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<3 Not pro just sharing my journey :)

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My other account got deleted when I needed it the most. I’m gonna use this account to share my journey with ana. Please don’t report I need somewhere to vent.

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when he left so did my appetite

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i’m back now 😍

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to far in the ed to stop

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forgetting abt tumblr but still having a eating disorder>deleting tumblr and recovering

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i’ve fasted for 546 hours this month, this is the most hours of fasts i’ve done so far.

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using his girl bestfriend as thinspo 🙈

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the “perfect” idea of ed is so harmful. i don’t feel valid bc i don’t fit the beauty standards that irls holds. i’ve struggled with ed for as long as i can remember and i still don’t feel valid enough to tell people because i’m not stick thin

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my ex literally sent me meanspo when he’s literally obese and kept telling me to throw up and gave me directions on how to do it

he also groomed me so i guess he just wanted power over me again

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buying new clothes triggers me sm i just can’t do it. especially oversized stuff

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whenever i get hurt i make it my goal to “work on myself” by fasting..

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when u try and binge but ur stomach has shrunk too much

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having ur mum say “me too” when u say ur hungry or when u said u haven’t eaten all day so u need food she says “me either, get used to it” 🥰🥰🥰

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i want to get down to 8 stone but i don’t have a scale and no where to get weighed

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i missed you.

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okay today i’m back on my “diet”.

i “rested” for the holidays ☺️