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{Author of UtCBG and TR} ~ This is my casual main blog where I post art, updates, memes, important info, and reblog both IF and unrelated stuff.

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Lemon Inked Master Post

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Hello everyone, I’m Lemon Ink, the author of Until the Colors Bleed Gray and Time’s Revolver. This is my master blog for my dev blogs and here you’ll be able to see miscellaneous art, memes, videos, recommendations, and other posts. Feel free to hang around and have a chat!

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Until the Colors Bleed Gray

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How are you this fine day?

Quite lovely, hope the same applies to you, even if I'm years late, LOL

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To Anyone Left Who May See This

Hello! I'm not sure whether anyone will see this or care to read it, but after talking to a friend (shoutout to friends!) I decided I wanted to write this little update considering how I up and disappeared for years (and as a fellow reader I HATE when authors do that).

Anyways, vets will know how much I love lists (/sarcastic) so I figured it'd be nice to organize what I wanted to say into one! Also helpful so if you don't GAF about one point, you can just skip to the next!

I owe you guys an apology, and want to offer some transparency (TW: Mentions of suicide and self harm) - So like I alluded to before, I know how crappy it can be to follow something and have the creator go ghost on you, and yet lo and behold here I am, nearly half a decade later looking back at how I did exactly that. For the long absence, the lack of commitment, and at the very least, the failure to communicate these things, I sincerely apologize. I hope the years have treated you guys well, because I like to think that's what they've done for me. As you may recall, my last update post was a bit of a downer, talking about my declining mental health (been there, done that, wrote the remix) and how I was recommended to take a step back from the game and the community. That was of course, with the expectation I'd return eventually, and now five years later... Well, here we are. I'll be honest, I had a tough time: with depression, anxiety, ocd (let's go surprise diagnoses!!), and suicidal thoughts, plans, and urges. There were a lot of days where I had an almost Lego Movie master builder vision of how to put a stop to things. As you can see, it didn't happen, but every day was a struggle with it, some days being harder than others, sometimes resulting in me harming myself. Woof. But, not everything was bleak! I actually got into my dream college, and completed a double major bachelor's degree this past year! While previously said struggles were still ongoing and strong during my time at college, there was another reason for my hesitance to return to UtCBG... That being a deeply profound shame and embarrassment because oh my gosh what was I even writing? I won't dog on it too hard, I mean, I made it and still love it because of that, and if you're reading this, you have a 50% chance of having had some investment in it, and far be it from me to yuck someone's yum, but man, this was baby's first story committment and you can really tell. From the writing style, to the concepts, to the plot (would you believe me if I had an 1800s American time loop as part of the lore???), it was honestly just a hot mess, and so a lot of times, even up to now, I struggle with the desire to see this story through without the heavy rewrites I'd personally require to get through it, which I'm sure fans of the original work may not enjoy.

Where's the game bro - So, my hope is you read bullet point number 1 for context, but I understand not wanting to, so let me give a quick recap: This story, from its writing to its plot to its workload (damn look at all them ROs), is a mess that I have given a lot of thought to redoing if I ever continued it. I know that may obviously disappoint people who followed this story for its original concept, and I don't want to invest a crazy amount of time and effort on something people may no longer have interest in, so like, idk, let me know your thoughts. TLDR though is that I don't have any current plans to continue UtCBG (I have other committments), but the concept of this game isn't dead to me, just don't expect a chapter 2 coming any time soon lol.

Thoughts on the COG community and drama - Honestly I have no idea what happened after I left. All I know is that something happened and some people left the community and a discord server was deleted(?), so if you're looking for a juicy scoop from me, then I'm afraid you will remain starved because I'm equally as clueless! (Feel free to let me know if anything crazy happened though) I know I engaged in some ~discourse~ back in the day, and while I'm not really looking to rehash things, I just thought you might like to know that my opinions, as well as my brain, have developed over the years, and my bottom line is that as long as you're not being a jerk, you do you. Sorry, I know that wasn't a very exciting update, but I'd like to think I've mellowed out from the whole discourse thing.

I still make games! - So, funnily enough, I was introduced to a game-making club while at college, and fell back into developing games. For those of you who know me as the ask yapper author who can't even push out a chapter 2 (It's okay you can flame me for it, I acknowledge my weak grindset), you'll be surprised to learn I've made several fully finished games, mostly visual novels! I won't link anything here because I'm not looking to springboard my current gigs off of the corpse of this blog because that's lame-o behavior, but if you're really invested in it, it isn't hard to search up my username and find me, so like *shrugs*.

All that being said, I truly and deeply hope that things have gone well for whoever is reading this and want you to know I sincerely cherish your past support to this day. I'm sorry if this isn't the comeback one would hypothetically hope for, but I hope nonetheless that it may bring some closure to the subject.

See you if I see you!

-LemonInk

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Life Update: Womp Womp Womppp...

Hey everyone, haven’t seen me in a while have you, hehehe?

Basically long story short I’ve been having a big fat depressive spiral that’s left me feeling pretty not here and I’ve made like zero progress in anything. Just a suffocating crash that hit be like a train while I was on the verge of finishing a bunch of cool stuff. Life really is a bitch huh...

Anyways while I’m cracking jokes right now I really am just not great, like at all. I’m working on it, trust me. But I didn’t want to drop off the Earth for too long before telling you guys. Most days I’ve just been doing work and lying around without being able to do anything which of course sucks (duh).

But please just know that my work here WILL resume and I WILL return to drawing, answering asks, finishing the next update, etc. It’s just that right now I need to clear my head and do it without worrying about giving off the impression that I’m abandoning anything, because I’m not.

So yeah, stay safe, wash your hands, and I’ll see you later byeeeee! 🍋👌

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thinking about them..,,,,,,, clown kitties 

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Love the sparkles, but man, I’m finally digging into my queued up fanart supply haha! 😅😬✨

The King is from The Brighter the Dawn by @dawning-games​.

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Old but,,, she 💕

Merry is from The Northern Passage by @northern-passage.

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Let’s go horse squad!!! 🐎

King, Charlotte, Kit, and Santiago are from Willow Creek Run by @willowcreekrun.

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If you were a box of crayons, you’d be the giant name-brand one with the built-in sharpener.

Bro okay wait I literally love you... This is the best pick-up/compliment line I’ve ever heard no joke. You get the official “Best Anon Award”!!! 🥺❤️

Fun fact: I ate a crayon to test the flavor. The flavor was spicy.

EDIT: BRO WHAT??? TUMBLR SENT THE ASK FROM THE UTCBG BLOG HERE??? OH MY GOSH OH MY GOSH I LOVE YOU CRAYON ANON YESSSSSSS!!!!

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A lovely crossover inspired by Deers’ icon! 💕

Misao is from Roots by @roots-game.

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Ack!!! I absolutely adore this nerd!

Operator is from Atollo by @attollo.

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Let’s start off with some older fanart!

Mal is from Snakeroot by @cerberus-writes.

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Hi, it’s me, Lemon

I just realized that I should probably put this here so no one is confused.

I created the UtCBG blog as a secondary blog under a personal account, and once it started growing I moved it under this blog here. I figured since I couldn’t make it a primary blog, I’d just put it under another central account.

Since I plan on writing more cyoa games aside from Until the Colors Bleed Gray, I thought I’d just make them secondary blogs under this one.

So if you see this account commenting, liking, etc., it’s still me! 🍋