vegetarianbear

TW:ED eating diary SW: 70kg UGW: 50kg asexual

[vegetarianbear]

I wanna cut my entire skin open.

[vegetarianbear]

I've thought about this too much

[vegetarianbear]

One of my classmates just admitted to wanting to kill themselves in front of the whole class and most laughed. I refuse to believe that people are this cruel.

[vegetarianbear]

Pringles changing their design has made me more devastated than gaining weight

[kidgrimm]

not a fan

[vegetarianbear]

Non native English speaker here. I was taught today that the pilgrims and native Americans worked as allies. Makes sense they'd hide away the truth. Why would they wanna make America seem weak and cruel.

[vegetarianbear]

Sorry for not being active, I'm just very busy rn and only have an hour or two of time for a break

[rottingtrouble-child]

If your abuser was nice that doesn’t mean they aren’t an abuser. If your abuser helped you financially that doesn’t mean they aren’t an abuser. If your abuser was supportive that doesn’t mean they aren’t an abuser. If your abuser regretted/felt guilty that doesn’t mean they aren’t an abuser. If your abuser gave you necessities that doesn’t mean they aren’t an abuser. If your abuser and you had good memories that doesn’t mean they aren’t an abuser. If your abuser abused you once that doesn’t mean they aren’t an abuser. If your abuser gave you gifts that doesn’t mean they aren’t an abuser. If your abuser helped with medical/disability aid that doesn’t mean they aren’t an abuser. If your abuser helped with your education that doesn’t mean they aren’t an abuser. If your abuser helped you achieve something that doesn’t mean they aren’t an abuser. If your abuser was your best friend or family member or partner that doesn’t mean they aren’t an abuser. An abuser doing good things for you doesn’t mean they were never abusive to you, it doesn’t make them less of an abuser, it doesn’t make them not an abuser. Many abusers want you to feel conflicted about them, and many cases of abuse are complicated in their emotions among everything else. Your good experiences are valid but so is the trauma they put you through.

[vegetarianbear]

I finally got to go to the gym

[doom888]

i really wish more people would talk about and accept "unconventional" self harm. stubbing cigarettes out on yourself, hitting yourself over the head, starving yourself, keeping yourself up at night, letting yourself stay in the cold with little clothing, trying to get sick on purpose, just everything. not everyone cuts or scratches themselves

[vegetarianbear]

Meme of the day

[vegetarianbear]

I wanna eat but I don't wanna cook. But I need to cook I'm order to eat.

[vegetarianbear]

[secretbonez-deactivated20211115]

Banana bread low calorie

If you cut the banana bread in 15 slice: 1slice=24kcal This depends on your baking tray (i made two little baking trays and i have 24 slices -> 1slice=15kcal)

Ingredients(363kcal):

2 banana 160kcal

1 egg 64kcal

100g of oats 68kcal

1/2 teaspoon Vanilla extract 6kcal

1/2 teaspoon baking powder 1kcal

Some salt ///

1 spoon honey 64kcal

Some cinnamon ///

Recipe:

Add in a bowl 2 banana and smash it

Add 1 egg, some salt, vanilla extract and honey

mix everything

blend the oats until they turn into flour

Add baking powder and cinnamon to the oats

Mix everything

Put some baking paper in the baking tray

Put the dough in the baking tray

bake it in a ventilated oven for 30-40 minutes at 160 degrees

[vegetarianbear]

I'm actually gonna try this but I'll need to write down those ingredients first.

[goddteeth]

how dare you. how dare you treat me that way. i’ll eat you alive.

[vegetarianbear]

Mood

[vegetarianbear]

So many options 😍

[vegetarianbear]

I saw a picture of myself yesterday which was a year book photo and I really felt horrible. I didn't look like myself + I was never able to recognize my own face to begin with ( my psychologist will schedule a meeting with a neurologist because of that). That really made unable to sleep. I can't believe that a photo really made me feel that horrible about myself. Sure I've had those situations before but when it happens all over again especially when you're recovering it's just a big slap in the face.

[vegetarianbear]

12/11/2021

Food log

Breakfast: skipped

Lunch: skipped

Dinner:

fermented cabbage: 27 calories

Mushrooms: 44 calories

Salad with dressing: 295 calories

Snacks: yoghurt 200 calories

Total: 566 calories