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woah i didn’t know that i can’t say how i feel abou this situation, im so done with this, i should have listened to my intuition months ago, i could save myself from all of this. idfk how it will end but i don’t care anymore, i always was understanding but now i’m putting myself first and maybe i’m selfish but at least i finally said how i feel.

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do i really want to move out with them.. since last week i started to think more about this and every single day i have more doubts.

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sometimes i wonder if moving out with my friend is a good idea, can’t he understand that i don’t want to tell him literally everything? or involve him with everything im doing? i love him and he is very dear to me but i need space and me time, i can’t talk with him every second. sometimes i feel like im walking on a thin glass while talking with him, one wrong word and suddenly i done something omfg

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being totally honest, it was so worth it to wait for her. almost 2 years since i was in a relationship, being in 2 fuckass situationship so i could be able to find her. and i can wait a lifetime for her to maybe start feel something

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this and her 🫰

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is it better to speak or to die? i always said to speak, but when i think about telling her how i feel i want to choose to die.

i couldn’t stand rejecting or loosing her as a friend

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she’s my, my, my, my kind of woman

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i bet she smells so sweet, like a cupcake or something like that. god i like her more and more every single day

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to have someone who loves me like i love them.

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everyday im closer to moving out and still im not doing anything that im supposed to do, lazy girl forever

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today is gonna be a low cortisol day, friday, summer weather and my package from vs will be delivered 😮‍💨

[cherriesofall]

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i used to be so creative about my look, about my makeup. i used to take pictures of myself. i used to be pretty.

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i saw this on tiktok and it reminded me of the time when my ex broke up with me, so i started to drink ny coffee with alpro vanilla soya milk (i drinked this flavor before but not from this brand because it’s kinda expensive in my country) so i could feel like im drinking coffee with her again. 1,5 years later im still drinking this milk.

2 days ago i started thinking about her again. it never gets better, does it?