Your reaction actually startled you a bit. And you don’t know why you even reacted like you did. It didn’t make any sense to you.
You laughed.
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Their head was swimming. It was swimming in a good way, feeling like swirling winds and heavy tides of water crashing against their skull. Something heavy was pulling them down but the bottom was not to be feared. This relief was almost a suffocating one, and only after they let out a sigh and attempt to relax did they realize just how tense their muscles had been.
They didn’t even try to act like his snow puns weren’t terribly missed.More laughter escaped their tiny frame, face still buried in fluffy coat. A heaviness and a lightness both had found them, and Sans was keeping them somewhere in the middle. Grounded. Safe.
It became clear to Frisk soon that the more they felt this safety, the more obvious it was that someone did not. A sudden ache was present in their SOUL, twisting it up and pinching t the ends like an empty can of soda.
Frisk struggles a bit to maneuver in Sans’ hold just so they are still in the skeleton’s hug but also able to look over their shoulder. Chara isn’t really out in the open but the child can still tell the spirit is there.
[I’m sorry]
They immediately assume the issue was leaving Toriel behind, and to be fair Frisk is still very upset about it as well, the issue has just been pressed further in their mind. That and, despite their close connection, the fallen human still did not know all there is to know about Chara- they knew some of their likes and dislikes, but most of their immediate knowledge ended there.
The lost child almost doesn't see the would-be savior's gesture of kindness. They would have missed it completely had the latter not struggled in Sans' hold to sign their sympathies at them. In a gesture that would have been unheard of just mere months ago, Chara places a careful, yet still chilling, hand on the child's shoulder. Though the contact is brief it still speaks volumes where the spirit cannot.
The contact lasts but a moment before they're a distance away once more, attempting to re-solidify their resolve before they're forced to move once again. They stare at the door once more, and a small pang of yearning sweeps through them before they turn to face the grey horizon, face some indescribable amalgum of emotions. This was their choice, just like everything else was, and they were going to see this through to the end.
Even if all they wanted to do was savor the warmth of being embraced by their loved ones, even if all they wanted to do was go back to those shitty days where, though resets loomed in the not so distant horizon, they still had people who knew them and loved them and. . .Well, that wasn't quite fair. There was still the guide, trapped in the void as he was, who they loved very much and the plethora of other lost souls, though one in particular came to mind, that they didn't entirely hate. But the feeling remained. No matter how much they reminded themselves they still had or how good the times before were, they missed their home.
And home wasn't just a huge castle in a city, or a small cottage in the ruins. Home was Toriel's pie, and Asgore's garden, and bed time stories that were much too fun and exciting to put anyone to sleep. Home was Asriel, kind and strong, and willing to do whatever he could and yet somehow managed to not be a doormat. Home was a weird scientist with grey morals and his two sons, all different and interesting in their own ways; Papyrus with his exuberance and patience and willingness to try anything.
Home was Sans; A friend, a beacon, and a pillar. Someone who held you up and reminded you what was important, even when you felt you were breaking into something awful. A constant in an otherwise maddening life sentence of rewinds. Home was all of these things and more.
And home was gone.











