Ok so I had a sort of epiphany the other day when it comes to shifting and while I haven't put it into practice yet, it's put things into perspective a little bit better for me and I thought maybe it might help somebody else too.
I think I finally realized what people mean when they're talking about "just letting go" of shifting while trying. It really is just that, letting go. But I'm not gonna sit here and write about it in some vague way where I tell you that all it turns out to be "really is just letting go" and wtv other vague recycled words that only make sense once you've actually HAD said epiphany for the whole post, bc if I do that then we're all in the same place as before, and nobody has any insight into what it is that finally clicked (It's a bit of a pet peeve of mine when people do that in their posts).
The overall consensus from what I've seen is that it means more enjoying the process and not thinking about the fact that you're in your CR still, but that can seem kind of hard and be a bit tricky to fully wrap our (at least my) head around. Especially when the advice is "just set an intention and forget it" or something similar because it still leaves the question of HOW to do that (and/or why it's so important to do).
Well I was having a particularly bad bout of insomnia the other night, and I was tossing and turning but just COULD NOT fall asleep for the life of me (this is relevant I promise). And then I realized that it was because I was too preoccupied TRYING to fall asleep. My mind was abuzz with the fact that I'd been listening to a podcast for a while now and still hadn't fallen asleep, or I'd toss and turn while still thinking about how frustratingly awake I was. Eventually, after I came to the realization that I was still awake because I was thinking too hard about still being awake, I forced myself to think of literally anything else, and eventually I fell asleep without even realizing.
When I woke up the next morning I realized that this is honestly (probably) what people must mean when they talk about setting an intention and not focusing on still being in the CR. It's just like sleep. If you focus too hard on falling asleep, and the fact that you're not asleep yet, it keeps you up longer. And while I haven't been able to put it into use yet, I think the same thing can apply to shifting. When we're too busy focusing on the method or sub or doing steps to count down but wondering when it's working, it's actively preventing us from getting there. We're so caught up in the fact that we aren't there yet, and all we really need is to just let go and think about anything else, allowing ourselves to find our way there without even realizing it. Just like in sleep.







