God. Please lend me your strength!
Our relationship is only just a merely less than 2 months old. But it seems that I know you very well. We shared many of our past stories, sad/funny/happy/angry and other crazy stories. We didn't hide anything from each other, we tell what was going on in our mind and heart. No boundaries to what we tell to each other. I am glad that I share my life with you. Past, present and future.
I know that it would be a very difficult step for us when we are together as a couple. I have considered it many nights, during those midnight calls, even until the dawn of day. I knew that we could work. With the differences that we both are, I am sure it would work.
After we declare it, it turns to be ugly. Many harsh rejections that I face from the people that I thought would be at least understanding and let me give it a go. Is it too soon to actually tell them? I guess its not, because we are serious about it. I want their approval and blessings sooner. I am still dreaming of that dream. I really hope it will come true in the future. I may be called stupid for believing in something that the future is very blur. But aren’t people also believe in something that people rejects and then they prove the world wrong?
I am sorry for having second thoughts during those moments that we are being rejected. Like you said, I am very easily influenced and “plin plan”. I am very sorry. I LOVE YOU, but I also love my family. This is the part that I always have second thoughts about. I don't know how to put it in words when I am with you, but I hope this helps. And it is also for me to go back in time and cherish moments from the past.
Now, we are really fighting for the impossibly possible Hunny. NO more last night sad moments. We strive for our future together! I am still giving us hopes that it will work. No one can break us. Only ourself and God Himself!
It will not be an easy journey for us, but I know we can go through it. All right? We will work out ways so we can be together and one day we will get the blessings that we wanted.
May God show His path for us and let Him lead us. God bless us and also our family. Amen!
I love you my hunny bunny darling!
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PS: I am really thankful and appreciate that you try to quit smoking. I am sure you can quit fully!