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J. I write merely for expression.

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I miss writing. :(

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Put me up on a pedestal.

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We shouldn't let love destroy us. But slowly, it is destroying me. 

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Sent with so much faith Eagerness to attain Exchange of sweet sayings Never happier, keeping sane

Zooming out the effect Over hours of waiting No care and even bothering Enslaved by the message Death be like it felt

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Change

How long has it been? Still, I am on the same ground Thinking and trying hard

Why do people seem not to see? The things I try to be me The one whom they want me to be

It's just not easy To be whom you don't know But for the better it must be

So I will try and try Never giving up Till I finally fly

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Closed Book

Stagnant at the corner of a vast room With time flies the letters of every page On the cover is a glimpse of age Old enough to gain what is left

Words of every origin are in Stories worthy to be told Symbols of hope and despair Mingle and strangle with none who cares

Staying as it is as time goes by Closed and no one bothers to try To see what's inside and true Forever blinded by an open book

I am a closed one.

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And I hope he really is the one. 

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Come Over

Can I come over? Every minute of every day?

I want nowhere else to be It feels so good and free

I wish I could come more often And enjoy everything  to be

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Never

How do you expect me to be okay with the girl who is, technically, the main reason of all the drastic pain that I experienced and am experiencing? And for some reasons, maybe the girl who might still be behind why the only guy I love - and I love him unconditionally, still cannot give himself or his love completely to me, even if we're already committed to each other?

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UP

Four months and five days ago, I learned that I got admitted to the University of the Philippines, Diliman. 

To receive such good news serves as an achievement and a challenge.

Now, I am at the middle of all stressful preparations in order to be completely registered to the "best" university in the country. 

I am afraid. I don't know how to survive there. I am scared. 

But this is a great opportunity, which would eventually lead to great responsibilities.

I will be there. I need to survive. I must be brave and independent. I have to do my best, all the time.

My life as an Iska will start, three months and 10 days from now. 

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'just graduated from high school. How happy and sad.

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Prom

Precious time it is Right is every second Over hours of love Moments never to forget.

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thediaryofayounglady:

You look at the sun as it sets and you wonder if on the next sunrise the one you love will still sit next to you on the same roof top you hang out at. You take a sip of coffee on the same cup the one you love took one and you wonder, up until when you will be encapsulated...

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Vision

I close my eyes.

I see the ST hall decorated with flowers, curtains, and ribbons. All chairs and tables are occupied by proud parents and mentors who are smiling with tears in their eyes. The president of the school and all staff and administrators are standing at the center of the hall, smiling to everybody like it's gonna be the best day for them all.

As the mistress of the ceremony signals the beginning of the program, everyone stands up and faces the entrance hall. In line are the students in white robes. There's a mixture of happiness and sadness in their faces as they walk on the aisle - each step leads them to another stage of their lives. 

And I am with them, standing first in line. 

I can clearly see the picture in my mind, like I am really in it. But as I stay in the scene, the happy and proud feeling that I should be feeling now just seems so inappropriate. It tortures me though the picture is not formidable enough. It just feels like I am not yet ready; we are not yet ready.

But it is our success.

It is like the end and the beginning. I want and I don't want to be part of it. But I see the overflowing happiness from every parent's and mentor's eyes. And I have no choice but to be in it.

I open my eyes - just as how should I open myself to reality:

I will be graduating from high school 20 days from now. 

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Happy Women's Day!

Cheers for the woman who...     serves as a light in darkness     stands in times of trouble     gives the best for everything.

Cheers for the woman who...      seeks faith from above      searches for hidden mysteries      conquers fear and doubts.

Cheers for the woman who...      cares for humanity      fights for equality and      loves unconditionally.

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7th of February

On the seventh day of February, I didn't expect the dove to be caged

On the seventh day of February, I lie down without a hope of breaking free

On the seventh day of February, I think of the best prison to be in

On the seventh day of February, I surrender to the chains of love

'Cause on the seventh day of February, I finally got committed to the one I love.

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I love you, but fuck you.