vi3wm0nst3r

tw for sh/suicide (fetishizers DNI!) ⚠️i use art as an outlet as i try to get better, if you are triggered by self harm topics and depictions PLEASE take care of yourself and browse safely! your safety is important. help is out there and recovery is possible. ⚠️

[vi3wm0nst3r]

Still moving forward and STILL NOT GIVING UP!!

[vi3wm0nst3r]

I think he's dead.

A horizontal response

[vi3wm0nst3r]

Sorry for my lack of posts. I am beginning to find happiness again

[remember--my--name]

Saw this photo on tumblr and knew i had to draw my boy steven. Based off @vi3wm0nst3r 's fic "The Light Pours Out Of Me" on tumblr. Check It out, their fics are always peak 🥹

Can you tell i have no clue how to draw Garnet 💔

Me when I cant fucking draw anymore

[vi3wm0nst3r]

Summer town - vi3wm0nst3r

There's a buzzing in my head, and it's hurting my eyes

Around me, the smell of a sweet, wet summer night makes my skin sticky

All I'm able to do is imagine death

Coming for me

Taking me away

Finally putting me at ease, eternal rest

I'm waking up on the floor

I've been here alone for years

The sound of birds chirping

Does not bring me to tears

There's a hole where my heart should be

And a cave for my eyes

The sound of a wind chime

whispering lies

Never put me to rest

Never let me down

Never mind the rest

I don't want to ever leave this town

If someday I wander, god forbid

Find me again, a sad and lost kid

looking out of my casket, a task without labor

I'm watching the squirrels, the bugs and the neighbor

I can't lift my neck, I was just born

My pretty white gown, all dirtied and torn

I put myself here, I couldn't deny

That when I'm alive, I wish that I'd die

Don't think of me anymore, I'll take care of the dishes

The bills and the laundry, your wildest wishes

Promise me once

Promise me twice

That you wont make me survive one more night

Never put me to rest

Never let me down

Never mind the rest

I don't want to ever leave this town

If someday I wander, god forbid

Find me again, a sad and lost kid

[vi3wm0nst3r]

Take your life in your hands and go

[vi3wm0nst3r]

I'm back!

I disappeared a couple days after my last post because I self admitted to the psych ward. I was not in control of myself and was planning to make a very permanent decision if you get what I mean.

My experience was more positive than negative, and I'm really trying to get better this time. I want to get better and not worse. That's a good step in the right direction. Sorry for being afk for so long, I'll post my psych ward art eventually

[vi3wm0nst3r]

It's now or never

[vi3wm0nst3r]

Lay me down in the field

And put me under the trees and the tall grass

Where they won't find me

[vi3wm0nst3r]

TAKE MY REVOLUTION!

[vi3wm0nst3r]

I hate you so much it makes me sick

[vi3wm0nst3r]

Stay one step ahead of relief

[vi3wm0nst3r]

Who up regretting everything

[vi3wm0nst3r]

I know you'll be a star in somebody else's sky

But why can't it be mine?

[vi3wm0nst3r]

A quiet child with sad eyes goes to their first job, hurting all over. Nobody likes him. He kneels down, and it hurts. All over.

A loud adult with bright eyes goes to their 4th job, hurting all over. Everyone likes her. She kneels down, and it hurts. All over.

[vi3wm0nst3r]

I am happy because everyone loves me

[vi3wm0nst3r]

The days are long where I come from