He wasn’t answering again. What was a good streak seemed to have ended and Vanessa couldn’t help but think, was it worth it? He wasn’t opening up to her and she was sure he’d take a lot of convincing, but how could she try if he didn’t get back to her? Vanessa was upset, it was clear from her face to the way she started handling things. How would he feel if she did the same to him? Not good probably. In fact, they’d probably get into another argument, he’d probably doubt her loyalty… all the things that she was currently feeling.
She needed to get out of her apartment. Vanessa couldn’t sit there and sulk with her dog whenever he pulled shit like this. How was it that at times he was practically perfect, but at other times he was a complete asshhole? It didn’t make sense to Vanessa. She tried reaching out to Paige, but they were unavailable, Probably a work thing, she thought as she looked through her contacts and found some other choices that she enjoyed spending time with. Maybe even bitch with over this whole situation.
Vanessa needed to decompress, taking deep breaths, she tried. The brunette looked through her closet once the plan to go to a bar tonight was a go. Her friend’s boyfriend played in a band that was playing a show and Vanessa immediately thought of J and how he’d probably enjoy being there. In a slight moment, she wanted to invite him, but he didn’t seem to want to respond so that was out of the question. There were a variety of bands playing at this show, so she just thought she’d calm down and enjoy the rest of her night. He was probably just busy with work or something, he’d get back at her the next day. No big deal.
Picking an outfit, Vanessa found herself to be way calmer as she started up the shower. She thought of her texts, how the last one was probably super dramatic, but she was hurt and after having spoken to him about how she felt on being ghosted, she’d expect him to at least read out once. Even if it was a “Fuck off I’m busy.” She chuckled to herself. No that wouldn’t sit with her very well. However, as the droplets of hot water hit her skin, she couldn’t help but to also think, it was better than nothing. That frightened her. What had she gotten herself into? Vanessa got out of the shower and wiped her hand over her foggy mirror, looking at her face and sighing. Was there something wrong with her? Which was pretty melodramatic for just a day of not hearing from J but it was more than that. She told him how she felt. DIdn’t that count for anything?
Picking up her toothbrush and toothpaste, Vanessa thought of how she didn’t like repeating herself or confronting people for that matter. She didn’t want to fight with J, she was tired of fighting with J she just wanted the happy for a bit. Understanding that arguments were a normal part of any relationship, and it was going to happen again eventually, but she didn’t want it to be now. He should know, she’d spoken about how she felt, and he should know that it affects her when he leaves her hanging like that. Rolling her eyes and groaning in frustration, Vanessa continued to brush her teeth,
An hour later Vanessa was ready and she sprayed a bit of perfume before leaving her room. Saying goodbye to Cinnamon and making sure all the lights were off in her apartment before stepping out and locking the door behind her. She saw her friend’s car out front waiting for her and she got into the passenger seat with a small smile. “Hey, long time no see.” The girl leaned in to hug Vanessa and Van hugged back with an equally as excited smile. “I know, but that you for this, I really needed it.” Her friend Emily smiled and nodded her head. “No problem. It’ll be a lot of fun. Help keep your mind off things for a bit.” That was exactly what the brunette needed and she buckled up as they drove off to the small bar in LA. “Just a warning, it’s a little cramped and sweaty in there, Can get uncomfortable, probably not your scene, but it’s totally worth it, the bands tonight are all really good. Tyler showed me the lineup.”
It definitely was a lot to take in and the place was already crowded but Vanessa managed. Fascinated by everyone in there. This was her first show, ever and it was a whole new world to her. “This way, got a table over here.” Van followed Emily’s lead and sat down at the table with her. She met Emily through work on the Streak. She was an actress too and she played on a similar show name Legends. Emily was someone Vanessa could trust and vice versa. “So what’s going on, why do you need to take your mind off of things?” Vanessa was no a bit hesitant to say anything. Not wanting to dampen the night with her emotions. Not wanting to be a burden. “Just, stupid guy shit.” Em nodded her head, looking as the band up next started to set up. “What guy shit?” She asked, and Van sighed. “I’m being ghosted for the second time by this guy I’m dating even though we already talked about it.” Her icy blue eyes looked at Vanessa and she furrowed her brows. “Some guy is ghosting you? Vanessa King. Does he know who you are?”
She wanted to cry, not knowing what she didn’t deserve such friends like Emily, Paige, Noah, George… etc. They were all so good to her. “Stop, I’m no one special.” Emily put her hands up in defense and stopped Vanessa in her tracks. “No, Vanessa, you are someone special, and if this guy doesn’t see that enough to not ghost you, then he doesn’t deserve you.” It was so much more complicated than that, Van thought as she nodded and shrugged her shoulders. “It’s just that I like him, and it’s not his fault he goes through a lot—He can be very insecure. He’s afraid I’m going to get bored and leave and I like him, I don’t want to leave.” At this Emily sipped on her drink, staying silent. “I’m sorry, It’s just complicated.” Em shook her head. “And I get that, babe, but it’s still not an excuse.” She said firmly, taking another sip. “What does this asshole even look like?” Vanessa chuckled and shook her head. “Don’t call him that, I’ll show you.”
Vanessa pulled up a picture of J and showed her, Emily looking at the picture intently and looking at the picture then at Vanessa. “He’s cute. Kinda actually,” She stopped looking at the guitarist on stage at the moment. “Kinda, actually…. What?” Vanessa asked, confused as she retrieved her phone. “Kinda actually looks like the guy holding the guitar on stage right now.” The brunette turned around and spotted J, completely confused as to what was going on. So he could get on stage and never tell her, but he couldn’t sing a stupid song for her and she was the only one listening? There were a lot of things she felt at the moment. Very little were happy emotions. “That’s, that’s J.” Emily looked at J and smirked. “Guess we figured out why he ghosted you. Did you know he was in a band?” No, was Vanessa’s initial reaction, but she didn’t say anything. Instead, she grabbed her phone, got up and took a video of the band playing. J specifically. She had every intention of posting it on her social media so that he’d see that she was there. That she knew, and hopefully that he got the hint of her being a little upset.
“Found you.” She captioned the video on her Instagram and returned to the table where Emily was ordering another drink. “Did he see you?” Vanessa shook her head and looked down at her phone. “I just ordered us a round of shots.” Looking up from her phone, Vanessa smirked and took a deep breath. “Good, I’m going to need it.” They both laughed and Vanessa looked back at J. Despite being mad at him, she was happy to see him. Like every time she saw him, it gave her like butterflies or something. And he looked fantastic with a guitar. “You’re drooling.” Vanessa reacted quickly and Emily laughed, “I’m fucking with you.” Vanessa rolled her eyes. Assshole.” Van whispered and shook her head. She didn’t want to approach J. She wanted him to see her first.
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