A place to vent and/or read the occasional poem

A place to vent anonymously (or not) for if you want advice or just don't want a vent on your blog send me an ask

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Intro post

(new intro post because I’ve decided to change this blog a bit)

Vivian talks in purple mod talks in white

Hello you can call me Vivian (she/it)

I’m a stone statue in a place called the venting garden

this is a place (my asks) where you can come to scream into the void or rather talk to a statue who may talk back if you ask

no 18+ topics in vents please (if you mention sa that’s fine tho I can’t give advice on that)

please add any needed warnings at the top of your asks and please be kind

Mod will probably start posting some poetry/story’s here soon of their struggles and I hope you can find comfort in knowing your not alone

Homophobia, transphobia, racism, and all around bigotry is not welcome here please respect people, their lives, their religions, their sexuality and anything they struggle with that they may mention

No Ai will be welcome on this account

and remember you are loved, you are enough, you belong, and the world is better with you in it

stuff about mod under cut

Hello this is run by @dyslexic-alphabet-soup

Vivian is not my real name she is a comfort OC I made when my depression got really bad and with changing this to be an account for her I’m hoping she can help more people then just me

if you want a vent post on your account to be brought here for whatever reason you can tag it with venting-offical and it will be reposted here eventually

have a wonderful day, night, afternoon, ect

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Icarus

“Icarus flew to close to the sun” 

Yet his father also warned for the sea

“The sun will melt your wings “ he said

“but the waves will take you away never to be seen again 

Go between and you’ll survive

Ride the wind and you’ll fly”

But did Icarus listen?

no

why?

He reached for the sky

He laughed as he fell

But we never seem to remember that part that well

Instead it became a warning

Forget your dreams wake up in morning 

But Icarus knew what he would do 

He knew the risks and yet he flew

In the sky 

Happy as day

Let the gods watch as his wings decay

Now here I stand

My wings in hand 

I must fly like I know I can

In the sky 

Above it all

I must stay dry

And avoid the fall

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say it with me

I. DESERVE. TO. BE. LOUD

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YOU DESERVE TO BE LOVED

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I DESERVE TO BE LOUD AND LOVED

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I hope something good happens at you. Something positive shooting your way. Coming at you.

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Okay just returned from Summer camp of two weeks. In there I had a couch/authority figure/ person responsible of me and they were supposed to have personal convos with everybody. When we had our we got pretty connected and somehow I opened up majorly. It ended up happening a few times over camp. At the last day (two days ago) they got us all bracelets, and personally said that they wouldn’t mind getting texts from me if wanted to and wanted to remind me they still existed even after camp.

Now I already texted to ask if the bracelet is water-proof, and I don’t want to never see them again. They are about 6 years older than me. Advice?

hmmm I don’t really have advice other than send them memes

Maybe someone else who sees this can give some 🤔

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tempted to pull a move kinda like @disguised-offical and let people try to guess my other offical account

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Reminder that you are loved 🫂

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(No advice just need the void) I think I’ve been filling up my schedule with things because every time I have a break for more then a day or two I have a depressive episode and need things to distract from it all

🫂

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Happy pride y’all

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Oh my god restarting my blog was a mistake.

I came back to it bc one of the ppl I was p involved w plotwise was rly distraught over my character's "Death" (We had discussed beforehand that while I'm on HIATUS the character in question is just gonna be incapacitated for a while) and so I thought "Ok, my schedule's gonna be less packed bc I'm gonna be out of school and stuff, why not end the HIATUS now?"

Well 3 days in, and already it's become the center of a plotline, and the other character is just being possessive as shit over it. I never explicitly said this wasn't ok, but I never really said it was either. And I don't mean "Oh no please keep yourself safe character, you've been presumed dead for a while and I don't want anything happening to you" No. Straight up just "I'm gonna lock you in a tower rapunzel style and go on an insane downward spiral when you don't like that" Like dude??? I get that you wanna progress a plot but you gotta tell me these kinds of things first???

I think the most frustrating part about all this to me is that we don't like being the center of attention like 90% of the time. Yeah sure I like writing characters that help progress the plot, but I don't like it when I have a character that decides the entire plotline esp w/o any warnings. I usually write like side characters, and at most seconds in command, but especially in someone else's storyline, I just don't wanna have that kind of responsibility. (Sidenote: I would've been completely fine with all this if like. the mod actually discussed half of this with me earlier, bc now it just feels like I'm being forced into some box of a character that the other mod already decided)

I have since told the other mod like "Hey, can my character not be the center of attention here? We're too deep into the plot than I'm comfortable with" (esp bc I as the mod, out of character, am being dragged in) and they said it was fine. Which is good! I'm glad! But then they started vagueposting the shit out of the conversation and didn't actually change anything so. Yeah.

I am this close to just ending the blog right now no warning. The only thing keeping me right now is the hope that just maybe the mod will finish up their arc quickly so that I'm not suddenly pulling the plug on someone else's story

Little sidenote: Thanks for having this blog up, seriously helps a ton and we appreciate this sm T-T

I think the only thing to do is ignore the vague posting and maybe try to end your character’s plot line but idk i haven’t been in any kind of similar situation

but whatever you do just make sure it feels right for you 🫂

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I normally wouldn’t do this kinda stuff but I just feel like I don’t have anywhere else really to go

I’ve had a relationship for over 5 years with my best friend and now partner, and they’ve gotten me through some of the toughest times of my life, due to recent stuff however I’ve realised that they don’t treat me very well, they overstep my boundaries quite a bit, use my interests to hurt me and are just really disrespectful to me recently over online drama involving the amazing digital circus (yes strange I know) but a few weeks ago we had a large argument over it and they ghosted me all day, and said that they got their phone taken away and were forced to go to the doctor (which I’m starting to have a hard time believing with how fast they insisted we go back to normal).

but anyway the only thing I asked of them was to take a break from the internet and to be respectful of said boundaries, and they didn’t do that. And when I confronted them about it recently they said I not only ruined their whole day but also said it was unfair that I wasn’t on break with them. Which kinda defeated the whole purpose of it, and when I said as much they said that that had been bothering them for days

they constantly 180 on stuff and it can be incredibly frustrating. They have BPD which I understand but they don’t handle it in a healthy way and often lash out at me emotionally. But I’m honestly scared of having to break up or confront them again when they didn’t listen or respect what I asked before. I love this person but I genuinely can’t see this relationship going anywhere further if they keep doing this to me. But also because I’m the only person my partner has really, they’ve told me over and over how their scared of loosing me and get really upset when I don’t text them back even when I’m doing something

I just don’t know what to do, if you have any advice I’ll happily take it. Have a good day and thank you

I don’t know if my advice will do much (ive not been in a relationship before) but the only thing I can think of is simply if this is weighing on you like it seems that it is it’s good to step away even if you simply decide to say to them “I need to take a week away from this for myself to see if I this is right for me”

no matter what happens with them and you life will go on and more will change and you will be okay 🫂

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CW: Referenced Vehicular Manslaughter(?) and DUI

I'm so fucking tired of people disrespecting my damn boundaries, in and out of character.

Thankfully, this only applies to one blog: My main officalverse blog. I intentionally don't do like mass pings and stuff that I've seen others do bc 1: I don't like bothering ppl for no good reason other than to advertise and 2: I don't wanna be like big famous. I just wanna be a niche little creator that maybe 2 ppl look at. Ik it's more than that now, but my point is I don't wanna get constantly hounded by like 300 followers iykwim

The main issue rn for me is just the fact that nobody seems to respect when I say "Sorry, I don't have the time for this rn" or "Sorry, I don't wanna pursue this". This is mostly bc I'm in a group where a buncho ppl are doing ARG's. Don't get me wrong, I think that's cool as hell! I'm really glad that they're able to make these kinds of mazes w unique storylines, and as long as they're happy and it's not hurting ppl OOC, then I'm glad for them

The problem arises when they constantly ping me or dm me asking if I worked on smth or to give an in-depth review of their characters. I understand that yeah, feedback is great and is really helpful as a writer, but I don't really have the time nor energy for that all the time. ESPECIALLY when these kinds of conversations happen seemingly every day and several times a day. I'm happy to support the ppl I write with, but I can't just drop my entire life just to analyze a character. That's not fair to me.

The other issue is that some of them have a very specific idea of what they want their RP's to look like. I don't mind working around a few plot points, but when it gets to the point of forcing a specific event on someone that clearly doesn't want it, that's where I have issues. Specifically, we had an incident not too long ago where we were gonna "driving in my car right after a beer" a character for a bit.

Now, I'll admit. This was somewhat of my idea after we fleshed out some details, but to me, this kind of bit is only funny when it happens ONCE and if all parties are cool w it. When writing stuff like this or any kinda of attack, we generally give a little space so that the mod of the opposing character will always have the time to dodge or deflext, just in case they don't want to. In this case, yeah, the mod had their character dodge. Ok! No big deal, we just continue the RP as usual, right?

And then the other ppl in the RP began godmodding not only my character while I was AFK, but also doing everything in their writing ability to make sure this character got hit. Many attempts of this. That made me super super uncomfortable. I was the first to say "hey, this isn't funny anymore. If Mod doesn't want the character to get hit, the character doesn't get hit, it's not that hard."

The mod would rb, agreeing with me abt the this is getting too far. I don't like that I had to be the one to stop it.

Now, I've put that blog on HIATUS. However, despite 3 posts saying otherwise, seemingly nobody's respecting it. I continue to get pinged and attempts to drag me into RP's w them, and it just annoys me.

This is difficult and I don’t have any advice other than just keep enforcing your boundaries if they don’t respect them then ignore them

🫂 you got this

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Not for advice, just need to get it out of my head

I'm starting to prepare for the possibility I might not graduate highschool first try. It's not even that I can't get the work done, I'm just so slow about it. I know it isn't my fault, it's because I'm in asynchronous online school and haven't had as much human interaction as I actually need, and I have several mental disorders. I am on antidepressants now which is helping.

I know I'll probably be fine, I managed to get past one year old school where I almost failed science and had to take a test to make sure I knew everything, and fully failed math having to take summer school to get the credit, but it still hurts. The profession I want to get into doesn't technically need a highschool degree, but I already have so much off about my body and my brain. I need this for me. I'm going into an alternative highschool next year, so that will help, but I still need to finish three courses before that.

I know I'm being fine, and I know I can always just go to an adult school, but I'm fifteen with physical and mental disabilities, and I feel like if I can't even graduate highschool than how am I supposed to do anything else? Brains are stupid I've decided.

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my mom will never love me if I stay trans

Maybe your mom doesn’t deserve to be a mother

you know what I’m you mom now

come here 🫂

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(I’m not looking for advice just need a hug)

I think my subconscious likes to see me suffer through my crushes

the last girl I had a crush on was my brother’s best friend who saw and still sees me as her little sister

the one before that randomly went religious extremist, got very very homophobic, and cut me out of her life

And now I’m 90% sure the girl I have a crush on now has a crush on my before mentioned brother

I think I’m just gonna be alone forever ❤️‍🩹

here is your hug 🫂

I hope you fine someone

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I want to not be social. I want to just hide in my room all day and do nothing, yet I want to do something and I just can't doing anything. It feels like everything is slipping away from me and yet I can't help but feel like it all goes slow enough that I have a chance to catch myself. Yet I can't move.

I can't do anything correctly. I wanna just be normal. I wanna help my friends who self harm. I wanna take away everything that hurts them, but I know I can't. I want to be with my best friend, but they're across the world from me. I can't even get comfort physically anymore.

Is there something wrong with me?

something could be off

You sound like me when my depression first got bad. if you can, you should ask someone for help (I did not do this don’t follow in my footsteps) wether it’s therapy, helping you do the hard stuff, or just a hug

you got this 🫂

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why do people hate reading first person POV fanfiction???? like books are written in first person - why is it weird if i write in first person????? do inreally have to write from a second person POV?????

like the stuff i have been writing is all first person but i just got an anon message saying if i wrote in second person then people would actually read my stuff and i didn’t know that was like a rule? of writing fanfiction?

I know that a lot of people don’t like first person writing for dumb reasons like I heard someone say that they don’t wanna feel like they’re doing the bad things a character does (which is so weird)

I don’t understand people who don’t like first person I love reading and writing in first person