Steve puts his paintbrush down. He runs his hands over Bucky's blue-painted stomach and over the trail of hair that leads to his pants.
"Wanna see what other colors look like too," Steve says, letting his fingers roam and listening to the sounds Bucky makes when he does. "Gotta be prepared next time."
"Sure. Whatever you want. Told you," Bucky says, and then his hips rock up under Steve's. The angle's not right and the friction's not perfect. It's still enough that both of them groan. Steve wonders how long Bucky's been holding himself back and trying to resist moving like that. "Just— can you— please?"
"Don't know what you're asking for," Steve says. He sort of does. He's got a couple ideas, anyway. But the idea of Bucky saying it, actually asking, is too good to pass up.
"You're so — c'mere," Bucky says as he guides Steve closer to him with the hand he's got on Steve's back. "You plannin' to kiss me?"
— I Wanna Live in the Hidden Parts of Your Skin
Stucky:
Explicit:
There's a Light (I Find It At Your Side) | Canon Divergent | Complete | 4,537 words | A very soft fic about all the little things that keep surprising Bucky now that he and Steve are together.
There Are Strangers I Have Yet To Become | Canon Divergent | Complete | 16,070 words | Steve finds Bucky in Bucharest before the events of Captain America: Civil War. They work a few things out.
I Held You in Cold Hands (And I'm Not Letting Go) | AU: Modern | Complete | 48,785 words | A holiday rom-com in which Bucky reads to children, Steve teaches art, new friendships are made, difficult conversations are had, cookies are baked, way too much coffee is consumed, home is found in surprising places and, eventually, feelings are confessed
I Wanna Live in the Hidden Parts of Your Skin | Pre-war + Canon divergent | Complete | 10,278 words | Steve and Bucky discover a kink in 1940. They find a reason to come back to it 80 years later.
Where Were You When I Was King in This Part of Town? | AU: Modern | WIP | 15,232 words 2 of 3 chapters posted | Bucky probably shouldn't have sex with Steve in his office, continue having sex with Steve after he learns how much younger than him Steve is, start actually dating Steve, or fall for Steve hard and fast. Unless, of course, Bucky should absolutely do every one of those things.
If I Could Stop The Clock With You Tonight | AU: Modern | Complete | 10,855 words | Natasha hires a private chef to cook Steve's birthday dinner. Steve's not too sure about the idea of a total stranger in his apartment on his birthday, but Chef James is incredibly attractive and very charming. He also seems oddly familiar. That might just be because Steve has met him before.
Hearts Don't Need a Break (I'll Be Waiting For You | Canon Divergent: ShrunkyClunks | Complete | 4,615 words | Bucky enthusiastically welcomes Steve back after a long absence, and they have a very overdue conversation about their relationship — and their feelings.
Darling, Let's Take Our Time (While It's Still Ours To Take) | AU: Star Wars | Complete | 6,682 words | Steve's a rebel pilot with a target on his back, Bucky runs a bar that's a hub for rebel activity, and the two of them have a long history. It's a Star Wars AU.
Must Be Kiss Me, So Kiss Me | (AU: Modern | Explicit | 26,642 words | complete | Steve is just looking for a way to get a box of things back to its rightful owner when he sends the email. He's not expecting to get anything beyond a forwarding address in return. He's definitely not expecting to fall for the man who responds. An AU featuring Steve, Bucky, one terrible ex-boyfriend, so many text messages, a shameless amount of flirting, a little bit of sexting, some slightly concerned friends, plenty of kisses, and a lot of feelings.)
But Slowly, Because You Know Me | Pre-War | 5,186 words| Complete | Thanksgiving this year feels strange and terrible, and it leaves Steve in an awful mood. Good thing Bucky's got an idea. A pre-war Thanksgiving fic featuring pie slices, a makeshift blindfold, their fire escape, and a lot of feelings.
Baby, Lay Your Burden Down | Wartime | 2,867 words | Complete | Bucky, Steve, a tent, and a cold night in Europe.
And We're on Our Own in the Afterglow | Canon Divergent | | WIP | 9,028 words | 2/5 chapters | Steve, Bucky, and a month's vacation in a mountain cabin. Featuring Steve's art, a fireplace, online shopping, so very much pining, two beds (but eventual sharing anyway), comfort for decades of hurt, and even some talk about feelings.
Mature:
As Your Heart Keeps Me Warm | Canon + Canon divergence | Complete | 8,024 words | Steve Rogers at exactly 2:14 am on 10 different sleepless nights between 1937 and 2020.
We Were Strangers for Far Too Long |AU: Historic | Complete | 5,314 words | It's the late 1970s, and two boys from Brooklyn spend most of their days breaking the law. Bucky, because there's no other way to work off a debt owed to dangerous people. Steve, because maybe if he paints his message on the side of the C Train, someone will finally listen. Meeting each other doesn't change anything. Until it changes everything.
But You Can Hold Me (Only 'Cause It's a Cold Night In Brooklyn) | Pre-war | Complete | 3,300 words | Sometimes, Bucky and Steve lend each other a hand, literally. Bucky tries not to be weird about it, but he's always been bad at controlling his thoughts about Steve.
In The Mood To Let You Know | AU: Historic | 5,189 words | WIP | During the height of the 1918 flu outbreak in New York, a seventeen-year-old Steve spends a month indoors. Steve and Bucky write letters to pass the time and keep in communication. By the time Steve is out and about again, they've said a few things they'll never say out loud. At least not until 1925, when Bucky can't seem to stop running into Steve in unexpected places. )
Teen:
We Set a Precedent, and Now I'm Living With It AU: Modern | Complete | 8,212 words | Work friends Bucky and Steve get into the habit of helping each other escape uncomfortable, awkward, or bad situations. Their escape plans get increasingly elaborate as their friendship gets increasingly close. That's probably why their whole office thinks they're actually dating.
A Kiss Just Waiting to Happen AU: Modern | Complete | 3,470 words | College boys Steve and Bucky have been checking each other out in the hallways of their apartment building for the better part of a school year. Then they get trapped in an elevator together. Because sometimes we all need a little trope-y goodness.
Don’t Need to Read My Mind (There’s Only One Thing That I Want) | AU: Modern | Complete | 5,530 words | Bucky is very competent and is doing a pretty great job at just about everything — except handling his feelings for Steve. He's doing a terrible job at that. It's a problem.
The Danger is: I'm Dangerous | AU: Shrinkyclinks | Complete | 4,299 words| (Or: It's a Shrinkyclinks meet cute! Featuring a post-TWS Bucky who takes on gigs tailing people's cheating spouses, and a small Steve who makes art and doesn't intimidate easily.)
Gen:
Following the Outline of Your Face | Canon | Complete| 1,000 words | A ficlet about vacations, drawing, and the good light.
Set the Date, Set the Time (‘Cause We Already Know Where We’re Going) | AU: Modern | Complete | 5,161 words | Steve teaches art to kids. He's used to his students not always being focused on art, and he's used to them being very curious about him. He's not at all used to them trying to set him up with their adult family members, but he can't complain about it. Not when the family member he's been set up with walks through his classroom door and is the most beautiful man Steve has ever seen.
You're a Gem But Not a Saint | Pre-war | Complete | 1,700 words | Steve doesn't show up for dinner. Bucky wishes he could think Steve just forgot.
CA: TWS 10th Anniversary ficlets | Canon + Canon divergence | Gen -> Mature |5,700 words total | Complete | No warnings
Additional ships, fandoms, and original work:
MCU |Polyamory: Cap Quartet Combinations
"Right now, he smells like his musky cedar-noted body wash, faintly of weed and also, actually, like Steve. Nat laughs softly when she catches the familiar scent of Steve's favorite tobacco-scented soap mixing in. It's honestly a really pleasant effect that could pass as intentional if she didn't know them both so well.
"Mm?" Bucky says in response to her laughter. Nat turns her face just slightly but stays in the crook of his neck.
"You smell like Steve was here," Nat points out, Bucky grins, and she watches the motion of his jaw when he does. He passes her their dwindling joint again before he answers.
"Steve lives here," Bucky says. Nat pokes at his stomach for it with her free hand and then leaves her hand on the soft fabric of his sweater. "And six hours ago he was in a much better mood," Bucky adds. Nat laughs again.
— I'm Gonna Keep You Weak In The Knees (Try To Unlock Your Heart)
I'm Gonna Keep You Weak In The Knees (Try To Unlock Your Heart) | AU: Modern | Bucky/Natasha, Bucky/Natasha/Steve | Explicit | Complete | 4,360 words | Bucky and Nat share a joint and then have sex. Steve fights with people on the internet
Success Was Survival And Kid, It Still Is | Canon-set | Steve/Natasha/Sam| Explicit |Complete | 6,100 words | It's another night in another seedy motel room, and Nat's feeling the stress of their latest mission. Steve and Sam help her stop thinking for a while.
Non-MCU Fandoms
Drew wants to do it forever the second it starts. He puts a hand on Eli's knee and Eli folds into him a little. Drew's swimming, and he's floating.
It feels easy in the best way. It's easy, like slipping into a jacket that's all broken and fits you perfectly, and easy like drumming the tempo of a song you've played a thousand times with beats that have sunken into your own pulse. It's easy, like when a new pair of jeans fit just right after the first wash, and easy like when you're learning a brand new song and your hands find the beat like you knew it already.
It's easy, like things that are natural, safe, comfortable, yours, and good. It's easy in a way Drew didn't know being with a person could be.
— Yes, a Heart Should Always Go One Step Too Far
Skies Open up (And I Don't Even Have to Touch You) (Heated Rivalry (TV)) | Shane/Ilya | Explicit | Complete | 6,092 words | Novelty, first times, cock warming, and so, so many feelings.
Just Us Spanning Light Years (Meet Me In The Sky) Star Wars | Han/Lando | General | Compete | 500 words | A tiny moment in a faraway part of the galaxy.
Your Girl She's a Renegade (A Hurricane That Keeps You There Safe) | Pretty Little Liars | Hanna/Spencer | Mature | Complete | 3,260 words | A noir-style AU featuring vigilante girlfriends Spencer and Hanna.
You Forget, I've Known You Seven Years | Pretty Little Liars | Toby/Caleb | 9,700 words | Teen | Complete | A Five Times Fic. Five Toby and Caleb scenes that could be canon. And one that diverges off to start an entirely new story.
So I Could Blend in With the Sky | The Secret Garden | Collin/Dickon | General | Complete | 5,300 words | Sometimes, it felt as if Dickon knew Colin's secrets before Colin himself did.
And It’s Cold (But You Keep Me Warm) | The Secret Garden | Colin/Dickon | General | Complete | 2,381 words | Colin, Dickon, and a private moment at an annual party.)
Yes, a Heart Should Always Go One Step Too Far | Degrassi | Eli/Drew | Teen | Complete | 6,700 words | Drew and Eli get locked in a shed during a thunderstorm. Drew has some revelations about bisexuality.
Will You Keep a Candle Burning? (Will You Let Me Come and Stay?) | Newsies expect, like, not? Look, I don't know. This is my weird little baby, though. You should totally read about my polyamorous OC newsboys, okay? | Explicit | Complete | M/M, M/M/M/M | 116,252 words | In the summer of 1899, Elijah takes a train to New York after getting kicked out of college. He finds himself thrown into the middle of a labor strike and a woefully under-negotiated polyamorous male trio. Somehow, he quickly becomes vital to both situations. He might even be the missing piece the trio has always needed. He's never been sure he believed in fate, but it quickly becomes hard for him not to think that he's exactly where he's meant to be.
When You First Took My Hand On A Cold Christmas Eve | Explicit | Complete | M/M | 5,700 words | It's a prequel to the sort-of-a-Newsies fic! | Two boys spending Christmas in a jail cell. Featuring: telling stories about Finnish Christmas customs, making homemade mistletoe, cuddling under scratchy blankets, trying out new sex ideas, and having conversations about the benefits of sticking together.
Original Work:
Gabe's doing that thing he does. Well, alright, fine. He's just sitting there. He's not actually doing anything, but it feels like he is. He's sitting there with his I'm working glasses on, his dark hair falling over his face, and a black sweater covering his small frame.
It's all a lot for Aiden to handle.
A sweater, honestly. First of all, it's warm as hell out today. Second of all, who the fuck just casually wears a sweater like that? Aiden doesn't even own any sweaters. Let alone entirely too-well-fitting, thin, and soft-looking black ones.
Every single day of Aiden's life is a struggle.
— Secretly, I'm Hoping For the Dare Again
Leave Your Legacy In Gold On The Plaques That Line The Hall | Mature | Complete | M/M | 5,100 words | Corey's best friend and stepsister are probably into each other. It's fine. Corey is secretly in love with his best friend, but it's really fine. Corey can handle this. Really.)
A Time and Place Stand Still | Teen | Complete | 19,623 words | A gay Beauty and The Beast Retelling
All Those Walls Are Caving In (It's Beautiful) | General | Complete | 4,898 words | A ghost story | Mia gets both acting advice and a request for help from a ghost.
And If All That I Could Ever Be | Explicit | Complete | M/M | 25,214 words| Declan is a famous musician guest-starring as himself on two episodes of a TV show. He's not really sure why he let his team talk him into it. Cole is a studio intern who is more than happy to help with anything Declan needs during his week on set.
So Tell Me Your Type, 'Cause Right Now I'm Listening | Explicit | WIP | M/M | 22,228 words| Ethan is spending the weekend in his hometown in an attempt to get over an ex and clear his head. He's not planning to go to a party or to spend his entire Friday night talking to his best friend's older brother. He winds up doing both. A lot can change in a weekend.
Secretly, I'm Hoping For the Dare Again | Explicit | Complete | M/M | 10,474 words | Aiden's always been a terrible liar. He can't even lie to himself, and the truth? Is that he's got a major problem. It goes like this: Aiden's best friend, his college roommate, his former tutor, and his hopeless crush? Are all the same guy.
Don't Really Wanna Stop Myself | Explicit | Complete | M/M | 10,282 words | While on tour, Caleb comes back to his hotel suite to find a hot stranger in his hotel room. It's a surprise, but it's a surprise he can absolutely work with.
This Could Be The Drug That Doesn't Bite | Explicit | Complete | M/M | 8,531 words | Miles really should have read more reviews of this bar before he came out tonight. Dustin is more than happy to offer him some advice. And to offer him a few other things.
If I Taste Bittersweet | Explicit | Complete | M/M/M/M | 13,409 words | Connor's had a run of terrible luck. He needs to earn a lot of money in the next two days. He's counting on this sex party as a way to make at least some of what he needs. He's not counting on meeting Trevor and Lucas, or on the ways they make it seem like his luck might be changing.
All The Wine is All for Me | Explicit | Complete | M/M | 8,885 words | Mark's business partners swore they were going to get him laid on his birthday. He assumed that meant they were planning to be his wingmen over a few birthday drinks. He didn't think they meant they were going to buy birthday sex for him. As it turns out? That's exactly what they meant.
you can still radiate light if you’re sad. you can still be kind and soft-hearted if you’re a bit cynical. you don’t need to be the happiest person to make someone else’s day better.
I bet once Yuna gets to know Ilya as Shane's boyfriend, all the things that used to infuriate her about him as a player become endearing to her instead. Like before she would call him an asshole for the way he chirps everyone endlessly but now it's a good strategy and isn't it impressive how he's twice as clever in his second language as most other players in the league are in their first?
Shane calls her out on this change of heart and Yuna pretends she doesn't know what he's talking about.
"bottom" please consider 🫵 whether the word you are looking for is in fact "submissive" ! because if we decide that taking dick means your personality & character r inherently subservient 😃 we might as well just throw in the towel on the most basic premise of feminism & 🔫 kill ourselves 🎉
One of my favorite things about loving someone or developing a closeness or fondness towards someone is also loving and developing a fondness for the things they care about. When you learn to see the world in a new way, or you learn to appreciate the things you’ve previously overlooked, or they become your excuse to get into an interest you always thought was cool but thought you didn’t have time for. When a connection makes your world bigger and warmer and fuller and more beautiful.
testimony by robbie robertson // fast car by tracy chapman // star wars dir. george lucas // born to run by bruce springsteen // thelma and louise dir. ridley scott // original screenplay of butch cassidy and the sundance kid by william goldman // sleep on the floor by the lumineers // psycho dir. alfred hitchcock // the graduate dir. mike nichols // long island city here i come by geese // midnight cowboy dir. john schlesinger // coyote by joni mitchell // punch-drunk love dir. paul thomas anderson // the last waltz dir. martin scorsese
let’s all remember that ilya professed his love to shane twice in a whispered rush and then in a hoarse tearful confession and then shane hit him with the holy shit and i love you too in his startled flat affect and then ilya’s entire face crumpled and he collapsed on top of him and shane held his head in both his big hands and kissed him on the forehead twice. let’s hold on to that ok
It turns out that you can become the person you’ve always envisioned but you’ll still have the person you were before inside of you and you have to treat them with as much forgiveness and love as possible
calling a mutual by their name and having to check you're right like omg what if they transitioned and changed their name in the twelve hours since i last saw them on my dash
Nothing more painful than when a kind stranger tells you about some random AI feature in a way that is clearly meant to be helpful and you have to choose between nodding along in despair or turning wokezilla 3000 on them