The Emo Behind The Aesthetic

fuck

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Quality. Content.

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the only post i care about

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@all tops and verse individuals of any gender or lack thereof

who wanna d8 me

i wanna smooch

…bitch

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hey anon

i’m crossfaded at 3 am w my best friend it’s time to post up

…bitch…

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lmao oh my god i was in such a dark place a year ago holy fuck i was reading my journal entries and god damn they bring back such specific emotions it’s actually kinda scary i’m proud of my self for still being here,,,

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tfw ur fine then out of nowhere depression just decks u in the fucking face

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my dads a fuckin dickkkkkkk

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i jus wanna say from the bottom of my heart…FUCK the first day of a period this is some bullshit i’m ready to die

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My heart busts a nut every time someone tells me they saw something and thought of me

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Fuck me why do I do this to myself. I. Will. Not. Let. Them. Ruin. What. I. Love. Fuck them tbh.

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Honestly I feel sick. I hate feeling like a guy. Like sometimes I want nothing more than to just be a dude. Like I want that so bad. But I just want to be cishet. I wanna cry. I wish my family would love me. I wish I wasn’t so lonely.

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It's weird I used to proudly claim being gay but it's almost like I'm scared to now??? Like I've gone further back into the closet than I originally started. I'm so far back I can almost see narnia. Like I def can't say it out loud but it's even a struggle to say it online??? Idk man I'm firm in my pan/bi/queer identity but everyone around me is so openly homophobic and hateful I'm just so scared. Seriously I'm an adult and I still feel like a 15 year old kid on the brink of getting kicked out or sent to a fucking conversion camp bc I had a girlfriend. I really love my family so much and I don't want to break their hearts but I hate living a lie and I hate that they would let their prejudice get in the way of loving me. I want to be out but I'm just so scared they'll treat me different or kick me out of my family all together. Because I've already had a taste of that and it made me sick. I keep telling myself one day. But idk if that day will happen.

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could she like idk not fuckin talk shit about me behind my back IMMEDIATELY after we have a conversation. like am I not allowed to be unhappy seriously I will never just sit complacent I’ve been taught all my life to speak up for myself and that i shouldn’t hide my feelings but literally the second I do she’s gonna fuckin complain about me and talk shit about how ungrateful I am and furthermore that I’m a fucking slob who lives in a godamn pigsty what the FUCK who the fuck does she think she is for someone supposedly so close to me you’d think she’d take a godamn hint and also know shit about me what a fucking BITCH I’m so fucking pissed off

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Now I'm so angry I want to fucking cry I hate myself my vision is blurring

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I don’t feel right my head is all fuzzy it doesn’t work right everything is bad right now I’m not correct it’s not right I don’t feel good I want everything to stop please stop my chest is too tight and I’m kinda nauseous I want to cry but I got shit to do I’m so tired of my life

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Tf when you wanna fucking die

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Y'all he literally needs to know when to fuck off

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My heart is so heavy I really don’t want to be gay but like…idk I can’t believe I’m still struggling with this 7 years later. And I can’t believe I still think about them 5 years later. Shouldn’t it of ended? I think something’s wrong with me. I think I’m seriously broken. Like what the hell im basically a creepy stalker. I bet they don’t even think about me anymore. I bet I’m just this love struck fool who can’t get over a stupid crush. God I’m so fucking creepy. I need to stop this. Please stop this. I’m so fucking disgusting and two faced and a dirty rotten liar. I’m sick. I’m going to regret this breakdown tomorrow. What is wrong with me!!!!