just vibin

hey im M, they/them/theirs, multifandom but mostly hatsune miku, i draw stuff

[vividcitrus]

act of creation

piece i did for the monthly anthology Quit Your Job, Join My Zine! 28 pages of gay stuff. whats there not to love

QYJ Issue #5 - June 2025

Quit Your Job: Join My Zine!Issue #5 - "Iridescent"Thank you for checking out our fifth issue, for June 2025! Inside, you'll find works by s

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Time to put in your two weeks notice- Quit Your Job: Join My Zine! is a brand new prompt-based zine dropping monthly to a platform near you! This collaboration features the work of emerging artists looking to share their stories with the world.

Gumroad download link below!

(Tips appreciated but not necessary!)

QYJ Issue #1 - February 2025

Quit Your Job: Join My Zine!Issue #1 - "Daily Life"Thank you for checking out our first issue, for February 2025! Inside, you'll find works

[quityourjobzine]

Time to put in your two weeks notice- Quit Your Job: Join My Zine! is a brand new prompt-based zine dropping monthly to a platform near you! This collaboration features the work of emerging artists looking to share their stories with the world.

Gumroad download link below!

(Tips appreciated but not necessary!)

QYJ Issue #1 - February 2025

Quit Your Job: Join My Zine!Issue #1 - "Daily Life"Thank you for checking out our first issue, for February 2025! Inside, you'll find works

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shes so me

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MONITORING

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Today, October 18th, I'm saying happy birthday to my favorite Psyncer, Kuruto Ryuki!

The incredible @vividcitrus illustrated my transmasc Ryuki headcanon comfortably showing top surgery scars on the beach!

More on my story below the cut :)

Ryuki is absolutely the Psyncer I see myself in the most. I love all the Psyncers and really tons of the characters in AI: THE SOMNIUM FILES and nirvanA Initiative dearly, but Ryuki is the closest one I have to a kin.

When I first met him upon starting the game, I resonated immediately; he plays the somewhat asexual-coded straight-man to Tama's sexy routine which immediately endeared me, and his fluctuations between needing to prove himself and be the one to solve the case to being severely depressed at not being good enough... Yeah! No, hello, that's me lol.

I wasn't really a part of his little fanclub before release, but oh boy did I fall hard and fast for the scuffly little cutie, and that love only grew stronger as the game went on- seeing Ryuki getting so absorbed in his job he forgets himself, seeing him so focused on one way to solve things that he has to make impossible choices, seeing him get paralyzed by choice when it matters most... Yeah! I mean yeah that's all me yeah. Not to his extreme levels of course but oh yeah no every scene with him only made me love him more.

He's just adorable... Ahhh I want to put my hands through his hair... Ahem, anyways, as soon as I finished the game I was like damn... I might have a kinnie... And I don't think I'm exactly a Ryuki Kin per-se, but I do very much see myself when I look at him.

I am also transmasc! Specifically, agender, but who knows where my journey will take me. I have a hard time struggling to think of what I want to look like; I don't have a real sense of identity much at all, let alone visual identity. Most of my self-image is a big ole void.

But I know there are certain parts of me I'd love removed LOL to I reached out to m, the artist, and we chatted- I've always had a soft spot for transmasc Ryuki and been kinda hoping someone would draw him someday, so fuck it, I decided I make it happen myself. In the process of this commission, I forced myself to really think about how I'd want to look, how my scars would look, if I wanted nipple grafts, etc., and m was super happy to work with me on all of that!

The final version, with the more understated scars following the natural curve of the pecs that go from below the armpit to mid chest and no nipple grafts, makes me actually feel good... Like, hey, maybe someday I too could be topless on a beach, smiling and confident... It's a far-off dream that I have to save a lot for, but hey... That murky swirling void in my head has cleared up just a little bit, enough for me to be able to see a happier future for myself, and that's everything really.

I know I'll never look like Ryuki exactly, there are a lot of obstacles to this, but at the very least, when I find money and a surgeon, I can say "that. That's how I want to look, and that's how I'd feel looking like that." Which is more than I've ever been able to do! Dysphoria is my constant companion, but euphoria tends to elude me... @vividcitrus turned the tables on that!

[mimzy630]

Today, October 18th, I'm saying happy birthday to my favorite Psyncer, Kuruto Ryuki!

The incredible @vividcitrus illustrated my transmasc Ryuki headcanon comfortably showing top surgery scars on the beach!

More on my story below the cut :)

Ryuki is absolutely the Psyncer I see myself in the most. I love all the Psyncers and really tons of the characters in AI: THE SOMNIUM FILES and nirvanA Initiative dearly, but Ryuki is the closest one I have to a kin.

When I first met him upon starting the game, I resonated immediately; he plays the somewhat asexual-coded straight-man to Tama's sexy routine which immediately endeared me, and his fluctuations between needing to prove himself and be the one to solve the case to being severely depressed at not being good enough... Yeah! No, hello, that's me lol.

I wasn't really a part of his little fanclub before release, but oh boy did I fall hard and fast for the scuffly little cutie, and that love only grew stronger as the game went on- seeing Ryuki getting so absorbed in his job he forgets himself, seeing him so focused on one way to solve things that he has to make impossible choices, seeing him get paralyzed by choice when it matters most... Yeah! I mean yeah that's all me yeah. Not to his extreme levels of course but oh yeah no every scene with him only made me love him more.

He's just adorable... Ahhh I want to put my hands through his hair... Ahem, anyways, as soon as I finished the game I was like damn... I might have a kinnie... And I don't think I'm exactly a Ryuki Kin per-se, but I do very much see myself when I look at him.

I am also transmasc! Specifically, agender, but who knows where my journey will take me. I have a hard time struggling to think of what I want to look like; I don't have a real sense of identity much at all, let alone visual identity. Most of my self-image is a big ole void.

But I know there are certain parts of me I'd love removed LOL to I reached out to m, the artist, and we chatted- I've always had a soft spot for transmasc Ryuki and been kinda hoping someone would draw him someday, so fuck it, I decided I make it happen myself. In the process of this commission, I forced myself to really think about how I'd want to look, how my scars would look, if I wanted nipple grafts, etc., and m was super happy to work with me on all of that!

The final version, with the more understated scars following the natural curve of the pecs that go from below the armpit to mid chest and no nipple grafts, makes me actually feel good... Like, hey, maybe someday I too could be topless on a beach, smiling and confident... It's a far-off dream that I have to save a lot for, but hey... That murky swirling void in my head has cleared up just a little bit, enough for me to be able to see a happier future for myself, and that's everything really.

I know I'll never look like Ryuki exactly, there are a lot of obstacles to this, but at the very least, when I find money and a surgeon, I can say "that. That's how I want to look, and that's how I'd feel looking like that." Which is more than I've ever been able to do! Dysphoria is my constant companion, but euphoria tends to elude me... @vividcitrus turned the tables on that!

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cover art for my sasunaru fanfic:

After an ambush on a disastrous mission, Naruto appears to have lost his memory. Sasuke has to make a choice and learn how to navigate his relationship with Naruto again. How do you treat the person who held the world for you when they don't even remember your name?

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the two s' in sasuke stand for saw and scream

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yellow

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obligatory hyperfixation interacting with hatsune miku post

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i have brainworms

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lets go 2 am posting how we feeling

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short haired miku ftw

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✨⚓To an exciting 12th adventure to GUMI!⚓✨ 

This year we want to celebrate under-appreciated songs, specifically ones with under 93k views! We hope you’ll have fun checking out the songs you’re interested in by clicking on the drawing on the homepage! 

⬇️full size image and original theme song at⬇️

gumicollab2021.tumblr.com 

(Please note the website is best viewed on a browser via desktop)

This year’s original theme song is “透明な手を握るとき / Holding Your Transparent Hand” by yoruno.  Website design is by hikusa (@hikukastel​), and the main visual design is by peedee (@pierrotsdrawer). 

As always, a huge thank you to all 93 artists who joined Gumicollab 2021!

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albedo but he has elf ears like klee

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was this the answer you were searching for, traveler?