Bitter

She/her 22 Mostly a diary/vent account

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My name is Mai, not my real name but someone dear made it up for me a long time ago.

I’m 22, I like anything what to do with art

This is my diary, I don’t expect many people to read I or even look at this stuff besides the people I talk about

I’d love if someone did though <3

There’s something wrong with me and I’m trying to work on it but this is where I keep some of my more weirder thoughts.

I’m always open to be friends, dms always open.

There are so far 8 main people I’ll post about on this blog and I’ll update it there’s ever more

-pretty girl , -pretty boy , sweet pea,, amor , honey

These are all special people to me who have caught my attention

Thanks for reading

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I don’t think I can do this anymore

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I’ve had to unlearn you in every aspect of my life

The way I miss you

The way I reach out when I’m sad

I’ve had to undo the need to come to you

Little by little

Because you’ll never really be the person I need

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I want to love gently, and quietly

But I fear there's none of that present in me

There's not a pinch of sweetness left

Just gnashing teeth and claws

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It feels like I'll be alone forever

It feels like I'll never be held the way I want

You could take me apart with your bare hands and I'd thank you

Please

A touch is enough

Just don't go

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Slide inside my skin, be inside me , I want you everywhere

Your scent

Your touch

Love me

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I want them

They’re so amazing

Love me please

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I hate the burn I get in my eyes before I cry

And the bubble in the back of my throat

I hate it

The way I curl up and whine

The way I complain when it's my fault

I can't stand it

I can't stand me sometimes

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Crybaby.

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Touch me

Give me something to cry about

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What's the point?

I should've given up awhile ago it's getting ridiculous

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I hate when your gone

I feel Sick to my stomach

-honey

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"you just want attention." yeah, i do. so are you gonna give it to me or not?

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I don’t think I’m able to admit I’m a nice person

There always has to be a motive or an underlying thought about it

I feel so performative but it makes people happy and it makes me happy too

Is lying really that bad?

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Love me, or don’t , your all the same in my eyes

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slap me , hit me , yell at me . anything you want . just don ' t ignore me .

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I’m gonna drink lemonade out of a wine glass and get really pathetic today

Any takers?

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Alone on Valentine’s Day, what a tragedy

To not feel so bad I’m making myself a gourmet dinner, who wants to join me?