Victory Venus

thoughts put into words, and sometimes into action.

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Monsters in the Tree

It's a terrible thing to love someone so blindly that they turn into their Father, and you into your Grandmother; neither people worthy of any praise or demonstrative of any love and care.

We were supposed to break cycles. We were supposed to slay our inner demons. We were supposed to be better, together. And all we did was build one another into monsters like the ones who came before us.

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Once more, without feeling.

I tried to describe the way you feel about me today. Apathetic came to mind; a lack of interest or concern. Only I remembered that you would care if I died.

Not because I would cease to exist as anything more than ash in the days thereafter, but because you would somehow find a way to make it your fault.

And thus responsible came to mind; an obligation, a duty you signed up for. Guilt came to mind; that you remain to right a wrong you have done, with that wrong being me. Burdensome came to mind; in that having feelings towards me at all is exactly that.

And if that is true, then I will be a burden, knowing it is the last vestige that you feel anything for me at all.

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The Home For Lost Lovers

We lost each other.

I don't know when it happened,

Whether it was a day crowded around the kitchen sink,

Or a moment between my putting our sheets in the laundry basket and you taking them out to the line to dry,

But a moment suddenly came when you left the room and the next time you entered you couldn't see me anymore,

Not the me that you saw before.

And no matter how hard I tried to help you find me again,

I couldn't catch your gaze,

I couldn't call your attention,

And soon I lost sight of you too.

[veenusau]

Sometimes, your great loves turn into lessons; pastimes, family, friends, lovers.

Learn, my darling. Knowledge holds power.

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Almost Close.

I don't want to date again. I don't want to fall in love. I don't want to dream big. I don't want to want a life with someone. I don't want to let anyone in.

But I want to be wanted. I want to be adored. I want to be cherished. And I almost feel ready to let it happen.

I almost want to let someone be almost close to this vast heart of mine.. Almost.

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Where the river meets the sea.

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From the Moon to the Sun

And here we are my darling, at such odds that those who spectate cannot look at us directly.

You have always been the brightest star in the sky to me; a thing of beauty, and warmth and life.

You never understood that I was always happy simply reflecting your light; I never wanted to be in this position.

You were so fearful I would eclipse you, that you never realised all the ways I forced myself out of orbit rather than to have dimmed your light for a second.

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I don't know who else needs to hear this today;

But you deserve better than the people whose actions go against the promises they've made to you.

You deserve people whose actions are kinder than their words. You deserve people who follow through. You deserve stability.

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Trust is small commitments met consistently over time. Without trust, you cannot go all in without risking part of yourself in the process.

[ousia-poetica]

[tigerwing-infinity]

Thank you random sign

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[ninoxo]

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