shadows .

❝ yet a mysterious gate lay open within her shadow; and all my flesh was aware of black pathways and hovels and the s i l e n c e one observes when the dead are near ❞

[uwten-blog]

` if i should die before i wake .

@uwxhyungwon

he sits beside hyungwon, hunched over his knees with his head in his hands. the darkness scratches at the corners of his mind and it takes all his energy to simply hold it all at bay. he’s not slept in three days and he can’t remember the last time he ate something substantial. it’s all thanks to that one glimpse of a face he recognised on a day when he stupidly wandered too close to ribbon tiger territory. it brought back the memories of days when he thought he might really die as he lay there drained of most of his blood, with barely enough energy to roll over and go to sleep. 

“i really don’t think i can carry on like this, wonnie...” he mumbles into the cuffs of the sweater he’s practically drowning in. he may have more blood running through his system than he did months prior when he was still being drained almost dry, but thanks to his mental state he’s not put much of the weight he lost back on, and the dark circles under his eyes still remain in soft shadow, a reminder that each night he battles for just a few hours of sleep. 

“i just-...” his voice cracks and breaks off, his lips still parted as his throat closes and his eyes sting with unshed tears. pressing his lips back together he runs his tongue over them, noting how chapped they are. “i look like a dead man walking, and i can’t sleep without a light on - it’s pathetic.” there’s no force to his voice, the words floating on a shaky breath that threatens to be cut off again at any second as ten slowly draw his knees to his chest and winds his arms round them, trying not to glance over at hyungwon, trying to hide the tell tale tears that are welling in his eyes.

[uwtaeyong]

wake up call; (past!)

[uwten-blog]

uwtaeyong:

taeyong, last time he checked was still pretty much human. that just meant that he was not just prone to getting his energy drained from the previous nights giving out orders to those who follow him, or those few nights of having trouble sleeping. he was still human, he could still feel even despite all the hurt that came with it. taeyong tells himself to grin and bear it all when the situations get rougher and he loses those whom he could not protect.

he couldn’t possibly think about himself losing contact with those he held dear, denying the fact that taeyong truly had. he remembered it being much easier as a child or back in high school when he was still flocking, learning like how his peers would expect him to. so he wanted to force in a day where he could spend an afternoon just doing nothing, enjoying a change of location and scenery when he enters the cafe. it was a place he just normally wouldn’t have entered.

there was a whole other night ahead of him and he couldn’t immediately expect peace.

taeyong steps up towards the counter, simply ordering a regular americano different from what he preferred. he kept his head low, preoccupied with the contents of his phone to look up at the person who was also standing at the counter. he does not realize it had been his long time friend, or at least until he took a seat near the window and taeyong blinks, his eyes gazing.

ten likes his job for two reasons; he’s always liked coffee, and the soft glow lighting in the starbucks reminds him of sunlight, which is something he’s been clinging to for a while now - ever since the nightmares started, and the slow growing fear that comes with being in the dark. but as his shift is ending the fear begins to set in and his weak body starts, once again, to tremble, endangering the safety of every coffee he makes from that point on.

as much as he wants to get home and sleep, a part of him dreads it because he knows what comes with sleep these days. there doesn’t seem to be anything left for him to look forward to now that his days consist of work, school, being alone at home, and trying to avoid his new greatest fear; vampires. 

though, to be exact, he’d say his biggest fear is minghao, the vampire who’s pushed him so close to death multiple times now. 

however, he’s tugged out of his thoughts as a familiar face appears in front of him and his jaw hangs slack in surprise, and slowly growing delight. he’s about to say something, but taeyong doesn’t even look up, simply orders, then heads to a seat by the window. ten scrambles to make his coffee, noting that his shift is about to end and making himself his usual ‘end of shift’ hot chocolate to go, then removing his apron and heading over to taeyongs table to set down his drink, his own cup clutched tightly in his other hand as he simply stands by the table and waits for taeyong to notice him.

[uwten-blog]

hi there everyone as always my intro post is late (to be fair i was asleep during the opening) but HI YALL, i’m charlie and i’m so excited for this rp and can’t wait to get my soft boy ten out there conquering his fears and all (though that’s unlikely he’s as soft as a melted marshmallow). his pages are pretty pathetic right now but here is his profile just in case anything there elicits some fun ideas. i’m raring to go for plotting, though i will be away this weekend and will be relying on places with free wifi so plotting will be a wee bit difficult until monday (or possibly sunday evening) though hopefully my hotel will have good wifi so i’ll be available in the evenings (gmt+2). but anywho i’ll leave some titbits about ten here and a few slapdash plot ideas. for plotting i’m easiest to reach on twitter (@tenticing) so hmu if you’d like to plot (cause i sure would!). 

facts and prompts under the read more !  [ tw // mentions of abuse, mentions of mental illnesses ]

ten is currently a photography student at yonsei but he’s thinking of dropping out as he feels like he’s not doing well and won’t get good enough grades for it to be worth it

he has a part-time job as a barista at starbucks which he loves because he adores hot drinks (bribe him with hot chocolate)

he was previously a feeder for ribbon tiger and almost died from being drained of too much blood - he had help from a vampire from golden pride to escape ribbon tiger and mainly for protection he became a feeder for golden pride

is incredibly wary of vampires due to his bad experiences with them in the past

became a feeder just before his eighteenth birthday

has a wobbly home life - his mother is severely depressed and in danger of losing her job as a waitress - ten never knew his father

his mother and he moved to seoul when he was seven to get away from his mothers abusive boyfriend

ten is very clingy when with anyone he trusts and subconsciously seeks protection 

he loves animals, especially birds and rabbits

prompts / relationship ideas (?)

[ rel ] the vampire from golden pride who helped him escape ribbon tiger

[ rel ] vampire who ten willingly gives his blood to due to trust and close relationship

[ prompt ] you find ten hiding behind a dumpster late a night crying and shaking from fear - do your ask what’s wrong? or take advantage of the weak human?

[ prompt ] you’re a hunter and somehow get into a conversation with ten about whether or not vampires should be wiped out - you expect ten to be all for their extermination due to his bad past, but how will you react when ten says he disagrees with killing vampires?