stupid dog

she/her, 17, be stoic or something idgaf

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hi wife...

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I think the school should blow up and my wives should be able to have everything they've ever wanted. A home with their loved ones and a stress free environment. I also think I'd rather live under a bridge like a troll than live in my household.

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I shouldn't be allowed to think past 12am

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Life is joyous again but I miss puppet someone shoot me

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I'm lowk built diff cuz I've only cried once, only 1 redbull, and I'm 2/3 of this week tests. I finished an ISU in one night, did the test the next day, carried my friend. I learned 2 whole units so far, and soon I will learn another.

My sleep schedule is so fucked I haven't had a full 5-9 sleep but like... I'm making miracles so who cares.

Yall ain't shit, we got this

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I'm lowk so stressed I feel nauseous and scared and an impeding sense of doom. I hate school. The only thing that break did was show me that school was the problem.

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when my wife says jokingly that I'm fine shyt so now I don't have to kms

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How I pulled them I have no fucking clue. Thank you me for your humour n weirdo behaviour and niche interests

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when my wife says jokingly that I'm fine shyt so now I don't have to kms

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Revisiting old thoughts. Thanks Matt Martians for making An Eater.

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- Stupid Mutt loves ragebaiting A

- Stupid Mutt loves her wife

- Mutt loves rotting w/ wife

- Mutt loves to sleep

- Mutt likes A touching her

- Mutt is still hesitant touching wife which is so stupid. Stupid Mutt. Skill issue.

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Mutt really wants wife to touch her

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- Stupid Mutt loves ragebaiting A

- Stupid Mutt loves her wife

- Mutt loves rotting w/ wife

- Mutt loves to sleep

- Mutt likes A touching her

- Mutt is still hesitant touching wife which is so stupid. Stupid Mutt. Skill issue.

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I miss being carelessly happy. This school year makes me feel sad. I'm sad. And tired.

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If this school year doesn't get better (which I expect it won't,) this will be me.

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This has been the worst fucking school year holy shit.

I've been handed balls I cannot shoot. Someone is genuinely praying on my downfall and I am so pissed. I failed my grades, I got appendicitis, a polyp in my body, disappointed my parents, irritated by anybody and everybody, shit teacher, constant headaches, seasonal sickness, general unhappiness. I am so sick and tired. I'm tired of being tired. Where is my whimsy I cannot find it within me.

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I need someone to get angry at me and call me a bad person so I can snap back and actually let myself be a bad person everyone PLEASEEEEEEE it would be so good for me

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Stupid dog is sick 🫩 and has a thousand things to do

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On the verge of crashing out but I don't have time to crashout so instead I'm extremely high strung and ready to burst into tears every 5 seconds

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I also just finished talking to 2 friends and my gf and I think those 3 convos were the most I've expressed my emotions and thoughts in a while