💮🌸🌺Ryku🌺🌸💮

hii! hows going? I'm always in for a talk :3

[litttleprincess-deactivated2017]

Don't ever hesitate. Reblog this. This should be in the tumblr laws. When you see it, REBLOG IT.

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LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255

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[the-infinite-blue-deactivated20]

Life is a precious gift. Please utilize this list if you ever need assistance. My messages are always open

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I know this isn’t related to my blog, but I am pinning this because it is IMPORTANT 

[uwu-cherrymiku-uwu]

I wish I could do something about my jealousy.

I actually feel my organs upside down, twisting and going left and right everytime my girlfriend (who I'm gonna call V) holds hands, kisses on the cheek or hangs out with a friend of ours, who I'm gonna call P for better narration.

The thing is, P confessed their feelings to my gf a day later me and her got together, and I always noticed the crush P had (has?) towards V.

Today, V went to P's house for lunch, and she's gonna stay there until 6pm.

I don't want to tell my girlfriend how bad I feel, because I feel ashamed to have these feelings. Plus, P is severely depressed and sh, V might be their special person, that's why I don't want them to be less affectionate, but at the same time them cuddling makes me hella nauseous and I can barely speak for the whole day.

I don't know what to do, whatever decision I make I feel I'll push my girlfriend away.

[uwu-cherrymiku-uwu]

News no one asked for about this topic.

Me and V are not friends anymore with P, not only bc they were (still) in love with V, but mostly bc they were overall a bad and toxic friend.

P kept trying to sabotage my gf's and my relationship, like they tried to make us fight (mettere zizzania, in my language), so insulting me and tryna have V by their side. P was either insulting me or being insufferable and acting like a victim, so V got tired of it (and I just knew about it in december), which means that the best decision we could make was pushing her away.

There's a lot more to this story, but I'd repeat myself. I've been friends with someone who was actively hurting me and my partner, bc I thought it was for the best of everyone.

Shit happens, but I still grieve the great friendship it could have been if only P wasn't such an asshole.

I kinda feel sorry for P, bc the way they act is driving people away (like our entire friend group). R couldn't care less about her, B and A are reaching out to me and V so they dont have to talk to P anymore, M stopped talking to them as soon as he learned what they were doing.

I never wish someone to feel lonely, as that's one of the worst feelings I ever personally felt, but I never tried to have ppl on my side, I only spoke my truth and these are the consequences of P's actions

[shitpostingkats]

Hey, Sephiroth? Turns out there's this guy named Prompto Argentum who also found out he was an artificial human with genetic enhancements who in attempting to fight monsters was killing the very beings he was most similar to, and guess what? He didn't do any of that shit.

[pink-nube]

Just realized I never uploaded this here!

[bksnie]

it’s picture time!

[missregality]

Doing his thing 👓

[frobby]

kurosawa yuichi is one of my favorite but also funniest to explain love interests in any romance. Everytime im like "oh hes obsessed with him.....respectfully!!!" Like no hes not a stalker but its hard to describe it as anything less than an obsession that hes just very respectful about

[tatatasoma]

[tatatasoma]

[cubedmango]

headache

[uwu-cherrymiku-uwu]

omg I'm in LOVE with Cherry Magic it's literally all I think about lately. I finished the anime (tmr I'll rewatch it though), I'm gonna start buying the manga soon, and not only I discovered theres a live action serie, but ALSO a film. You know I'm gonna watch it all, I love KuroAda.

[uwu-cherrymiku-uwu]

I've started my second playthrough of ffxv lately, and fomo is eating me alive. Like,, I wanna 100% complete Lucis before going to Altissia (bc I miss the boys and I wanna see them interact with eachother+it gives me inspiration for the fanfic I wanna write), but then I tell myselt "what if I some quest are better postgame??" and idk if I should go to Altissia already or just play how I want

[uwu-cherrymiku-uwu]

Idk who to talk to, so I'll just use my blog to vent, as always.

I've been feeling terribly these days, I feel like there's no meaning in doing anything: taking care of myself, pursuing my hobbies, socialize. I Bed rot all day and night, sleep during the morning only, almost paralized in bed (I'm only able to roll on it or go to the bathroom, I can barely eat).

It's so tiring, some days I'm able to finish an artwork, read books on books, feel like a literal god, and then there's entire months like I feel so shitty.

The worst things is my need for selfsabotaging. I'm mean to everyone around me, and I think I'm too mentally ill to deserve my girlfriend. I feel like she deserves someone who's happy, that she doesn't need to take care of, and instead she has me.

I feel so guilty for asking for her company, bc my love is a mega people pleaser, so I never know if she does want to stay with me or she feels like she has to, in order to make me happy.

I need to ask for reassurence, but if i even get any, I feel like I can't trust it. Like if the other person is just,, lying, to make me feel better. The only person I trust is my brother, but last time I told about all of these feelings he kinda got... angry? So at least around him, I wanna act like everything's fine, I don't want to be a burden to him.

I wish there was a reason why I'm so.. scared (?) to even hold a pencil and draw. The fact is, I don't even know. Everything's fine, I have all I could ever wanted. Healthy relationship, lots of good friends (maybe slightly immature but, duh, we're all teens), good relationship with my brother, I am my own self and not his shadow anymore. So what's going on?

Maybe the fact I have not had a good summer in years si fa sentire, now everything's TOO GOOD and my brain is like, "fuck it, ruin it all!!!".

Finally I'm not selling my body for some love, I'm not pursuing poisonous love that was slowly killing me. Maybe I never actually went through all the shit I lived, bc I never wanted to be a burden to anyone, and if I DID talk about it, they just tell me "get over it". They do not understand the unbearable fear he gave me of losing someone I love if I don't check on them costantly.

I think it's time to just post this, or I'll continue on yapping

I just hope my loved ones don't find this account

[uwu-cherrymiku-uwu]

If you had to watch a 25 minute long speedpaint (could be longer),, what would you like it to be about??

(I want to post one with a voice over, but I dont know what to yap about for 30 minutes)

[nalem]

Wrote a silly epilogue comic of the Samurai Jack finale. SPOILER WARNING

[uwu-cherrymiku-uwu]

I just finished Samurai Jack yesterday night.

This comic will help me cope, thank you.

[uwu-cherrymiku-uwu]

I need to read a Promptio and Ignoct fanfiction SO BAD. And like I can't find any, or like, I CAN find them but they're not my taste. I want to read something about the time they spent together before going to Altissia, but I can only find AUs. And I'm not saying AUs are bad, but I wanna read something based on the situations happening in the real game. I wanna see Prompto talking to Gladio about the fake crush for Cindy, or about the fact that he missed him in chapter 8. I wanna see Noctis telling the boys he's unsure about the wedding with Luna, not only because it's a combined wedding, but mostly because he's in love with someone else, A MAN, and said man is Ignis. I'm actually trying to write something about this all and much more, but I feel like I do not have the capability to do so, and If I do write it, it'll be in italian bc I'm not confident enough with english.

Sorry for my bad english, I'm still learning and as I said previously I'm italian, but oh god if someone finds a fanfiction about what I've spoken about I BEG OF YOU TELL ME/SEND ME THE FANFIC

[uwu-cherrymiku-uwu]

I feel withered