i think more people should become comfy with doing stuff alone
(long reflective post i don’t expect anyone to read because it’s very random)
i have anxiety and i’ve always had it, there’s a lot that i wish i had done when i was younger but couldn’t and even now, there’s stuff i see people doing and i wish i could do it & as a kid nobody i knew had similar music taste to me, even now nobody irl does and so i never dreamed of going to concerts because i would have nobody to do it with
& then noah kahan came out with his stick season album and i had been listening to him since 2018/19 and i saw how much he blew up and he announced his tour and it was an ideal venue to be and i saw how big he got after that album and i knew if i didn’t go to that concert i probably never would see him live because i knew after that it would be the big venues (which i can’t do due to anxiety, at least not right now)
so i said fuck it and bought a ticket and i went to my first concert alone and i was front row and it was great and it gave me the confidence to do it again, since then i have been to 6 concerts, all of which i have gone to by myself & it’s really not that bad, the waiting around before it starts/queuing is the worst part but once the actual music is going it doesn’t matter being alone
& i would always see people i deemed confident being like ???? you went to these alone? i could never do that??
which was always so confusing to me and my anxious self because i see them do stuff all the time i wish i could do and it was weird to learn that i could do something they couldn’t (i.e. going to concerts alone) & concerts then made it better for me to do other stuff alone, like for example going to the cinema alone is way less scary than a concert & again like i said, i don’t share interests with people irl so we don’t watch or listen to the same things but i have learnt that i can do this stuff by myself
& i used to feel embarrassed by it, like do i look silly here by myself but then after seeing how many people i assumed were very confident tell me they could never do stuff like that alone, i felt proud to be able to do it and realised it’s nothing to be embarrassed of
so if you ever wanna do something but nobody else wants to/there’s nobody who could come/friend’s don’t have the same interests or whatever, you should just do it anyway! because if you spend forever relying on other people to join you on things you wanna do, you might never get to do them and that would be sad
so i wish for everyone to be more comfy doing stuff alone because it’s great and i think it’s also very helpful for people to realise it’s okay and that they can and i can’t remember what else i was gonna say but if you read this you get the point
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