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this really feels like a “this is best for you/I know whats best for you” moment. He said “this will be fine” they said “you will be better off without me”

actually I’m sexting adults on tumblr and pretending I’m a groomer.

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hahaha when your alter hurts me but I cant even run to you for advice/comfort because youre in the same system as them

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I’m getting like, no support here

-Yahweh

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tw sexual predator

hai guys im gonna try to do the right thing and be a good moral person

*accidentally supports sexual predator, apparently*

fuck

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me: *tells person about my source where I was an abuser, in a good light because I’m looking at it from the aspect of fiction, telling you about all the cool things we made up about it*

person: so you support abusers?

me: nooo Im not my source

person: but that fiction looks like you support abusers

me: ?? No its just fiction ??

me: *feels uncomfortable talking about my source*

FUCK.

FUCK YOU.

IF YOU CANT RESPECT MY SOURCE THEN FUCK OFF

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Tw abuse + death

fuck OFF FUCK OFF FUCK OFF I HATE EVIL PEOPLE I HATE ABUSERS WHO TRY TO GASLIGHT YOU I HATE HER TELLING ME MY TRAUMA ISNT REAL I WANT HER DEAD AND IF SHE GOT HIT BY A TRUCK I WOULD BE HAPPY

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I just wanna stay awake the whole night.

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Hurting so bad I swear Im gonna

AUGHAGHAHUHH

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I no longer believe in fucking shifting and I wasted two days of my life

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its so weird when I hear myself say things that sound an odd amount like manipulation but its not 😐

like sure 'im gonna unfriend you if you keep doing that' but thats because that person is genuinely hurting my mental health...

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'I dOnT wIsH aNyoNe hArM' bitch you tried to enslave him

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my urges to introject evil people immediately go away the moment they actually hurt me and I realize just how boring they are and how uncomfortable they make me 😭

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is it traumatizing to witness slavery?

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when an alter in a system is fucking crazy so you wish your best friend was here but your best friend is another alter in that system?? and they cany front right now??

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my mind: omg he knows how much you hate bad people....you gotta stop hating bad people hes gonna expose you..

me: he is a slave owner. I do not care what he thinks

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concealed vent

its just like a normal vent, but I make it very vague and try to play it off as a joke/a meme and not an actual topic that happened to me!

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this isnt how childhood is supposed to be