Private Guardian Angel named Warrior

I'm [Ars]eniuss. * from Latvia * freethinker and philosopher * likes metal, rock, industrial music * programmer * satanist/pagan without a god * gay * lover and orphan me and my family Lists: I like this Anime I like Games I play Music I listen Movies I like Quotes I like Books I read TV series I like Style I like Men I like

[gamoraswonder]

happy pride month<3

[justascribbla]

“Inside every old person is a young person wondering what happened.”

Terry Pratchett

[vejaskrejejs]

If everything you touch turns into gold then you'll never have what you need. - Arseniuss

[vejaskrejejs]

Pain reminds you that it mattered.

[vejaskrejejs]

"I fear that on my last day, on my deathbed, that is when the meaning of things will enter the room and kiss my forehead and whisper into my ear what it was I should have done with my life, and how I should've conducted myself. Hell isn't a fire pit but a museum of regrets."

- Exurb1a

[vejaskrejejs]

I'd like to be sunset architect. Through reflexion and scattering I'd like to build a beaty. Once in a while. With new colors every decade. Wouldn't that be nice?

(Inspired by exurb1a)

[petewentz-]

It's fun being queer and weird and unconventional until you remember you live in a society

[vejaskrejejs]

"You need to follow your heart."

No, you don't! Your heart is wounded by so many things. Don't follow it! It will try to hide from everyone. Try to keep safe. It pull you back into familiar and never show itself. Don't follow your heart!

Follow what's in front of you. Don't overthink - look! Look at actions, look at words and be patient. Your heart will heal in time but regrets will stay with you forever. You can find happiness in it. Be patient and look! Once healed old wounds don't break so easy.

[vejaskrejejs]

It's fun to think that one day our great, great grandchildren may get that much closer to understanding what the hell creation is doing here in the first place, and glimpsing the underlying structure and nature of matter itself. Hopefully they won't live with the same existential horrors we all quietly face today in our own lives. There is a kind of bravery to our condition, I reckon: brought into being without an explanation, in a potentially infinite and apparently dead universe, and expected to just get on with it as though nothing strange is going on. Well it fucking is. And it's all right to have a meltdown about the whole affair from time to time, faced with the pressures of modern existence, trying to be a good human and a good worker and a good son/daughter/parent, trying to be a good citizen, trying to be wise without condescension but uninhibited without recklessness, trying to just muddle through without making any silly decisions, trying to align with the correct political opinions, trying to stay thin, trying to be attractive, trying to be smart, trying to find the ideal partner, trying to stay financially secure, trying to just find some modest corner of meaning and belonging and sanity to go and sit in, and all the while living on the edge of dying forever. We're all in the same strange boat, grappling with the same strange condition. But it isn't quite so scary if we all do it together. So let's do it together.

[communistkenobi]

nobody respects the genealogy of ideas. if you tell people words come out of history and are attached to different forms of material power and domination they immediately throw a temper tantrum

[slowepokee]

Happiness is an unachievable myth peddled by those too afraid to admit the world's default state is misery.

-exurb1a

[bigstupidnerd]

There is nothing worse than to remain sober around those who are drinking.

Their euphoria intensifies, while you only grow quietly embarrassed for them.

At some point during the evening they will intuit you are judging their follies and become self-conscious. They will despise you for depriving them of the bliss of drunken excess by virtue of your watching.

The reaction is much the same from the gluttonous, rich, and powerful when one reminds them that the resources of the environment are not infinite.

They might continue to plunder, but they will hate you for bringing conscience into their debauchery, for turning the light on during the orgy.

'Why, the house was burning down, but we were so enjoying the glow…'

— Exurb1a, Geometry for Ocelots

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[brokxnn]

[vejaskrejejs]

[vejaskrejejs]

Prompt for writers

"And there I was. Listening to sounds which I couldn't believe piano could produce... "

[vejaskrejejs]

Hope dies first

It is painful to fall in love with a person who doesn't share the same feeling. But it is more painful when he likes you back and you don't know what to do with that cause he's not ready.

So I say: "Hope dies first" cause you can't make someone to love you. And you should never try it.

So I move on...

I hope I will not yearn for someone anymore.

[vejaskrejejs]

Why am I so unbelievably stupid? When a guy comes into my life who actually cares, actually takes time and actually tries... I pushed him away.

Why? Cause he's skinny and sometimes a bit hyperactive. That's nothing! And yet I only see that when I'm already have pushed myself into abyss.

And what to do now? Time seems like torture. And I don't know how to reach out. I'm so afraid and alone. So fucking lonely...

I killed the hope. I did it. Please, give me strength to mend this!

[vejaskrejejs]

I'm so afraid... and stupid.