I'm ugly and that's all there is to know @vanillachaichai - Tumblr Blog

scarstofreedom-deactivated20230

Stg

I feel like having multiple mental illnesses since childhood and living with constant chaos in my brain for my entire youth actually broke my brain like I'm exhAUSted and need a life long rest. I have no clue how to pick my life up.

lamotriginerash

Me: *posts selfie to insta or wherever*

Some people: *like selfie*

Me: Wow I’m actually ugly🙃 and the few people who liked my picture were just pitying me.🙃 I’m a fat ugly monster and should kill myself so nobody will ever have to look at me again!!!!🙃🙃🙃🙃

bpdealingwithit

The day I turned four is the first time I can clearly remember staring in front of the mirror thinking "I'm ugly".

Why? Where did that hate come from? What in the world taught a barely four-year-old child to feel that way? I can't help but wonder if I truly have always just been ugly. Why does it feel like I'm always being lied to? Why have I never seen what everyone else saw?

bdd-posts-blog

✔Spends over 2 hours doing hair and makeup

✔Takes over 60 selfies in different angles

✔Looks at all of them till they turn ugly

✔ Deletes all of them

✔ Wipes off make up and cries in shower

battling-my-demons

I truly believe everyone is beautiful I their own ways. Sadly, all I see I ugliness in me. Everyone sees the ugly too. It sucks.

masheddpo

Back at it again with that body dysmorphia

I feel so ugly and deformed, i wanna cry

battling-my-demons

No one truly knows how it feels to hate how they look unless they know how it feels. It's more than hate and it's more than just an insecurity. I can not look at myself. I hate others looking at me. I hate going into public or being outside where all my ugliness is on show. Makeup makes it to where I feel better about being seen, but it only helps so far. I hate every single thing about my face and body. I do like my eyes, but what is around them is hideous. It feels like a prison and it's a crime to be seen.