“en gallop”

fair as sebastian and as early slain

[vespertiene]

john seraf, he/him, twenty-five listography letterboxd 📻 fragrantica 🐇 ‎

this is mostly a sideblog to @serafinomostro as well as a place to share bits of uncategorized writing/general musing both in & out of character. if you’ve found yourself here, mutuals are of course welcome to follow and interact ⁠♡

i ⁠♡ the vampire armand, gothic and transgressive lit, psychoanalysis, queer history, & the arabic language. i’m married to another lovely pervert & i’m an archivist, which means that for as long as i can remember i’ve been obsessed with files 🗂️ i’m currently writing a novel about aids, sex, the systemic medical oppression of queer people, & the weaponization of the traumatized psyche. i post mostly in english but will sometimes post in italian too

currently reading:

- gender, sexuality, and syphilis in early modern venice, l. mcgough

- intimacies, adam phillips & leo bersani

i don’t tag triggers here ⁠♡ please expect graphic content, both written & visual

[theoptia]

Jean Genet, from Fragments of the Artwork

[theoptia]

Anne Carson, from Plainwater: Essays and Poetry

Text ID: Two hundred and ten million years of desire wash through me. Blood-eater.

[pinkblanc]

Hans Holzer, America's Haunted Houses, 1991

[majestativa]

It should be recalled that for Bataille, a specter or ghost is not the equivalent of the fully decomposed corpse, but is conceived in the register of decay. In other words, the specter is the uncanny embodiment of fleshly corruption, [...] an irrepressible memento mori. And if Weil is Bataille’s spectral friend, it is only as she returns, like a daimonic intercessor, as the reality of bodily decay and death, and thus the nullification of illusion.

Decay and death are indeed central to Weil’s concept of incarnation, a concept that paradoxically is no less spectral in nature than Bataille’s fantasy of Lazare. Weil promotes what might be called a practice of incarnation, a practice that has as its goal the eradication of illusion. Illusion, according to Weil, is a kind of error in perception; it is the mistaking of what is merely imagined for reality itself. The ‘‘test of what is real,’’ on the other hand, is that ‘‘it is hard and rough’’—that it is painful, in body and soul. ‘‘What is pleasant,’’ says Weil, ‘‘belongs to dreams.’’ To overcome the evasions of dream and illusion, Weil says that ‘‘we must become incarnate. . . . Man has to perform an act of incarnation, for he is disembodied by his imagination.’’

JEREMY BILES — Ecce Monstrum: Georges Bataille and the Sacrifice of Form, (2007)

[vespertiene]

“standing on the seaweed water / semen stains the mountaintops” was and is insane

[pinkblanc]

Elisabeth Bennion, Antique Medical Instruments, 1979

[gouged-doll]

[ratbebes]

the most beautiful problematic wife

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[gouged-doll]

t. lux feininger, light play (1930)

[phantomleaves]

'Beautiful in Death' stereocard depicting an arrangement of phantom leaves/flowers, ca. 1858

personal collection

[vespertiene]

i was the first ever offensive clump of meat

[tasteofgrave]

marius and armand passages from the vampire armand that altered my brain chemistry

[thornmallet]

Drummer Magazine, issue 185

May 1995

[brvtalism]

“Each mark, each trace, each scar left on the body is like an artificial invagination, like the scarifications of savages, which are always a vehement response to the absence of the body. Only the wounded body exists symbolically - for itself and for others - “sexual desire” is never anything but the possiblity bodies have of combining and exchanging their signs. […] The savages knew how to use the whole body to this end, in tattooing, torture, initiation - sexuality was only one of the possible metaphors of symbolic exchange, neither the most significant, nor the most prestigious, as it has become for us in its obsessional and realistic reference, thanks to its organic and functional character (including in orgasm).”

— Jean Baudrillard, Simulacra and Simulation (via sun-death)

[vespertiene]

i molted