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⌗⠀the vampire variety, coll. sanguine

⌗⠀plural. autistic, dissociative, maybe obsessive-compulsive, anxious. goth, generally speaking.

⌗⠀ze/hir or ky/kyv/kyr (it/its auxiliary)

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#– mar 🎸

We're 20 now. Yippie!

#– aries 🐏#– fish 🐟#i really hope nora gets a chance to front tomorrow. she's been sooo excited

greatestlittlegiant

always thinking of that “i couldn’t stop wasting time” quote

greatestlittlegiant

song of the summer!!

i feel so alone

#– canid 🦴#it's our own fault. we need to be better. it's so hard.#birthday's coming up very soon and im dreading it. i don't want time to pass.#the urge to isolate ourselves even more is. yeah #i think this is getting really bad

meepcity9

#yes

porcelain-rob0t

the european mind cannot comprehend the 48 oz dunkin bucket

derryderrydown

Excuse me while I look something up...

1.4 litres????

politenotice

interestingmistakes

#it's probably only like 30oz (generously) of not ice #even still...... mmm big drink #that refresher lookd so good #probably only like 200mg caffeine in that. too much for a fella like me but still

We're getting increasingly sick of even the most inclusive systems we follow speaking about plurality though an implicitly disordered/etc lens. Personal statements aren't what I'm talking about, but people will make blanket statements that very clearly imply (or outright state) a history of childhood trauma, severe dissociation, etc. are inherent/universal in plurality or, slightly (but not much) better, the default experience.

#– nora 🩷#the more we realize that we literally only thought we were plural for trauma reasons #because that's what we were presented with as the only way #the more frustrating it is to see that idea continue to exist even in 'safe' spaces. we avoid the majority of the community already‚ and yet #we'd fully detach from it. but plurality is so important to us. and it would make us sad to be isolated in that #because i don't rly think any of our friends/loved ones view it in a similar way at all. anyway atp im just rambling #will probably move a lot of this to our journal. and expand upon it

we need more people to play slay the spire 2 with :(

#– nora 🩷

hadn't read a single book this year. our fiancé's mom brought up being excited to watch project hail mary for the first time with someone who had read the book, and being sad that now she wasn't going to (she was gonna w fiancé's dad, smth came up, now she's going to w fiancé+us). and i was like "yk what. ill read it tonight". so here i am ~4.5 hours later with a ~500 page book read (it was very good. punchy). yippie :)

#– nora 🩷#books.... i missed them #it's an interesting coincidence that we're able to do this now. ~a week after going off our antidepressants. and we hadn't while on them #but oh well

i hate being so scared

#– capri 🐐#all the time so scared??? extra right now. but still #it's been creeping into our dreams too which is so not fair those are usually fine #what is wrong with us

i don't think we've felt this terrible in years

#– anon 🌫️#it's just. such an intense feeling of hopelessness.#we continue to believe in a better future. at some point. but i have no idea how we're going to get through this #we're so tired.

heat--end

i haaaate being avoidant. it makes you feel like the world's biggest jackass whenever someone tries to talk to you or whatever and you just Freeze Up

heat--end

Oh sorry i took a long ass time to reply and didnt say anything. I got arbitrarily scared and tired myself out so now i cant say much. Oopsie teehee. it makes you feel like a huge dickhead

#reminder to our avoidant loved ones that we do not hold it against you <3 #and it doesn't upset us (when it does‚ it's very temporary and always rooted in our own social anxiety)

pros of hand juicing lemons: deliseeous hand smell

cons of hand juicing lemons: ouch my wounds ow ow

#– anon 🌫️#making fresh lemonade :3c #turns out it is less painful for us to hand juice lemons than it is to use a pen for 10 seconds. that's cool and fun #7 lemons..................

someone stop me from buying another keyboard

#– anon 🌫️#i have enough money to buy it. and im sad. so I'm very 👀👀👀👀#it's a low profile 40% that we've been looking at for a while.......

our pet peeve of the day is the assumption that all epileptics have photosensitive epilepsy. ~3 percent of epileptics have photosensitive epilepsy. epilepsy does NOT equal "has seizures caused by flashing lights".

this would bother us less if we weren't epileptic. or, rather, we were as a kid (we haven't had a seizure in 10+ years, so... not anymore, i suppose. who knows). it did affect us back then, in real life. people, including our mother, tried to "protect" us from eyestrain even though it was completely harmless. i understand that an overabundance of caution is better than a total lack of caution, but it's like... c'mon. how many times do i have to tell you that my condition isn't photosensitive. our seizures were all in our sleep, and in dark rooms*. it was infantilizing and just plain annoying. it also caused us to not know what the word was for what we were experiencing (epilepsy) because we thought that word meant lights give you seizures, and we knew that wasn't right.

(*minus one that was on an airplane)

and then there's just the fact we care about wording a lot. both "photosensitive" and "epilepsy" mean different things on their own. photosensitive refers to skin that is extremely sensitive to uv (basically), epilepsy is essentially just recurring seizures without an external cause (like an infection or withdrawal).

on another note, it annoys me when people mix up "photosensitivity" and "photophobia" (we have photophobia. lots of people do i think). photosensitivity is the skin thing, photosensitive epilepsy is the seizure thing, photophobia is the eyes are sensitive to light thing.

#– anon 🌫️#i know that language is flexible or whatever #this is something that annoys me. not something that is 100% correct #completely unrelated i am SICK of being blurry. release me from this hell. pls.

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