Vaughn Halla

[vaughn-halla]

I'm pissed off, let me tell you why.

I've avoided talking about this publicly out of respect for the person who wronged me, but now I'm seeing that she doesn't deserve my respect after what she did.

Here's the context: in 2020, when the world was shut down by the pandemic, I had a stroke. I was 29 years old.

I was in the hospital for 6 weeks. When I came home, my best friend at the time, who was also my housemate,*insisted* on being my caregiver. I told her it would be too much and the social worker at the hospital can help me arrange something else, but she was adamant that she was going to be my caregiver, so I agreed.

At first, she was an attentive and efficient caregiver. She made sure I had everything I needed. Eventually, she only cared for me when it was convenient for her. Then, she stopped taking care of me all together, even though I still needed a caregiver. I tried to hire one, but after 1 day, my friend told me that it upset her and made her feel like a bad caregiver, so I didn't pursue a paid caregiver again.

What's worse was she started avoiding me. She knew I couldn't physically get into her bedroom, so she hid in there 24/7. She stopped eating dinner in the dining room with her family because I was there. She made it impossible for me to access her. Keep in mind, she was supposed to be my best friend and she insisted on taking care of me.

I reached out several times to invite her to hang out with me as friends, just like we used to. She turned me down every time, but constantly told me she missed me and couldn't wait to get to know me again

I felt unsafe and unwelcome in my own home, so I decided to move out when our lease was up.

Before I moved, we got into a fight where she said I couldn't communicate. I told her that she made it impossible to communicate with her, and also why would I want to communicate with someone who only talked to me when I did something she didn't like? She tried to turn it around on me and asked when was the last time I asked her how she was.

I was recovering from a fucking stroke. Fuck, I still am. Before the stroke, I'd light myself on fire to keep her warm. I was at a point in my life where I couldn't support her, because of circumstances out of my control, and that made me the bad guy.

After I moved, she not only cut all contact, but got most of our mutual friends to cut contact with me too.

So, I was struggling with a life-altering event, and she convinced 95% of my friends to abandon me, simply because she couldn't take advantage of me anymore.

Healthy friendships require give AND take. If you're primarily a giver, like I was, it's easy for people who are primarily takers to take advantage. Then when something happens where you can't give anymore, they'll drop you like a sack of potatoes.

I know she tried. I know she meant well. And I don't blame her for needing to take time away from me. But what pisses me off is that she took most of my friends with her. I was going through the hardest thing I'll ever have to endure, and she took most of my support network. In the end, I got shafted. After everything I did for her in the 10 years of our friendship leading up to the stroke, she was incapable of reciprocating.

The problem with knowing her so well is that I understand that she did what was best for her by cutting me off, but I'm still allowed to be pissed off about it. And I'm especially pissed that she didn't just do it quietly. No, she had to take everyone away from me.

[vaughn-halla]

I don't know what to do. I was so certain of everything that I wanted, but factors outside of my control have thrown wrenches into my life plans. And I want to die as a result. I find myself praying for terminal cancer or another stroke (but deadly this time). I have no desire to take my own life, but I'm begging the universe to take me out in some other way. I cry almost every day now. I'm so tired of being disabled, hurt, scared, sad, and lonely. I'm tired of being blamed for how people feel about their own decisions that I didn't ask them to make. I'm tired of being the universe's punching bag.

[vaughn-halla]

I'm pissed off, let me tell you why.

I've avoided talking about this publicly out of respect for the person who wronged me, but now I'm seeing that she doesn't deserve my respect after what she did.

Here's the context: in 2020, when the world was shut down by the pandemic, I had a stroke. I was 29 years old.

I was in the hospital for 6 weeks. When I came home, my best friend at the time, who was also my housemate,*insisted* on being my caregiver. I told her it would be too much and the social worker at the hospital can help me arrange something else, but she was adamant that she was going to be my caregiver, so I agreed.

At first, she was an attentive and efficient caregiver. She made sure I had everything I needed. Eventually, she only cared for me when it was convenient for her. Then, she stopped taking care of me all together, even though I still needed a caregiver. I tried to hire one, but after 1 day, my friend told me that it upset her and made her feel like a bad caregiver, so I didn't pursue a paid caregiver again.

What's worse was she started avoiding me. She knew I couldn't physically get into her bedroom, so she hid in there 24/7. She stopped eating dinner in the dining room with her family because I was there. She made it impossible for me to access her. Keep in mind, she was supposed to be my best friend and she insisted on taking care of me.

I reached out several times to invite her to hang out with me as friends, just like we used to. She turned me down every time, but constantly told me she missed me and couldn't wait to get to know me again

I felt unsafe and unwelcome in my own home, so I decided to move out when our lease was up.

Before I moved, we got into a fight where she said I couldn't communicate. I told her that she made it impossible to communicate with her, and also why would I want to communicate with someone who only talked to me when I did something she didn't like? She tried to turn it around on me and asked when was the last time I asked her how she was.

I was recovering from a fucking stroke. Fuck, I still am. Before the stroke, I'd light myself on fire to keep her warm. I was at a point in my life where I couldn't support her, because of circumstances out of my control, and that made me the bad guy.

After I moved, she not only cut all contact, but got most of our mutual friends to cut contact with me too.

So, I was struggling with a life-altering event, and she convinced 95% of my friends to abandon me, simply because she couldn't take advantage of me anymore.

Healthy friendships require give AND take. If you're primarily a giver, like I was, it's easy for people who are primarily takers to take advantage. Then when something happens where you can't give anymore, they'll drop you like a sack of potatoes.

I know she tried. I know she meant well. And I don't blame her for needing to take time away from me. But what pisses me off is that she took most of my friends with her. I was going through the hardest thing I'll ever have to endure, and she took most of my support network. In the end, I got shafted. After everything I did for her in the 10 years of our friendship leading up to the stroke, she was incapable of reciprocating.

The problem with knowing her so well is that I understand that she did what was best for her by cutting me off, but I'm still allowed to be pissed off about it. And I'm especially pissed that she didn't just do it quietly. No, she had to take everyone away from me.

[vaughn-halla]

[vaughn-halla]

How do you clean a spear?

You run it through the Wash.

[vaughn-halla]

I'm live, reacting to Nintendo Direct: Switch 2! Come hang out!

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[vaughn-halla]

You found that causing me pain was tolerable, so you keep doing it.

This pain could bring down entire galaxies, but it's settled on breaking my heart.

You say I'm bae, but I'm not before anyone else. You don't prioritize my happiness over hers, you won't. You won't tell her how your relationship is tearing holes into the very fabric of my existence. Do you even know?

I sobbed into your chest, while you thought about how she makes you happy.

You decided that causing me pain was tolerable, so you won't stop.

[vaughn-halla]

Today's crockpot recipe:

Creamy shredded chicken pasta.

2-3 chicken breats

1 can tomato puree

2 cups milk

1 stick of butter

One package of cream cheese

6 oz of Parmesan cheese

2 tbsp oregano

2 tbsp basil

2 tbsp garlic powder

Salt and pepper to taste

1 lb pasta of your choice

Step 1: place chicken breasts in crock pot and season with half of your seasoning.

Step 2: add tomato puree and milk, the rest of your seasoning, butter, cream cheese, And Parmesan cheese.

Step 3: cook on high for 4 hours.

Step 4: shred chicken, stir, lower heat to low, and add pasta.

Step 5: cook until pasta is al dente, usually about 45 minutes, but time may vary depending on the type of pasta.

Step 6: serve and enjoy

[vaughn-halla]

Don't you hate it when you're trying to confess your love to a girl and Mario starts yelling stuff about his dick until she goes away?

[vaughn-halla]

I decided to watch an episode of Doctor Who. The episode that just happened to be queued on my Max profile was the single most devastating episode that I've seen: "Doomsday." I'm nowhere near caught up on the show. I'm back watching 10 again. Started back at 9 because my brain injury erased most of the content that I watched before the injury. I remembered "Doomsday," though. Hard to forget.

The episode hits different now, though. The first time I saw it, I'd never been in love. Now I'm so deeply in love and I just cannot imagine loving someone like this and never getting the chance to say "I love you." Maybe that's why I say it so often, because the Doctor couldn't. I sobbed my way through that episode, from the moment Pete and Jackie saw each other until "Rose Tyler-"

The show is so good. Had a good cry, now it's time for bed.

[vaughn-halla]

Home

In shadows deep, where hope seemed lost, I wandered through the echoes, counting the cost. The world felt heavy, like a weight on my chest, Yet in that darkness, fate chose to jest.

You appeared like dawn, soft and bright, A spark in the silence, a beacon of light. With eyes that spoke volumes, a heart open wide, You reached through the rubble, and pulled me outside.

We danced on the edges of what could have been, Two souls intertwined, where despair once had been. Your laughter was music, a melody true, In the depths of my sorrow, I found you.

We built a foundation from pieces of pain, Each crack in the surface, a story to gain. In the ashes of heartache, we rose from the fall, Two dreamers discovering a love that enthralls.

Now hand in hand, we face every storm, With you by my side, my spirit feels warm. From rock bottom’s embrace to heights yet unknown, In the ruins of sorrow, I finally found home.

[vaughn-halla]

Hello 👋, I hope you're doing well..

My name is Mahmoud, and I'm a 17-year-old from Gaza. The ongoing war has devastated my city, destroyed my school, and made daily life incredibly challenging.

Despite these hardships, I'm determined to continue my education and build a better future. I've been given a chance to study abroad, but I need help to cover the costs of leaving Gaza, as well as living expenses and other essentials abroad once the crossing opens.. 🙏

If you can, please consider donating or sharing, your kindness can truly make a difference, and thanks for your time. ❤🍉

https://gofund.me/bd3ccf0b 🔗

Hello! I'm so sorry, but I am unable to donate at this time. I'm out of work and don't have much of an income due to disability. All I can do is share. I wish you luck!

[ultrafacts]

Weird Al Yankovic once asked Nirvana for permission to parody “Smells Like Teen Spirit” and their first question was’“Will it be about food?”. He explained that “Smells Like Nirvana” would be about how nobody could understand their lyrics., They agreed that it sounded funny and granted permission. [x]

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[wolfertinger666]

ok hot spicy take or whatever: it's really funny to see the "anarchy fuck the government acab" leave left-leaning people's bodies the minute they see someone shoplifting stuff in order to survive (especially if it's a person of color) almost as if it's an aesthetic and nothing more.

[wolfertinger666]

if you see someone stealing like, food or basic necessities, and go "stealing is bad!!! it hurts the multimillion dollar company" instead of "yeah I don't think people should have to struggle to the point of not being able to afford basic things" I have no hope anymore.

[wolfertinger666]

if you see someone shoplift no you didn't

[wolfertinger666]

"be gay do crimes" crowd when they can barely handle a comic Abt an anthro dog stealing art supplies.

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His name is Gregory Kloehn

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[vaughn-halla]

If you were to ask me how I'm feeling, I'd say I'm fine. But if you asked me on a deeper level, I'd say that I would be so much better if you were by my side. This distance between us aches so loudly, and all I want is to feel safe in your arms. I feel alone, exposed, unsafe when I'm not with you. My days pass ordinarily, but they're incomplete without you. It would be so much better, wouldn't it? If you were here or I was there.

[wolfertinger666]

honest advice from my perspective: if you're around people or at least dating people that make you feel like you're walking on eggshells, constantly stressed out, who never take proper responsibility for hurting you or going out of their way to hurt you especially via humiliation (public humiliation) and even blame you for everything despite not taking accountability once, then those are red flags GTFO.

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[diavolaangelica]

Honestly.. what if?