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victoria. old enough to know better. tired NHS worker

[victoriaeelizabeth]

this weather is absolutely doing me in. it is SO hot and I’m seriously fed up, it’s too much. I’m seriously considering moving to Scotland at this point!

[victoriaeelizabeth]

I wrote a draft about a week ago that was so long and full of anxiety that I didn’t post it and I’m glad I didn’t. Anyway, the general gist:

I enrolled in a research study last week which looks at the cardiometabolic health of women before and after having their first child. So essentially, I am going to try and get pregnant in a few months (after our honeymoon). J has been very supportive and has always expressed a want to be a father, but ultimately that it was my decision.

The decision has taken a LONG time to be made and honestly I do still think I go back and forth a little. I have emetophobia which does really concern me for pregnancy, childbirth, and rearing a child. However, I have had a lot of therapy, and I think this might be the most controlled it has been since I was late teens/early 20s. I have a fear of childbirth, which I’ve always had, this is also something that can be managed.

I feel like me three or four years ago would be absolutely baffled by this, but actually I feel quite excited (even with the anxiety). I don't want to tell anyone in real life (only my best friend knows) because I would rather wait until I have something to tell them, and that won't be for at least 6 months. But, I am kind of excited!!

[victoriaeelizabeth]

the 'feels like' temperature on Wednesday is going to reach 41 degrees?? I beg your finest pardon????

[victoriaeelizabeth]

saw my friend for coffee and a gf cupcake this morning, going to throw pottery this afternoon with a couple of work pals! what a time

need to remember that things are p good and I have lots of people that care about me! am going to the cricket tomorrow with other friends too, what an excellent weekend

[victoriaeelizabeth]

Back to work today - huge struggle! But on the plus side I’ve got to show loads of people my photos (that I’m sure they are pretending to be interested in) and I’m about to have a chilled summer with loads of fun activities ahead.

[victoriaeelizabeth]

J was back in the UK for less than 12 hours, we drove home last night from the airport, then I got up at 3am to drive him back to the airport so he can go to Budapest for the Champions League final - what a fantastic wife I am

[victoriaeelizabeth]

getting married is soooo good for your self esteem. people are lining up to tell you how amazing you looked and how much fun they’ve had, and honestly as a person with very low self esteem, it has been quite nice actually

[victoriaeelizabeth]

We are married! I jumped into the pool at the end of the night with my dress on 10/10 would recommend

[victoriaeelizabeth]

Did I sleep last night? Barely. Am I getting married today? YES

[victoriaeelizabeth]

aha and arsenal have gone and won the league, if carlsberg did weeks etc

[victoriaeelizabeth]

I’m getting married on Friday 🥹 we’re flying to Italy today. I’m so excited!

[victoriaeelizabeth]

For anyone invested or following my wedding documents saga (precisely no one except me), the legalised documents have been delivered to the registry office in Italy today and hopefully there will be no more drama! Huge amounts of expense incurred but at least it is all sorted now.

[victoriaeelizabeth]

So we have spent an extortionate amount of money to get new certificates and declarations sorted, which given the amount of time we had left before the wedding, needed to be fast tracked. Got all this together, and dropped them off yesterday with an express legalisation service to go this morning.

I've just been rung by the Legalisation Office team to say the original documents have just turned up (bearing in mind they were posted over 3 weeks ago) and what would I like to do with them. Couldn't bloody write it.

[victoriaeelizabeth]

Not sure if it’s stress related or just a coincidence but I’ve picked up a nasty UTI 😢 I’ve not had one for years and years and I forgot how bloody miserable they are

Off to the GP this morning to beg for antibiotics

[victoriaeelizabeth]

Documents still lost, obtained new ones at significant emotional and financial cost so that is fun. In other news, I think that asking people to pay for hotel rooms is probably the most excruciating and awful thing I’ve ever done. We’re giving people the night of the wedding for free and then asking for contributions for the rest (based on individual circumstances) and I swear I’ve never felt so awkward in my whole life.

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Wedding drama continues - we’ve had to post our documents back to the legalisation office via Tracked 24 and it seems they have been lost 🥲 they are 3 days late now, post office has confirmed they’ve gone and the legalisation office has confirmed they haven’t arrived. We do not have time to get new certificates of no impediment or statutory declarations and I am seriously concerned.

[victoriaeelizabeth]

Update: documents still lost! Registry office can do us a copy of the CNIs which is nice, then to meet a lawyer next week to redo the statutory declarations (at great expense), then get them legalised (again) at greater expense this time due to needing them fast tracked. Another debacle occurred with the wrong venue on our CNIs but apparently Italy don’t care enough about it and we should be ok. Then we send all the documents, which hopefully haven’t been lost again, to Italy. 🙃

Can’t express how stressful this has been. Getting married in 36 days. Lol. Royal Mail compensation I’m coming for you. To think if the FCDO could just spell properly, this wouldn’t have ever been an issue.

[victoriaeelizabeth]

Wedding drama continues - we’ve had to post our documents back to the legalisation office via Tracked 24 and it seems they have been lost 🥲 they are 3 days late now, post office has confirmed they’ve gone and the legalisation office has confirmed they haven’t arrived. We do not have time to get new certificates of no impediment or statutory declarations and I am seriously concerned.