the central or southern regions; while tropical islands like Sulani are located near the equator. Windenburg, described as distinctly European, is often considered a separate continent or country entirely.
On fan forums, simmers passionately debate how to organize their custom worlds and what to name their personal versions of SimNation. A few popular approaches include:
— Grouping locations by climate: deserts (Del Sol Valley, Oasis Springs, StrangerVille), cold north (Mt. Komorebi), tropical islands (Sulani, Tomarang).
— Creating custom political systems, such as kingdoms and empires, adding further depth to their SimNation lore.
— Dividing worlds into "human" regions and "magical" territories to reflect gameplay mechanics and supernatural sims.
— Naming and grouping by proximity, e.g. Central City (San Myshuno + Willow Creek), Western Desert (Del Sol Valley + Oasis Springs), and Eastern Countryside (Windenburg + Brindleton Bay).
Player-Made Maps of SimNation
If you want to see these maps in high resolution or visit the original posts, simply click on the author’s name.
keirosims (@keirosims)
Keirosims created a map inspired by the “The World Is Your Oyster” artwork from The Sims 4: Discover University, grouping the various sims worlds by their connections to real countries or regions of the world. For locations from older games that lack a strong theme, placements are determined by their overall atmosphere and narrative role. Keirosims also made sure to include as many classic sims locations as possible, incorporating worlds with a visible in-game presence or with a substantial mention in The Sims lore.
lizasim (@lizasim)
Lizasim’s map began as a compilation of other people’s work but evolved gradually into an original design. The new version is more convenient for navigating SimNation in gameplay. All cities and towns are divided into zones: Sylvitea (“Green Zone”) is a vast, forested region representing recreational areas where both ordinary sims and occult sims live side by side; Metropagonia unites urban locations, with San Myshuno as the central metropolis; Sunscape (called “Sandy Steppes”) groups resorts, ranches, and studios in a single sun-drenched part of SimNation; while Veilora highlights the magical and supernatural side of The Sims 4, accessible only through special entry points. Distant or culturally rich areas like Sulani and Selvadorada are shown as remote regions with their own languages and unique identities.
Ephiemera
Ephiemera’s map was created to realistically connect all Sims 4 locations, paying close attention to geography and landscape – rivers, mountains, and lakes are used to create natural borders and routes. This method makes every world feel like part of a logical, continuous environment within SimNation.
usonofallama (@usonofallama)
Usonofallama focused on cultural and geographic analogies, dividing the SimNation universe into large regions and defining local languages, laws, and migration routes using mods like “Language Barriers” and “Home Regions”. In this vision, SimNation is divided into distinct subregions nuanced by lifestyle and culture: the technological West Coast, the academic Northeast, the traditional Deep South, and special Indigenous Lands. Other continents or realms, like the Old World or Oceanic Lands, are each given their own flavor, culture, and migration flows – mimicking more realistic or complex worldbuilding.
Nocturne
Nocturne produced several versions of their SimNation map, prompted by ongoing debates about where to place certain locations like Gibby Point or Britechester. Some versions keep cities as separate islands, others move them closer together, offering multiple choices for simmers.
simsyren (@simsyren)
Simsyren visualizes each world in The Sims 4 as a city within one state and divides the custom map into three areas: a jungle region (Sulani, Selvadorada, Tomarang), a main territory split between desert and forest biomes (places like Oasis Springs, San Sequoia, Willow Creek, and Newcrest), and a mystical area shrouded in fog (Glimmerbrook, Forgotten Hollow, and Moonwood Mill). This approach helps explain travel distances and adds to the immersion of the Sims universe.
MissLollypop (@misslollypopsims)
All worlds in The Sims 4 are tied to real places on the planet. This is needed to understand whether a Sim can just visit a neighboring city or will need a long flight – the Home Regions mod takes this into account.
This is a long-ass masterpost where I break down how the worlds in my save connect culturally, regionally, and politically. It’s not about exact replicas, but resonance.
I’ve been obsessed with geography and history since elementary, and after years working in hospitality, medical tourism, and professional language interpretation, it was only natural I’d end up wanting my sim worlds to reflect real cultural friction, flow, and complexity.
Every EA world (as of 2025), from Newcrest to Nordhaven, is mapped here with a real-world logic: how people speak, how laws work, what histories get remembered, and how land is treated. Some TS3 worlds are referred where TS4 falls short in representing a certain culture or region. I use the following mods (plus a healthy dose of play-pretend) to build the gameplay experience I want:
Basemental Drugs by Basemental
Home Regions & Townie Demographics by Kuttoe
Language Barriers by Frankk
LGBTQIA+ Mod by Lumpinou
No Townie Generation and Relaxed Filters by @down-in-simsland
Worlds are grouped by continental region.
For exact lot placements, see Save Details
For gameplay systems and tuning, see Gameplay & Management
🌎 New World
🌲 Northern Simsonia
These are quiet places where environmental policy is tight, unions still matter, and people pretend not to gossip. It’s all flannel, regional crafts, and seasonal depression. Green tech is big. So is the lumber industry. Old colonial scars show up in architecture and labor.
Cannabis Legal Status: Fully legal for medical and recreational use.
Gambling Legal Status: Heavily restricted.
LGBTQIA+ Acceptance: Very accepting.
Outbound Migration: To West Coast, SimNation for education and green innovation.
Inbound Migration: From SimNation's Deep South and Central Simsonia seeking stability and rights
🦅 North Simsonia A.K.A. SimNation
Four distinct regions, tech-saturated coastlines, wealth gaps across blocks, and rural pockets bound by tradition and bureaucracy. Public services depend on your zip code. So do your rights. Every region calls itself the heart of the nation; none of them agree what that means. Family structures evolve faster than the infrastructure. Political slogans change faster than the roads get fixed. It’s the dream, the dystopia, and the brunch menu, depending on where you land.
🌉 West Coast
The land of big screens, clean eats, and quiet earthquakes. Individualism is high, healthcare is spotty, and everybody's launching something. Laws change county to county. Weed’s legal. So are three types of polycule marriage if you file it right. Gated communities live next to food deserts. Glitter over rust.
Del Sol Valley
San Myshuno
San Sequoia
Oasis Springs
🗻 Native Lands
Unceded territory with cultural memory older than any border. These are myth-heavy regions with strong oral histories and coded survival. Legal systems vary depending on jurisdiction. Natural landmarks are sacred. Superstition is fact. You don’t touch without asking.
Chestnut Ridge
Granite Falls
Strangerville
🎡 Northeast
Post-industrial charm, academic ambition, and too many parking regulations. Education is a pipeline and politics are local. Everybody thinks they’re the blueprint. Weed is decriminalized, manners are passive-aggressive, and coastal elitism thrives behind antique doors.
Copperdale
🌪️ Deep South
Faith, heat, and hospitality; until you hit the zoning laws. Cultural tradition runs deep here, along with systemic inequality and fried everything. Festivals have real roots. Family land is sacred. And everything’s haunted, metaphorically or not.
Outbound Migration: High. SimNationals move everywhere, usually calling themselves 'expats' intead of immigrants, avoiding local taxes and raising life expenses. Common destinations include the Old World, Central Simsonia, and Sulani.
Inbound Migration: Very High. SimNation is seen as an opportunity hub, but also as a gentrifier magnet. Many arrive for education, media, or survival, but not always by choice.
🌶️ Central Simsonia
Language has texture. History is living. Family extends beyond blood. Laws vary by state, and bureaucracy is both maze and muscle. These worlds are intense in feeling: big food, bigger grief, and joy as defiance. The past isn’t past. It’s cooking in the kitchen.
Cannabis Legal Status: Legal for personal cultivation and medical use; decriminalized in urban zones.
Gambling Legal Status: Illegal in Selvadorada; tightly regulated in Ciudad Enamorada.
LGBTQIA+ Acceptance: Mixed
Outbound Migration: Moderate. Many leave for work or educational opportunities in SimNation or the Old World, some others want security and stability, often returning seasonally.
Inbound Migration: Moderate. Movement from Old World and Caribbean diasporas, as well as regional migration from rural to urban centers.
🏝️ Caribbean
Fluid identities, vivid resistance, and joy you have to earn. Creole blends, diasporic layers, and island economies shaped by both tourism and trauma. Land is unstable in more ways than one. Nothing works the first time. Everything has meaning.
Outbound Migration: High. Driven by economic instability and environmental precarity. Migrants often go to SimNation or the Old World.
Inbound Migration: Low. Primarily retirees, tourists, or diasporic returnees. Often seasonal or dual-national.
🌍 Old World
🫖 Old Kingdom
Tea, titles, and weather complaints. Classism runs under everything. Education is the real currency. Everyone says sorry before they curse you out. Gender roles are rigid until they’re not. Charm is a weapon, whether polished in a palace or sharpened in the hills.
👑 Motherlands
Brick, ivy, and the slow churn of empire. Tradition runs the schools, gossip runs the villages, and the trains run late unless the Queen’s on board. Here, history isn’t in the past, it’s the neighborhood watch.
Britechester
Henford-on-Bagley
📜 Treaty Nations
Emerald hills, wet stone, and poetry sharp enough to cut. The land remembers every treaty, every betrayal and every toast in between. Music is law, laughter is resistance and grudges are heirlooms. The Fair folk still roam here not as legend, but as neighbors with their own borders and bargains. Nature isn’t scenery; it’s a covenant, and living close to it is both cultural pride and political stance. Independence lives in the heart, if not always in the paperwork.
Innisgreen
Spoken Languages: Old Simlish, Tartosiano, Françims, Selvadoradian.
Cannabis Legal Status: Legal for medical use; decriminalized recreationally, socially taboo in elite circles.
Gambling Legal Status: Legal but highly regulated; mostly digital or private-club based.
Outbound Migration: High. Especially younger or educated Sims seeking better prospects in SimNation, Tomarang, or Sulani.
Inbound Migration: Moderate. Often from former colonies or treaty nations; many arrive for cultural, historical, or educational ties.
🍻 Windenburg
Rules, rituals, and nightlife. These worlds run on efficiency and inherited systems, both technological and social. Paganism never fully left. Public transport works. Art galleries double as punk venues. Regional pride is strong.
Glimmerbrook
Windenburg
Spoken Languages: Windenburgish, Nordska, Old Simlish, Ravena
Cannabis Legal Status: Legal for recreational and medicinal use; socially integrated, especially in wellness and academic circles
Gambling Legal Status: Mostly prohibited, with underground exceptions; tolerated at festivals or private events
LGBTQIA+ Acceptance: Quietly Accepting
Outbound Migration: Low. Windenburgers are deeply rooted and tend to stay, though some artists and scholars relocate to San Myshuno or Mt. Komorebi.
Inbound Migration: Moderate. Attracts creatives, occult seekers, and mystics. Immigration is selective but culturally tolerated.
🧊 Nordska
Quiet minimalism. Public funding. Cool-toned everything. These places believe in collective care and individual mystique. You’re expected to respect the land and mind your business. The supernatural? It’s just science no one’s published yet.
Nordhaven
Spoken Languages: Nordska, Windenburgish, Old Simlish, Ravena
Cannabis Legal Status: Legal for medical use; decriminalized recreationally, with cultural emphasis on discretion.
Outbound Migration: Low. Emigration mostly for global research, humanitarian work, or exchange programs.
Inbound Migration: Moderate. Highly skilled migrants welcomed, especially from Glimmerbrook, East Simla, and parts of SimNation.
🦇 Ravena
History sleeps badly here. Magic is hereditary and grief is ceremonial. Faith is private, but altars are everywhere. You don’t name what haunts you unless you want it listening. Beauty is precise. Revenge is a valid response.
Gambling Legal Status: Technically legal but heavily stigmatized.
LGBTQIA+ Acceptance: Secretive but deep-rooted
Outbound Migration: Very Low. Locals rarely leave. Cultural, spiritual, and ancestral ties run deep.
Inbound Migration: Very Low. Outsiders rarely stay. Those who do tend to be occult-aligned or deeply isolated. Border laws unclear, likely symbolic.
🏛️ Mediterranean
Sensory overload in the best way. Everything’s seasonal: food, mood, affection. Bureaucracy is a nightmare but life is slow when it matters. Family is everything, even when it shouldn’t be. Everyone’s always yelling — or flirting.
Outbound Migration: High. Economic precarity pushes Sims toward SimNation, Brindleton Bay, or Tomarang.
Inbound Migration: High. Driven by tourism, dual nationals, and lifestyle migrants from SimNation and the Old Kingdom.
🎨 France
This is where romance meets existential dread. Laws are secular, attitudes aren’t. Style is serious business. Protests are a national pastime. Nostalgia for the old republic blends with modern burnout. Wine is cheaper than water.
Champs Les Sims
Spoken Languages: Françims, Tartosiano, Selvadoradian, Old Simlish
Cannabis Legal Status: Decriminalized for personal use; medical permitted with restrictions
Gambling Legal Status: Legal and regulated, mostly state-run
LGBTQIA+ Acceptance: Bureaucratically Queer
Outbound Migration: Moderate. Many young or disillusioned Sims leave for SimNation, Del Sol Valley, or Tomarang in pursuit of creative freedom, economic opportunity, or less rigid systems.
Inbound Migration: Moderate. Artists, romantics, and heritage tourists drift in. The region attracts those chasing nostalgia or aesthetic intensity — not always long-term settlers.
⛩️ Simla
🎌 United Prefectures of East Simla
Order is sacred, but not static. Culture here moves like a brushstroke: intentional, layered, never rushed. There’s reverence for ancestry, innovation without arrogance, and beauty in daily precision. Collectivism isn’t about sameness, but about harmony. Even if that harmony includes contradiction. Silence is etiquette. Formality is armor. And love, art, and protest all follow the same unspoken choreography: everything in its right place, until it isn’t.
Mt. Komorebi
Spoken Languages: Komorebigo, Simlish, Simla Nuo
Cannabis Legal Status: Decriminalized; restricted medicinal use allowed
Gambling Legal Status: Legal in licensed venues, highly regulated
LGBTQIA+ Acceptance: Respectful silence
Outbound Migration:
Inbound Migration:
🏯 Simla Basin
The Basin doesn’t forget. Empires, dynasties, revolutions: all have left their stamp. What remains is a culture where reverence and resistance coexist. Ghosts are real, and they demand precision. Respect, lineage, and duty shape identity. Bureaucracy is dense. Wisdom is spoken slowly, if at all.
Shang Simla
Spoken Languages: Simla Nuo, Simlish, Komorebigo
Cannabis Legal Status: Illegal; culturally taboo
Gambling Legal Status: Legal in designated cities, state-run
Hot, fast, layered. These regions pulse with economic flux and spiritual realism. Street food is religion. Law enforcement is complicated. Generosity is communal. Resistance lives in the open. Rituals are both sacred and monetized.
Tomarang
Spoken Languages: Tomaru, Komorebigo, Old Simlish, Toki Sulani
Cannabis Legal Status: Technically illegal but widely tolerated
Gambling Legal Status: Legal and integrated into entertainment sectors
LGBTQIA+ Acceptance: Legally fragile. Queerness is public and ancestral. The Mga Babaeng Imposibla, impossible women as they call them, have always been part of Tomarang’s story.
Outbound Migration:
Inbound Migration:
🦁 Africa
🐫 North
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Al-Simhara
Spoken Languages: 🚧
Cannabis Legal Status: 🚧
Gambling Legal Status: 🚧
LGBTQIA+ Acceptance: 🚧
Outbound Migration: 🚧
Inbound Migration: 🚧
🌊 Oceanic Lands
🪸 Oceana
Colonial aftermath meets coastal identity. Fishing is still survival. Rural meets queer, rough meets soft. Respect the water. Don’t assume the dogs are friendly. Public service is stretched thin. The sun doesn’t care who you are.
Brindleton Bay
Spoken Languages: Old Simlish, Tartosiano, Toki Sulani, Aboriginal Languages
Cannabis Legal Status: Legal for medical use; recreational use decriminalized in most provinces
Gambling Legal Status: Legal but heavily taxed and restricted
LGBTQIA+ Acceptance: Locally Accepted
Outbound Migration: 🚧
Inbound Migration: 🚧
🌋 Polynesia
Land and sea are not separate things here. Ancestors live in tides and legends are local fact. These regions don’t need your fantasy — they already have theirs. Festivals are sacred. Tourism is tolerated. The volcano’s not dormant.
Sulani
Spoken Languages: Toki Sulani, Old Simlish, Tomaru
Cannabis Legal Status: Decriminalized for ceremonial use; otherwise regulated
Even though I’m officially retired from this project, I wanted to share the finished version of this map commission because so many of you loved it, and honestly, so did I.
The artist wasn’t able to refund me, but he kept working on the piece even after we agreed an end result was no longer expected. What you’re seeing here is a completed first draft: a snapshot of what this world looked like at that stage of its life.
A small lore note for fellow map nerds: this version is now slightly imprecise. Gibby Point ended up taking the space originally assigned to Brindleton Bay, which can now be comfortably placed northeast of Copperdale instead. Think of this as an early cartographic layer rather than a final canon map.
I’m sharing this with a lot of tenderness and with the hope that, if someone out there feels called to give this project continuity, care, and support, they’ll take it further than I ever could.
To my dear kitties! 😽 It’s with a deliciously bittersweet ache that I close the door on this project. What started almost ten years ago as a space to lurk, to share some CAS pics, to dream in pixels, became something much bigger: the stage where I choreographed my own What a Girl Wants challenge in real life. Spoiler: life doesn’t magically get better off screen. Bridges burned, windows crashed, plot twists galore. But through it all, I kept showing up as the Mexican transexual sensation you once loved and adored.
For my own sanity and moral wellbeing, I can’t keep playing a franchise that’s been hijacked by technofascist greed; not after everything this space helped me build, imagine, and survive. Still, I never thought I’d stay long enough to reach any kind of longevity, let alone 100 followers... and here we are at 500 of you. Which maybe isn’t groundbreaking for simblr standards, but for me it’s monumental. I hold so much love for every single one of you who ever liked, reblogged, chatted, or simply existed alongside me.
If I leave now, it’s with the certainty that I built a tiny legacy:
that long-ass but very true statement about EA’s extractive, tone-deaf treatment of those of us outside the Global North
the Nanny Challenge so many of you played and loved
the first messy draft of a manifesto that later became the backbone of my real life, What a Girl Wants truly guided me home.
And before anyone panics: this isn’t a goodbye. It’s an invitation.
I’m back on mainstream social media, Instagram and Threads for now, where I’ll be sharing more of my trans rights activism now that the universe has reopened that path for me. I already shitpost my manic and depressive arcs now that I finally have names for them (hello bipolar + ADHD). And if life lets me breathe, maybe I’ll bless the world with the occasional dance video in my pjs.
I told y’all I’d find a job, and I did. I also lost that same job this Tuesday after asking for my delayed three weeks of pay. And while the existential horror of dying (or rather, being forced to resurrect the man the world wanted me to be on a casket) held me hostage for the last month or so, today, on the eve of Mexico’s greatest icon's birthday, la Virgencita de Guadalupe, a spark lit itself inside me. A reminder that I don’t have to operate under the death logic this system forces on us: trans, queer, racialized, precarized people.
And you know what else I found out along the way? That I’m a transbian, babyyyy! That my trans family is stronger than ever! That my fear of disappearing quieted down once I realized this blog was a testament to who I was, and in some ways, who I’ll always be.
Thank you for letting me live through my pixels, your screens, and these words that will keep on giving. I know now that simblr fun really was the friends we made along the way. So please, feel free to DM me and keep in touch through Instagram or Discord, I treasure everything we shared.
Even though my first digital love was kidnapped, know that I’ll keep creating, loving, and finding new vessels for the unlimited creativity and tenderness that I am.
It’s not without a tear that I say: Thank you for what was, and welcome to what could be. Forever in my heart, you sons of llamas. 🐑💖
PS. If any of you want to give my most beloved characters, even Amada, my simself, a place in your worlds, say the word. I’ll pass them on when they’re done bleeding out of me. These pixels were never mine to keep; what was meant to stay has already carved itself into my bones.
i’ve got some good news: i just started a new remote job at a nyc based modeling school and i'm sure i'll also reap the rewards of a few seeds i planted a while ago pretty soon 👀
i’ve also been feeling so much better lately, keeping up with daily exercise and dance practice, staying on track with my skincare, and just overall vibing more with life 🌞
can’t wait to play again once the big patch drops and its consequences get all sorted out
