[hatin]

via weheartit

[blessyourheartlittleone]

*gently puts my mental health in rice*

[neckkiss]

TEXT ME

[fxckthesxstem-deactivated202403]

Biggest turn on?

not wasting my mother fucking time

[little-miss-tragedy]

“1. I am so sorry that you’re finding out this way. I wanted to tell all of this to you in person, but I was too scared. 2. When you’re done reading this, I want you to burn it—I don’t want any evidence that I ever wrote something like this. 3. Did you know that the moon is made of debris from a massive collision between two planetoids? Not only did something so beautiful come from a disaster, it was by pure chance. 4.5 billion years ago, two planetoids lost in the massive Solar System found each other, and then destroyed each other, only to create something beautiful. Ten years ago, I met you. 4. I have never known the feeling of being enough; I was always either too much, or not nearly enough. I hope when you think of me, it only brings a smile to your face. I hope I gave you enough of myself that you never regret meeting me. 5. When I was five, I almost drowned, and didn’t go swimming again for three years. When I swam for the first time again, I jumped into the deep end without hesitation. Despite my past, I was reckless with myself, and as my lungs filled with water, and my throat burned from the chlorine, I didn’t regret my actions. Sometimes, you have to jump, even if you run the risk of drowning. This is me jumping.”

— five lines from a suicide note or a love letter (16/30) by (ds)

[we-the-dreamers]

“I often wonder what life must be like for other people. People who can feel the love from others and give it back unadulterated, people who can experience sex as an intimate and joyous experience, people who can experience the colors and happenings of this world without constant misery. I wonder who I’d be if things had been different or if I were a stronger person. It sounds pretty great… I was never the person I wanted to be. Maybe without the darkness I would have been a better person. Maybe not. I did try to be a good person. But I realize I never got very far.”

— Bill Zeller, from his suicide note.

[shmwrites]

the hardest thing i had to do this year was not to remember you as the person who loved me in ways no one else ever had before but to remember you as the person who left me broken in ways i didn’t think i could break.

it doesn’t matter how you loved me, it matters how you left me.

[queerlysad]

Somewhere along the way, when we danced to some stupid song at 2 am, you looked at me with those pretty brown eyes and fuck how scared I was to lose you, I wonder if she thinks the same when you dance with her

You meant something, you mean something, do i mean anything?

[wishing-for-deathx]

I kept on making myself smaller and smaller to keep you in my life.

— reminder to NEVER let anyone make me feel that way again

[wishing-for-deathx]

Tonight is one of those nights where I am missing you like crazy, so much that I feel sick because that’s how much I crave you. I can’t stop thinking about how badly I want you. Not in a sexual way. I can’t stop thinking about your wavy hair and your beautiful brown eyes, I want to tell you how unbelievably beautiful you are. I can’t stop thinking about how badly I want to cuddle with you, I feel so safe in your arms. And how I want you to tell me about all the things you’ve been up to, it doesn’t matter if it’s nothing new. And when you laugh unexpectedly at something I say? It’s one of the best feelings ever, I can’t believe I made you smile. I hate clicking photos but I want to click silly and cute photos with you. I want to take you to my favorite place in the city and kiss you there. I want to send you memes and random messages, no thinking a hundred times before sending a hi. I want to buy you cute gifts, write you love letters, go stargazing, watch the sunset, oh god the list is never ending. I want to play with your hair, I want to hold hands and I want to do every one of those corny romantic things from romcoms. And most of all, I want you to want me too.

But you don’t want me and loving you is making me sick.

[fxck-every-1]

i will never forgive you for the nights i stayed up crying and wondering why i wasn’t good enough, i will never forgive you for the days where my biggest accomplishment was getting out of bed, you broke my heart and for that there is no space for any forgiveness. But i will sit here and thank you, thank you for showing me i was worth more than you, thank you for giving me the ultimate push to loving myself, thank you for showing me you weren’t the person i dreamt of you being. Here’s to loving yourself after a heartbreak. They leave because you need room to grow

[sunflowerletters]

“Perhaps the saddest thing, Is that one moment, you’re in love, or you’re best friends, or you’re in a committed relationship, And the next; you’re just a nuisance, you’re blocked without any good explanation, you’re just another stranger. Or worse yet, you’re forgotten completely.”

— Excerpt from a Book I’ll Never Write, Perhaps the Saddest Thing

[lovelorn-stuff]

[anchored-and-drowning]

“The other day she said to me ‘sometimes I just feel like a gas station’ and I laughed at the statement before she explained ‘people stop by to get what they need, whether it’s sex, laughter, or someone to suffocate the loneliness, until they’re full again and the last thing you ever see is them driving away’ and now I’m wondering if a gas station is all I’ll ever be”

— 02/02/2020

[anchored-and-drowning]

“Isn’t it just absolutely insane that you will always always have your soul. All those times you felt your heart ripping in your chest, all the tears diluting the shower water, and all your broken parts shattering on the floor. All the lowest lows, you still had your soul. And you’re here now. So wasn’t that all you needed?”

— 06/16/2020

[wishing-for-deathx]

“I am tired of being told I am loved and cared about but never made to feel that way.”

— your actions and words never match

[ssnowflake]

“When you meet your person, trust me, you will know. So please my dear, do not settle for less.”

- @ssnowflake