a playlist consisting of 8 tracks that remind me of chaewon. ( listen here + plus one bonus track because spotify doesn’t have track 7 )
track 001: rainbow kitten surprise, painkillers.
“living just comes with a bit of heartache,
heartache comes with a bit of young faith
faith stays young ‘til your heart gets broken,
hope grows up to become someday
i’ll never hurt no one and no one will ever hurt me,
i believe, i believe, i believe
faith plays dumb ‘til the doubts all leave.”
chaewon has always been laughably optimistic. a lot of people misunderstand her as being naive, and she’ll never correct them; she doesn’t think naive is a bad thing to be, anyway. the truth is that she’s just as uncertain as everyone else, but she’s found that the best way to silence her self-doubt is to fake confidence until it becomes real. you could say that she has too much faith in the universe, but sometimes, faith is exactly what you need to become who you want to be.
“to all the people that were mean,
he just channeled your energy.
and hey, look who’s laughing now,
he said thank you for your doubts.
and to the people that believed,
he just channeled your energy.”
chaewon definitely wasn’t destined to become an idol. she was a clumsy, awkward kid without an ounce of coordination, and when she first started dancing, she was laughed at endlessly — even by her family. everyone tried to gently turn her away from performing, but she pretended that she didn’t know what they were doing and used their laughter as motivation to get better. to make sure that no one would ever have a reason to laugh at her again.
track 003: onlychild, lost.
“together we will never be lost,
keep running and we’ll never be caught.
and once you get the feeling, don’t stop,
together we will never be lost.”
chaewon is the type of person who lives in the moment and takes every risk, regardless of the probability of failure. she believes that the only way to get what she wants out of life is to run towards it without fear — this applies to anything from her bigger goals like becoming an idol to the smaller ones, like just having a good day. she tries to encourage those around her to have the same outlook.
track 004: sleeping at last, body.
“there’s magic in our bones,
a north star in our soul
that remembers our way home.
god, it’s easy to forget
that there’s magic in all of this.”
all things considered, chaewon views life as a very beautiful experience. she’s able to find something positive in even the worst circumstances ( even if it’s a reach ), and that optimism helps her to enjoy every moment while it lasts. she’s constantly reminding herself of what a blessing it is so be alive, to be here, to have the opportunities that she has. she’s the only one living life through her eyes, and to her, that’s magical.
“we live in cities you’ll never see on screen;
not very pretty, but we sure know how to run things.
living in ruins of a palace within my dreams
and you know, we’re on each other’s team.”
as much as chaewon truly does want to be an idol, she can’t deny how difficult the process is. it takes a toll on even the strongest people, and she’s sure that it will only be harder when she debuts and everyone’s watching even more than they already are. but she doesn’t let the bad things crush her spirits — she’s excited for her future and where it will take not only her, but the other members of lark, too. they’re a team, and as long as she’s with them, she’s confident that she’ll be okay.
track 006: ajr, 100 bad days.
“100 bad days made 100 good stories,
100 good stories make me interesting at parties.
no, i ain’t scared of you,
no, i ain’t scared of you no more.”
a lot of bad ( ahem —— embarrassing ) things happen to chaewon, but she wouldn’t change any of it. to live a life with no obstacles can hardly be called living, and even if something gets her down in the moment, she can usually look back on it and laugh, or at least be happy that it’s a thing of the past. at this point, she’ll gladly tell life to do its worst.
track 007: alec benjamin, on your speakers.
“tell me you won’t forget.
remember the night we met,
rewind like an old cassette
and i’ll be the song that’s on your speakers,
playing for you, you, you.”
everything about chaewon’s life before she became a trainee was inglorious, and in my ways, her life still is. there’s nothing that she’s ever wanted so much as to become someone she can be proud of, someone who can cause the best kind of scene and leave things different than they were before she found them. she’s ready to take on the world, but at the same time, she’s afraid of leaving behind who she was and even who she will be. she never wants things to end, but she knows everything has to, sooner or later, so she only hopes to leave such a mark on people that the memories will remain forever.
track 008: this wild life, catie rae.
“you’ve always been just what i’m missing,
but never ever knew.
you’ve always earned just what you’re given,
never handed to you.
you’ll always be my best decision,
my one and only truth.
you’ll always be my heartbeat, my rhythm,
it’s always been you.”
this is a love song, BUT i think it depicts how chaewon feels about lark very well. she’s always wanted to be a performer, but she probably wouldn’t still be so passionate about it if she wasn’t grouped with girls whom she loves to the end of the earth. she always seemed confident & like she knew where she was headed, but chaewon didn’t know what she was walking into when she joined summit media. but she found something better than she ever could’ve hoped for with the girls; her loyalty will always lie with lark.
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