His Life’s Purpose
I don’t know if this may sound a bit cliché. And I really don’t care if you believe it. But slowly by slowly I was truly convinced that Oliver was in my life for a reason. If you read my first post you would remember that a student called me out of nowhere telling me that she had found a puppy which had been abandoned. Out of all the people she could have called— she called me. And it also turns out that her best friend wanted to keep Oliver but she ended up giving him to me. I just can’t explain why.
I also already told you that Oliver doesn’t like to stay home alone. He doesn’t like to be alone period. But what I haven’t told you is that neither do I.
I guess we can all say that we got some childhood issues. We can thank our lovely parents for that. I know they meant no harm and they didn’t intend to traumatize us.
Oh well. They did. As an adult and searching for meaning, (my life’s purpose), why am I here and so on. I started realizing why I did certain things and why I couldn’t stick with a project that I had started or why I got tired of being with the same person for more than two years.
—-Something I haven’t told you is that my mom abandoned me when I was very young and it has been traumatizing me ever since. Now that I am aware I’ve realized that I always abandon things before it is done to me. (We’ll talk about this topic later.)
So turns out, my biggest fear was to be left alone and well I started realizing that it was Oliver’s biggest fear, too. He didn’t like to be left alone because he was afraid that he might get abandoned, too. He howls when he is lonely.
I don’t blame him, he was abandoned when he was little. He is scared I might do the same to him. But being with Oliver has made me become aware of what I feared the most. I started noticing that one of the reason why he chose me as his mom was to allow me to face my fear. Allow me to stick to something or even be able to be with someone. To be honest, I haven’t done it yet but at least I know it’s there. I don’t know if I ever will but I am working on it.












