🚨 THE RUMORS ARE TRUE, I HAVE RETURNED FROM THE UNDERWORLD 🚨 (long post read pls)
I’ve been gone for two months, and honestly? Nwm the past 2 months... the past year was an absolute mental suffering speedrun. I lost my motivation, lost my passion for anything I like, and felt entirely disconnected from life.
I found my way back. Or rather, Gods decided to my cure is the ancient world. I have completely fallen in love with Ancient Mesopotamia deeply. My blog is officially transitioning into an Ancient Mesopotamia fan account(dw I am still into Tron😭). Prepare yourselves for an ungodly amount of posting about my passion for the art and culture also my historical crushes. Yes, I am actively losing my mind over Gilgamesh and Xerxes I. No, I will not be taking questions at this time :D
My heart literally all belongs to the Epic of Gilgamesh now. There is this beautiful, devastating ache in his story that completely broke me and put me back together...and beside the epic...Gilgamesh. To me, he’s not just some distant myth or a demigod king who built the walls of Uruk. He is the embodiment of raw power, grief, and tragic rebellion against mortality. Honestly, looking at today’s mindless, minimalist aesthetics, characters and stories makes me sick, Gilgamesh (and also Xerxes...) is my escape from all that minimalist modern life. His heavy and fierce, wounded soul are everything I find beautiful. Every single time I draw him, write or talk something about him makes me feel like the happiest person in this whole universe. He’s not just protagonist of the humanity's first literature piece to me; him and his epic is the most intense, unapologetic passion I carry in this lifetime.
When it comes to Xerxes, the vibe is completely different. While Gilgamesh is all about that ancient, tragic, raw power born from the earth, Xerxes is pure, limitless will, and beautiful defiance. He’s the absolute peak of an aesthetic that doesn't care about the rules of ordinary mortals or even the nature itself.
Honestly, the sheer audacity of a king who would literally order the sea to be whipped just because it crossed him? That is intoxicating. I read absolutely everything about him past 4 weeks... Whenever I think about him or just read a little sentence about him I get completely lost in that overwhelming, larger than life presence. Gilgamesh and Xerxes has everything I worship. (Especially Gilgamesh, gods help me, me and us XD)
A quick note for the Xerxes art: While I am deeply in love with the actual historical Xerxes, but when I draw him, I’ll be using his Assassin's Creed Odyssey design. Mostly because the design is a whole vibe, and he looks like exactly how I wanna design him as a game character. But also...I literally want my peace while exposing my deep love for our Achamenid emperor.
these historical crushes and my love for ancient mesopotamia is literally became the end of an era that I was consumed by grief and hopelessness
What this means for my blog: Expect art and rant. A lot of them. I am channeling all this energy into character designs, sketches, and lore-heavy pieces of the kings who saved my mental health.
I’m back, I’m healing. Faust out ♡
