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Union. Symbiosis. One

RECLAIM verb (/rɪˈkleɪm) to take back something that was yours.   SYMBIOSIS noun (/ˌsɪm.baɪˈoʊ.sɪs) the living together in intimate association or close union of two dissimilar organisms. ________________ “Maybe not” Arthur interrupts John to keep him from despairing. “But that doesn’t mean Kayne gets to dictate how we think about any of this. We destroyed that stone. We defeated him. And we saved everything that matters to us.” Hm, John hums, not quite convinced yet. Arthur refuses to let it dictate their thoughts any longer. He traces the scar’s shape with John now, slow and steady. As if cutting the throat with their tenderness.   “This scar….it’s here because I love you” he reminds John of its nuance. The day he inflicted it on himself, desperate to save him from the king. Their promise that if it really came down to it, they’d rather die together than be split apart. And that is just the thing.   Kayne tried to drive a wedge between them. Again and again. Hoping to leave his mark on him. Hoping to make a difference about that choice. About their love for each other.   Never.

Rating: Mature Pairings: Arthur Lester/John Doe Tags: Post-Finale, Happy Ending, Bathing/Washing, Symbiotic Relationship, Queerplatonic Relationships, Two idiots madly in love with each other, mild canon divergence as in Jarthur take that post 60 bath right away, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Post Traumatic Stress Relief, Mutual Masturbation, Enthusiastic Consent, Sharing a Body, Body Worship, Touching, Touch-Starved Jarthur, Sensuality, Porn with Feelings, Crying During Sex, Emotional Hurt/Comfort

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This just in, domestic idiots in love, still bickering

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Arthur. No.   Yellow. Shaking on that ground through quiet sobs and pain. Wearing a face that looks just like theirs, past all the blood and swelling. John knows he has every right to reject him just as much as Arthur wants to. But he simply cannot because…   …he pities him.   Even after all this time. Even after everything he did. John still wants to lessen Yellow’s pain.  _______________ What do you do when something you used to despise about yourself lies before you, grieving? What do you do when the man who took everything from you looks exactly like that everything that was taken? What do you do when you want to hate and destroy, but love and heal all the same? This is the story of three men dealing with the aftermath, and looking for answers to all those questions.

Rating: Teen Pairings: John & Arthur, John & Yellow, Yellow/Arthur (One sided), Yellow/Darkthur POV: John (Chapter 1), Yellow (Chapter 2) Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Unrequited Love, at least not romantic love, Aromantic Arthur Lester, Grief/Mourning, Wound Care, Trauma Recovery Jarthur take care of Yellow

[virtualtear00]

IT'S FINALLY TIME! My artwork for @malevolentbigbang !!! I had a pleasure of creating a one page comic, alongside a fellow artist @jaegereska and our beta reader @konn493 for the beautiful fic "Please, let me drown" by @veritaaasss

[jaegereska]

My submission for @malevolentbigbang 2025! For the lovely fic "Please, let me drown" by the lovely @veritaaasss !! I had a lot of fun with this piece and adore this fic so much. It's for the yearning, angst, drama, romance, wholesome sweet moments, grief, its a heavy one too! I really enjoyed making this and even have a couple more pieces I plan to finish for fun haha please enjoy this wonderful fic and art ✨️

[ID: Comic page with 8 sections, the first is John looking lovingly at Arthur, the second is Arthur looking back at John, tears in his eyes, looking distraught while John asks off screen if he's okay. Third is a close up of Arthur's eyes, looking away angrily, tears more obvious in his eyes. Telling John "Don't" and "Yes" in response to his question. In the next two panels, Arthur repeats that he's okay, his hand raised to keep John from getting closer, but John approaches him and reaches out while Arthur seems to shrink and his resolve wavers as his hand lowers. Fully body image of John hugging Arthur while golden light glows behind them and the comic switches from a limited color palette to a fully colored scene for the rest of the comic. John pulls back, face inches from Arthur's in the next panel, telling Arthur "You're okay." Then they kiss in the last panel, Arthur's arms wrapped around John while John caresses Arthur's face. /end ID]

[veritaaasss]

Please, let me drown for the Malevolent Big Bang 2025

“Sisyphus’ cheating of death earns him eternal punishment in the underworld, with the gods forcing him to roll an immense boulder up a hill… only for it to roll back down again.”   Arthur Lester has everything in his life. A successful career as pianist, an adorable daughter, and sometimes even a beautiful, talented wife. So why does everything feel so wrong, like something’s missing? He keeps meeting a stranger who knows him far too well, and through him, begins to slowly unravel the truth about the life they’ve forgotten, and the brutal choice he made to try and fix the unfixable. Stuck in a loop of his own making, Arthur relives a fractured version of his life over and over again. With changing details and choices, but always with the same goal: a future where Faroe lives. This is a character driven story about the five stages of grief, written from Arthur’s point of view, loosely based on the Greek tale of Sisyphus. The denial. The anger. The bargaining, depression, and ultimately… Acceptance. That no matter how many times he tries to rewrite his own history, he might just have to let go.

Pairings: Arthur Lester/John Doe, Arthur Lester & Faroe Lester, Arthur Lester & Bella Lester, Arthur Lester & Peter "Parker" Yang POV: Arthur Rating: Explicit Wordcount: 200k Genre: Recursive Timeloop, Drama, Whump with Happy Ending(ish) Potential triggers: Suicide (temporary), Child Death (off screen)

Written for @malevolentbigbang, with art by @virtualtear00 and @jaegereska

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The very nature of this is violence

“Larson” Arthur growls, getting a distracted, almost sweet little Hm? out of Yellow because he can’t quite stop looking at the blood on their hands and body. “He heard the screams. He’ll come.” Or hide, Yellow says, unsure whether it’s a counter argument, something to be celebrated, chased, hunted, or meant to…soothe? No. Not to soothe. To incite. To push. To aim for more. “He needs to die, too” Arthur goes on and at long last, that makes Yellow still. But not with shock. No, this is excitement. “And you’ll help me make it happen tonight.” _________________________________ The story of one man's unraveling. Little does he know that the very action he decides on is what ends up ensuring that the love he's mourning can't return. Aka: This is how Arthur stopped being "our" Arthur. And this is how Yellow destroyed his only way out. Part of a loose series, but can be read as a standalone.

Pairing: Arthur(Darkthur)/Yellow POV: First Yellow, then Arthur Rating: Explicit Potential triggers: Eye Horror, Gore, Murder Additional Tags: Murder, Blood and Gore, Blood and Violence, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Arthur and Yellow kill both Jack and Wallace in this, Embracing their shared depravity and blood lust, Consensual Violence, violence as foreplay, Mutual Pining, Masturbation, Hand Jobs, Sharing a Body, Body Worship, the amount of sensuality in their violence is off the charts with this one, Grief/Mourning, Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms, gratuitous depiction of violence

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Seeds of Gold - Chapter 24 - The Coffin

I’ll get back inside. I’ll keep him walking. We can lean on each other.

“John, no. You don’t…”

I don’t want to. I don’t, John says, to make that perfectly clear. To end this cycle of constant deflection and ignorance of pain and fear. Not like this. Not in front of each other. Not anymore.

That body is like a coffin. And it’s going to be hard for the both of us. But I trust you.

Arthur’s eyes widen. His mouth opens, but nothing comes out. As he looks back and forth between the body on the ground and his killer right before him.

I trust that you’ll take my hand and lead me wherever it is that we need to go from here. I trust that we’ll find a solution that’ll help us both. I -trust- you.

Pairing: John/Arthur (can be read as QPR, gen, or shippy) POV: John Rating: Mature Potential triggers for this chapter: Sensory Deprivation (sight and hearing loss), Self Harm (ish)

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Capricious Memory

Malevoversary fic @malevoversary

A combination of Day 2 - The Pit, Day 3- Uncle/The Undefeated, Day 5 - Memory/Arthur and John

“Memory is the seamstress, and a capricious one at that. Memory runs her needle in and out, up and down, hither and thither” John reads out loud, humming at the way he can feel said motion mirrored behind him.

Arthur has taken a liking to having his hands in his hair while he reads for him. Pairing: John/Arthur Rating: Gen Tags: Memory, Hair Braiding, Fluff and Hurt/Comfort, Reading, Traumatic Memory, this one is lighter on the angst I swear, book discussion, Snapshots, Gentle Kissing, Shippy, John (Malevolent) Has His Own Body, Post-Canon

[veritaaas]

Dropping this here because I'm very proud of this one

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“Are you going to kill me now?” his Arthur asks, shocking them both into another moment of tense, breathless apprehension. The question lingers in the air, Arthur’s hand remains inside that bag, and John’s eyes remain fixed on the other’s face. The other Arthur meets them with just about the same indifference he always has. Until at last, his eyes shift over to their bag as well. “Are you?” he asks, and John can feel the way his friend’s fingers tighten around the cool metal of that gun, itching for that trigger, contemplating the question. It really would be so easy for him, wouldn’t it? To pull it out of that bag and aim it at his chest, knowing that John would not dare try to stop him, even if he wants to. _______ An alternate version of "The Fire" where John and Arthur meet Darkthur instead of Malam. Testing John's loyalty and devotion while asking Arthur the question of all questions. Does he deserve to die?

Rating: M (Canon Typical Graphic Depictions of Violence) Pairings: Arthur Lester&John Doe, Darkthur Lester&Yellow Genre: Heavy Hurt/Comfort with somewhat happy ending

[veritaaas]

Phantom Pain

Rating : M

POV: Yellow

Pairings: Darkthur/Yellow, John&Arthur, Yellow&John

He gets it at last. What Arthur had been trying to do with him. Looking for in him. Hoping to turn him into. And why.

Just to make that pain go away, pretend that it’s not there because it shouldn’t be. Can’t be.

Because how can it be hurting so much when it’s gone?

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Phantom pain refers to painful sensation perceived in a body part that is no longer present subsequent to surgical or traumatic removal.

(can be read as a oneshot)

[veritaaasss]

Something in the dirt

Rating : M

POV: Arthur

Pairings: Arthur Lester/Peter "Parker" Yang

Tags: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Case Fic, Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism, Arthur Lester hates himself and decides to fight the world, Parker to the rescue, rhis one is shippy, Self-Hatred, Grief/Mourning, Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms, Feral Arthur Lester, Pre-Canon, Bathing/Washing, Slow Burn, Hurt/Comfort, First Kiss

Summary:

“Did you mean it?” Parker asks after a very long time of silence between them. Long past the threshold of awkwardness, with his hands in his hair now, washing out all the dirt and blood. Arthur realizes what his friend means way before he clarifies it. An ounce of sobriety returning through the ministrations of his fingers, a moment of reprieve, almost pleasure, keeping him in a gentle grip. His hair.His head.And the gun pressed to the back of it. Do it you fucking coward. “No” Arthur lies, glad that he doesn’t have to, no, can’t look at Parker as he does so. But he feels the way his fingers still just for a moment all over again. The way he tenses up just a little bit. Yet even then, even then… Parker doesn’t push. ________ Arthur sneaks out at night, battling his inner demons. Until he crosses paths with a suspect he and Parker have been tailing for a while now. Arthur decides to take matters into his own hands. Things go wrong. And as always - Parker's there to save him just in time.