when my card declines at therapy so they bring up the fact that I can’t stop fueling the fire even though all I want is to be on good terms with her on top of the fact my grandma could die at any moment now
#I’m doing great#what a fun way to start off the summer#personal post#vent post#If you see this please know I don’t hate you I just wanna be chill#It’s so fucking draining to spend every day at the hospice house#Just watching her get weaker and weaker#Remembering how just a few months ago we were baking and singing songs together#it all happened so fast#She didn’t even respond to me today#She smiled and held my hand#But just yesterday she was talking#I’ve already accepted the fact that she’s gonna be gone#I hate feeling things#I wish it was all not real#Everything is gonna be so weird with her gone#She’s been such an integral part of my world for my entire life#I don’t want to feel things#I’m not that type of person#I don’t feel things normally#I’m not used to it#The tags are a post of their own haha#I just have a lot to say#I don’t know if I’ll ever be the same after all of this
